Eseme – Ma’am – A Reflection

The featured image I choose for this reflection is a photo of your blogger with her leg in a hole in the ground…A hole I tripped and fell down hard from not knowing it was there while out walking my beast…I affectionately call my dog beast because my dog is crazy…I believe my dog needs dog therapy…Seriously my dog is crazy…I had no idea how crazy my dog is until I noticed that my dog does not care about what could happen to her…My dog is 40 lbs and is considered a medium sized dog…Not a very big girl but a very feisty beast…My dog is bossy and has no fear my dog will bark at other dogs not near her…My dog is very protective and is often perceived falsely as aggressive she is not aggressive she does not attack however she is very protective of her turf…I try to teach my dog that she does not own the place…Try telling your pet this it does not work…Any who my dog needs dog therapy and who can afford expensive dog therapy? Interestingly enough I was out for a stroll this morning and met a lovely older lady who was walking with her black lab and boxer mix…Boxers have very strong jaws so she told me her dog is lovely but a rescue and that this dog hates men for some reason but loves women…I sat down on a nearby rock and with her permission pet this lovely dog who came over and checked me out and licked my face…Her dog likely hates men because her dog – a rescue was likely abused by men…Dogs also make associations based on their experiences…She told me that dog therapy is wicked expensive she looked into dog therapy for her pet which is how she knows…She told me her first name is Mary and that she was also a roman catholic but left the roman catholic church and joined a different church because by being part of a faith community she is given opportunities to serve her community…Service is something she enjoys doing for others…Many women are like Mary they love to serve in any capacity they can…Also women are normally the care takers the nurturers while the men are hunters and gatherers…The man would hunt and gather food and the woman would prepare the meal while the man rested from hunting…These days hunting and gathering still goes on but in our modern world it is not possible to run homesteads like this for many…Some still do and I enjoy watching on you tube couples who homestead and share their stories with the world…The Amish community comes to mind when I think of the old fashioned model of mankind…Having some kind of faith or believe in a higher power often sustains us…Try telling that to soldiers who return home from wars in foreign fields and lands to their own homeland not to receive a warm welcome…Try telling a soldier about God…Many soldiers have concluded there is no God that God does not exist…That God is just a story hidden behind religion to control the masses…Community though is something a soldier can appreciate and understand…Having a sense of community that is supportive of our neighbors and our local businesses that is something a soldier and most anyone can appreciate and understand…Mary is part of a faith community because this gives Mary a chance and opportunities to serve her surrounding community…Perhaps then instead of discussing God which can be often a hot topic…We can discuss community and change the discourse away from God to Community…We all need to feel like we are part of something and I can appreciate why church participation gives us a sense of community…Many also serve in health care and other areas to build a sense of community…When horrible people enter the churches not just the roman catholic church all churches and community events and activities who do harm to families who entrust their precious children to their care…Then trust is destroyed and many become angry very angry and justifiably so…The trouble with anger at least for me and many others is this…Anger often comes out sideways if we fail to address our anger issues…I find singing to be a helpful outlet for me…I can be a real bitch when I am angry and if we are honest must of us can be nasty when we are mad…Whether it is the silent treatment or other things we do in anger we often take our anger out on those we love…I do believe there is a God but I often wonder where the fuck is God these days??? — I had it out with God himself last night…I called God a fucking asshole and I told God himself that he needs to get over himself and the fact that mankind creatures he created have offended him…I felt better after doing this as it was very therapeutic for me to express my outrage to God himself…When the morning came I silently spoke to God and said God I do not hate you but you are a despicable asshole…I told God that God hates mankind…I told God that God is acting like a child and not fixing a mess he himself created…I told God to stop blaming the devil a fallen angel for everything…After all God himself created this mess therefore God himself will have to fix it…I told God that at least I am not lukewarm but that God is a fucking asshole…I told God that I do not hate God rather God hates mankind…I told God that it is too much to expect his creatures to sustain a faith a stupid meaningless faith with no direct action from God himself…I told God to get his head out of his ass and to wake the fuck up and help mankind…Yes I had it out with God himself…As the day progressed it was a good day…My son did well getting his home school work done we had our family therapy session that went well…My crazy dog was continuing to be her crazy self…I love our dog but she can drive us nuts at times…No matter how many times I get mad at my dog and yell at her or smack her snout when she is misbehaving…That dog keeps coming to me and I learn a lot from my amazing crazy dog…My dog is female she has had two litters of puppies and is feisty for reasons known to her alone reasons I many never understand…I can appreciate that my dog likely had to defend her pups and her turf in the past…I got my son a special breakfast treat this morning from a local restaurant owned by a lovely couple from Asia…They just had their second child…This lovely couple from Asia are always glad to see me and I am always happy to see this amazing hard working dedicated couple…Community is about supporting our local business as much as possible and being kind and respectful…Also being considerate of others also helps…When we feel safe and supported in our immediate communities then families and businesses flourish…My son enjoyed his breakfast treat and did well today doing his part which is his school work and helping mum with chores…I needed to apologize to both my son and the dog for being a moody bitch earlier today when I was cleaning out the fridge including the crisper section…Both forgave me a forgiveness I am grateful to receive…My son is learning not to take my moody moments personally just as I am also learning not to take my son’s moody moments personally…With God being such a hot topic these days…I have decided to look into reading a book called The 4 agreements by Don Miguel Ruiz and while Luke Mindpower a very positive public speaker and life coach debunks The 4 Agreements I share his YouTube clip with you to make a point…As human beings it is not possible for us to be perfect not one of us are prefect…God himself is not perfect therefore how in hell can humans expect perfection…God has fucked up many things…God is more narcissistic than Lucifer whose first letter I capitalize out of pity…God is worse than former President Trump who has been known for having many adult versions of temper tantrums…The four agreements are as follows…

