Mystical Remedy – A Reflection

I decided to write a reflection on Mystical Remedy…The reason I write this reflection is to share with the world my frail humanity my human struggles…I was recently full of rage over a trauma my son experienced as a toddler…A trauma I failed to prevent from happening to my son between the tender ages of two and four…Never ask a mother who has failed to protect her toddler from vile trauma how she feels…Words cannot express my rage…For at least four days I woke up angry I went to sleep angry and every time I woke up I yelled I screamed bloody murder and yes I was very loud…Thanks be to God the local police department have gotten to know me…I recently graduated from their local Citizen’s Police Academy educational program…As such when calls were made for well checks by concerned neighbors the local PD were already well versed…You see I took the liberty of contacting the local non emergency PD phone line and only with their permission as they are very busy was I given space to rant…I ranted I raved I shouted I cussed I said many bat shit crazy stuff…The local PD understood my rage just as they also understand I am not dangerous to myself or anyone else…I cannot praise the local police department where I live enough…They are brilliant they are kind and they have empathy…As an empath myself I am a terrible liar and I would make a very sloppy and bad criminal…When I become angry my anger comes out sideways and in odd ways…Ask my friend Linda she will tell you I can be very sassy…Linda recently sent me a text stating that she is ignoring my sassy comments and offering me some financial assistance…Linda is a Blue Diamond…I am so moved by Linda’s concrete kindness that I wrote a song titled Blue Diamond Linda…Women like Linda are rare and when you find a woman like Linda you best mind that lady for in Linda is a Blue Diamond…This woman a devout roman catholic has a heart of gold…It is not her roman catholic practices that makes Linda the Blue Diamond that she is…It is her heart her goodness her desire to help and to look beyond the pain hidden behind sassy texts…My friend Heidi is a very generous loving and kind soul…Heidi recently helped my family out with groceries…I cannot dry Heidi’s tears but I can tell Heidi how sorry I am for her losses…Heidi lost her beloved son Adam to suicide during Christmas time a number of years ago…Heidi has been through hell…Heidi is a cancer survivor and a recovering alcoholic…Heidi has battled mountains let me tell you…Heidi is a strong Christian Lady who has helped my family many times…I owe Heidi a debt of gratitude and a Mystical Remedy because I failed Heidi…Heidi knows how I failed her…What I would like Heidi to know is that I acted out of rage out of anger that my son got no justice just as my family never got justice…I did however have an epiphany that fucking my friends over by not being kind is not the answer just because I was fucked over many times does not give me the right to be nasty…I also realize that it does not matter if the perpetrator who harmed my son lives or dies because the damage is already done…Therefore I must change my focus on what matters most my Son who needs me his mother to be strong…So help me God Heidi and Linda and my family I will do my level best to help my son rise above his pain…So help me God I will rise above my own bitter rage and remedy for my own crimes my own bad manners and awful behavior…I am not perfect either…I never claimed to be perfect…I have a teenager in crisis who needs me his mother to really be present for him…I have loving friends and family who need to heal just as I need to heal…I tear up as I write this and my message to Heidi and Linda my family and friends is the same…So help me God every tear will be wiped away and your hearts filled with Joy once more…That is not a threat that is a promise…Heaven help us all…Please join me in prayers for Heidi and her family for their continued well being good health and prosperity…The same for Linda and all our friends and family…I say Our because when you pray in this way you also pray for yourself and the same blessings that you ask for are then bestowed upon you as your mystical reward for praying from hearts full of good will and holy true mystical love…A mystical love that does not boast…A mystical love that is quiet not condescending patient and kind…A mystical love that transcends phone calls or the written or spoken word…As a thank you for your follows likes and shares…Enjoy more you Tube stuff…

On a more serious note Part 1…

…On a more serious note – part 1…

On a more serious note – Part II

…On a more serious note – Part II…

I thank God for the Concrete Angels in my Life…

…Concrete Blue Diamond Angels…

Honorable mention to my Father who was an emotionally unavailable father leaving the burden of raising all eight of us on the white shoulder’s of my Blue Diamond Concrete Angel Irish Mammy named Mary…

Honorable mention to Mr. Scott B a kind Mormon friend who has helped my family as much as he can despite his older years and needing to work in his older years to continue to provide care to his beloved wife of many years who is ill…Please pray for Scott B and his family for their continued well being and care and prosperity…

Honorable mention to all the men including the local PD and Firefighters and all the Women the same who have shown me kindness in my life…

To my ex’s some of whom live in Texas…I can be very theatrical…U can all fuck off and kiss my ass not one of you managed to stand by my side in any real way shape or form…I have been fucked over and fucked off by so many lying sack of shit shitty men that I have lost count…This post is also part of my healing process as I say fuck you and fuck off to all of my ex’s…

When the chips were down and I was lost not knowing who to turn to it was the Blue Diamond Concrete Angles who helped me this includes men and women…Thank you to all the men and women who help little people like me behind the scenes and get no credit for the good you do…You are the unsung heroes of our lost world…

…………Namaste…………

It’s all Bubbles in my head…

…Bubbles…
…No Giggles Report…

After some dark times and dark thoughts I choose a side…The Silly Giggles Side…

…I choose the Silly Giggles Side…

I am starting my own political party called The Giggles Political Party – The Sillier The Better…

…The Giggles Political Party…
…Dedicated to a dear friend of mine…Heidi…
…My Dear Friend Linda This song is for you…

Honorable mention to the nice man who allowed this…God luv him N God Bless the poor bastard…He did not want the dog in his car but there was no choice…I told this kind man this kind wayfarer that he can keep my phone if my dog damages his car…All is well I got my phone back and in the process I got some Self Esteem Back…Thank you Kind man whomever you may be…I never got his name because from my mercurial planet names are merely a formality…

…Posh – Posing – Featuring my dog Lady B…

Oh No

…Oh No…
…For Z Queen…

Enjoy my latest song titled That Alice…

…That Alice…

My …That Alice…Song in inspired by the Alice In Wonderland Song: Hey Alice – Lyrics (Rachel Rose Mitchell)

…I know I”m Back from Wonderland…LMAO…
…It’s That Alice Again…Bon Apple Teeth…