Blame Madness – A Reflection

Blame is something we all like to do and that is pin it on others when we are wrong or Blame others for our problems…I am guilty of this myself…As children we start the blame game at a very early age…I grew up one of eight children my sister Olivia was excellent at blaming me Alice for everything…In fact Olivia was so very good at blaming me her sister Alice for everything that Olivia boasted about her ability to do this…The problem with false blame or blaming others even if the blame be true at times…Is we lose focus and instead of chasing our dreams we end up letting others destroy dreams…There are dream catchers and dream builders…I prefer to be a dream builder leaving it to others to catch my dreams but not get in the way of my dreams…Dream Catching is not negative and derives actually from Native American Traditions…When my mother discovered Olivia’s lies my mother was outraged and when she realized that she my mother had been punishing me the whole time…My mother turned her outrage on Olivia and caused Olivia to have a nose bleed…Olivia was severely punished for her shit but that did not stop Olivia…Olivia never grew up inside and while Olivia is married not happily but married she settled for a man who threatened suicide if she did not marry him…What was silly Olivia to do? — If it was me I would have said well there’s no hope and tis not my fault you are off your head and I will not be held responsible for your self implosion…What I am saying is no man would make me marry him and if a man threatened me with suicide as many people do — Many people leverage suicide like a weapon to get what they want from others — I would request a well check and tell that asshole to fuck off…Or if he off’s himself that would be awful but one less asshole to deal with I suppose…I have empathy I do care but Olivia got blindsided and manipulated into a marriage that has made Olivia miserable…Olivia’s husband Stan the man is a man I was introduced to while at community college our teacher tried to hook us up…I was not interested and Stan was painfully shy…This introduction took place before Olivia met Stan…Teachers cross lines too and that teacher had no business match making…I had enough sense to say no…I had more sense than the teacher…My sister Carmel had sex with her patient…My sister is a nurse and she took care of Billy who was her patient and Carmel crossed the line as Carmel is wont to do and screwed Billy…They fell in love so they say and got married…It was through Carmel that Olivia was introduced to Billy’s brother Stan…Stan was crazy about Olivia but so they lived together for a time and Stan demanded that Olivia take contraception birth control…Olivia wanted many children but settled for suicidal Stan a stupid man who did not want too many children…So Olivia took the poison contraception pill…Carmel did the same she lived with Billy and used contraception for a time…Carmel and Billy got divorced Billy was abusive and their personalities were not a good match…Billy was wrong to abuse Carmel just as Carmel was wrong to screw her patient…Billy was wise enough to get out of that toxic relationship for the greater good…While married to Carmel Billy met a lovely lady who is very soft and kind and caring…She is a sweet heart and try as I might I could not hate Lori…I loved Lori when I first met Lori I liked her immediately…Loris is an empath like me and perhaps that is why I love Lori so much…You cannot help but love Lori what is not to Love? At the time I met Lori she was not driving…Lori and Billy have a relationship that works for them and they have two lovely girls a set of twins…I have no contact with Lori now but if Lori ever stumbles upon my blog page I would like to dedicate this post to Lori…You see in toxic relationships it is tempting to allow ourselves to get dragged into the fray of other people’s drama…Carmel should never have crossed the line and gotten involved with Billy…The good that came of Billy and Carmel’s union is they have two amazing kids…Billy and Brenna…Too amazing and bright young adults who are doing their own thing and doing very well…Brenna is very smart and is working on her Masters levels…Billy found his own passions and has a lovely girlfriend…Both are doing fantastic…Lori appears to be doing a great job of raising her two girls her twins with Billy by her side…Lori is the kind of woman whose side a man like Billy wants to be by…Here’s why…Lori is gentle and kind and not pushy Lori has a lot of feminine qualities that I understand and appreciate which makes sense to me as to why Billy would be crazy about Lori…Looks are important but looks are not everything there is more to life and love than just appearances which fade over time…Olivia got tired of taking the contraception pill to please her stupid man Stan so then Stan decided to get himself voluntarily sterilized he had a vasectomy…Stan had no problem weaponizing suicide to get Olivia to marry him and then Stan demanded Olivia swallow his poison…Stan’s poison of not wanting too many children…Olivia agreed and swallowed Stan’s poison for years…I am glad I never dated Stan because no man would ever manipulate me into a stupid marriage…The only way I would wed is if it was a unity that I understood was a mystical unity that transcends time and space and is not bound by stupid binding legal marriage…Olivia once said to me that I will never marry because no man today wants many children…I agreed with Olivia that I would not marry if marriage meant compromising my sacred ovum my sacred eggs…I am very stubborn more stubborn than all hell…Olivia and Stan have two beautiful daughters who are very bright and gifted in their own unique ways…The good that comes from unions are children because children are our future our legacy to pass on when we die…Caitlin is a very talented artist…When Caitlin is ready I hope Caitlin will launch her own blog and YouTube to share her incredible talents with the world…I come from a very talented and gifted family…It is sad we cannot get along…We do not know how to get along…At least Olivia to her credit apologized to me for being such a little shit…To Olivia I say consider this blog post as my way of saying thank you and apology accepted…I would love to be able to collaborate with Caitlin who is very talented but I leave that to Olivia and her family to sort out…When we can all admit we were fuckers at one time…When we can all admit that we were assholes to each other…Then we have something we have a new start a new opportunity to rebuild bridges that were once destroyed…This blog post is also my way of saying sorry to my unique and gifted family for being such a moody bitch and for being an asshole when I was mad…When lines are crossed that should not be crossed we destroy instead of build…To my family I would like to bury the hatchet and rebuild a bridge that was destroyed thanks in large part to our collective stupid pride…I also dedicate this blog post to my amazing elderly mother whom I will always love…I say let us stop blaming each other and instead let us all join forces and blame God…As a thank you for your follows likes and shares enjoy more you tube stuff…

Sideways Cover Photo on Purpoise in our Topsy-Turvy world….

…Blame it on God…

And when you are ready Join my Church it is just as silly as other silly Churches…Why???…Cuz I need the money…

…Anti Cleese – Church of JC – Anti Capitalist…

Remember Our House was Number Four Abbey Cartron it was in the middle of the street and it was Sublime Madness…

…Our House…

Remember Barny’s break dancing on Lino in the middle of our street Abbey Cartron…

Remember Micky’s madness doing a bike stunt with too ramps and I was crazy enough to be the kid lying down at the end of the kids risking being smashed by the bike…Tis a good thing Micky made it to the other side…It was madness it was sublime…According to Mrs. Robinson Jesus Loves us all more than we will ever know…

…Mrs. Robinson…

Life is theater life is a show and I think we all need to learn how to get along to build bridges instead of destroying bridges…

I think we can all get too big for our britches…Enjoy some Madness from the Mad 80’s growing up in Ireland…

…Madness…

Cheers from your Sis who is far more mad than the whole lot of ye…

…Madness…