1…Be impeccable with your word…

2…Don’t take anything personally…

3…Don’t make assumptions…

4…Always do your best…

…The 4 Agreements…

Luke MIndpower makes many valid points such as “other people’s opinions don’t have to become your reality.” [ Luke Mindpower ] — Truth is relative to each individual due to the fact that for mere mortal human beings our perceptions are often altered…I work part time as a psychic life coach and I often tell my callers to not ask me or psychics rather ask that person of interest the direct question they are often too afraid to ask and instead often waste time and money asking psychics questions that need to be asked directly of their person of interest…Earlier today I recognized that I needed self care…So part of my self care was recognizing that today I was very cranky…I also realized I had not taken a good dump in over a week…So I took some milk of magnesium to take care of this…I also recognized that my mood was affected due to the fact that I literally needed to take a good shit…Sorry if my words offend sensibilities but self care is very important…When we neglect self care we become cranky…I took care of this and I am already feeling much better and less cranky…My son and dog are grateful I did self care today…I think to myself why can’t I be like our pet cat??? — Our Cat is always calm and loving except when she needs food or her kitty litter changed…Then all the Cat does is meow loudly till those things are done…Perhaps I should try Meowing more…The cat will scratch if she feels the need to defend herself especially when the dog is chasing her…The cat and dog are good pals now and they get along very well…My crazy dog understands that the cat is part of our pack N she is fine with that…It took six weeks to get those two comfortable with each other and I had to give my dog a kennel time out three times for behavior during those six weeks…I had to teach my dog how to behave around the cat…I then got to thinking about women in the military and how women are often unsung heroines…I myself was never in the military…I was inspired to sing my latest song titled Eseme – Ma’am in honor of a female soldier I spoke to a few times who lost her faith in God after serving in the Military in the capacity of a body bag service woman…She had to rappelle from a helicopter to pick up the dead in foreign fields foreign lands…In the process of this hell that she lived through she lost her faith in God and man…Please join me in a moment of silence for all women who serve our world who are often unsung…I dedicate this post to our women who are currently serving and who have served Militaries around the globe…My song describes the God awful burden women have to carry…This song begs the question where the fuck is God??? — I answer I don’t fucking know…Instead let us all focus on Community and doing our best to build a safe community in our immediate neighborhoods so that our children can grow up and have real futures…

…………A moment of silence please…………

…Eseme – Ma’am…

…………Namaste…………