Energy – A Reflection

Now that I have completed my reflections under my Lamentations Of The Unborn section of my blog…I decided to add other posts with reflections of my own…It took me four years to complete the Lamentations Of The Unborn…Now that this project is complete I find I need to rest…While I rest I thought about Energy and how some people build us up to become more enigmatic and energetic and others drag us down…I recently encountered someone who is very intelligent he knows how to master the art if illusions…He can create many illusions and he has in fact gotten so expert in his craft that he is like a lost boy…I write mystically which is how I express things…This blog is not meant to be taken literally at all…As a creative writer I write more in mystical terms…This type of writing helps me to process life and gives me space room to breathe as I process the world and things and events around me…Sometimes too it is good to turn off electronics and observe silence and peace and quiet…Energy for us human beings shifts often and can become off balance…This happens to women and men a lot but more so women when women are told one thing but then there is no follow up…I understand this because I work part time as a Psychic Life coach…I get women lots of women who call me feeling frustrated with the men in their lives…It seems to me that nobody lives in one place anymore and the men are busy fishing for fishes in the sea of women forgetting they are better off alone or with one partner they truly love…For me personally I find the world of illusions exhausting…Sometimes it is fun to watch Netflix and other shows and listen to music and yes there are times when these kinds of activities will give me more energy…There are other times when this kind of noise gets old it gets boring and so then I shut down…I do experience sensory overload at times where I wonder am I going mad? — Has my own imagination gotten the better of me? — Another blogger I encountered who writes about mystical dreams would appreciate and understand what I say…For people like me when I get sensory overload I shut down inside…I have to shut out the outside world for a while and observe silence and simply just be…Just rest and contemplate the silence behind our vast universe…The silence of the starry sky at night the silence of the air we breathe…Sometimes too when I get overwhelmed I get physically ill because energy has that kind of power to build or to destroy…We destroy each other when we give those we care about false hope false love false dreams that mean nothing at the end of the day…I recently had to process new information that caused my head to spin…This new information upset me so much that I became physically ill…Now this is not bad new information more shocking new information called enlightenment…When I have epiphanies of my own I often do feel drained exhausted and very tired…It is our human condition to desire to love and be loved…I stopped looking for love because I figured when it came to my own stupid reality my own stupid existence love never really existed for me…Many men hide behind their own fears of reality and their own idea of what love is or what love should be and then act like horses asses and make absolute fools out of themselves…What men like that do not understand or realize is this…When you express interest in someone if you actually give a shit you would understand that being honest and straightforward about who you are means more to someone like me than all the money in the world or illusions…I had someone recently state that he knows someone who would be willing to pay me for my help…At first I felt a rush of excitement who could this person be?— So I replied and tried to get an answer…Instead I got a riddle I was told to do basic things so I did those things…Still no answer…I cannot deal with riddles I do not understand riddles…Riddles drive me crazy so when I realize I am dealing with a creature who is highly intelligent and a riddler…I walk away I shut down inside and I act like I never met that person that this person no longer exists in my world or my universe…Manipulation and control is all riddler types are good at…That and destroying everything they touch including any relationship they enter into…I tell my callers that if a man wants you then he will be by your side no matter what…Otherwise if the man is playing silly games not communicating in a straightforward way or is being manipulative and controlling leaving you in the dark as to his intentions…The thing to do is walk away…Do not engage this riddle – tis best to leave that riddle alone to his own devices…For some reason I seem to attract men who are boys inside and who are not emotionally stable or available in any real way…I also seem to attract men who have no empathy care or concern about the well being of others…People like me are sick and tired of false love false hope and false prospects…Some men take sick pleasure out of the notion that they can get inside your head like a bubble and burst your bubble and destroy you with fake dreams false hope and false love…I was never told by that riddler who would like to pay for my help…Since I have no idea I simply shut down inside and put my focus where it needs to be which is on taking care of my modest home my family and my needs…I have no money and very little food in my house as I write we are on a strict budget and struggling…At no time did this riddler offer my family any real solutions to our struggle any real food or act of kindness…I asked this riddle of a man for compensation for pain and suffering caused and he had the nerve to tell me that he should bill me for the pain and suffering he caused me…Men like that are diabolical fiends who feed off other’s energy and take sick pleasure in causing pain which causes death in their targets…I am already dead inside from years of hell on earth…There is nothing more that can be done to me to kill me…I am already dead inside…I actually welcome physical death…I look forward to my death and I would rather be dead than get involved with a riddle of a man who is cruel and merciless with no manners no decency no empathy no care and concern for my frail humanity…I accept I am not meant to find true love or real love in this life…I accepted that a long time ago…Why men do not leave women like me alone is beyond my understanding…I do not look for men or go after men…I prefer to be alone…Due to damages done recently by this riddle of a man who makes no sense to me at all on most days…I once more retreat into my own small bubble my own little world and continue my own small journey of eternity…Horrible people do exist I would know I have met them…When I study this riddle of a man I understand from his history with women that he does not like to take no for an answer…That he goes out and gets whatever he wants…What is impressive is this…He is brilliant he can make a lot of money…This man has perfected the art of leveraging the internet and other forces for gain which is to be admired and respected…This is not a bad thing except when it becomes a monster…Meaning some people can make so much money that they reach a point where they do not need money…They also reach a point where they need nothing including God…When a man feels like he can have anything he wants and does not need anything not even God…That is a monster a dangerous man who is out of control…I recently was made to feel special as if this monster who needs nothing needs no one including God himself needs me??? — What a joke…I am terrible at making money and horrible at relationships which is why I do not bother to try…I cannot flirt with men I don’t know how…Then I encounter a riddle of a man and for people like me riddle’s are stupid useless annoying fluff…I prefer to know my own mind to be my own person than become a prisoner of someone else’s mind that is a minefield of riddles…If I leave my readers with nothing else it is with this Golden Nugget the antithesis to the Golden Shadow…The Golden Nugget is this do not allow yourself to become a prisoner of someone else’s mind rather it is better to know your own mind…Be your own person and go out and set the world on fire as only you can…A Golden Shadow is someone who is excellent at shining like a bright star in the world…Golden Shadows are excellent at attracting people into their lives their bubbles and often consume the energy of the ones they are attracted to…Golden Shadows are often extremely intelligent very bright and can appear to the world like a God as if they are a God unto themselves…Sadly ones like that are often able to garner a cult like following of others willing to do their bidding…I call these followers “flying monkeys” – a term in pop psychology used to describe followers who defend their Golden Shadow even when defending that Brilliance no longer makes sense…Golden Nuggets are their own person and do not need to manipulate the energy of others to gain a following or to control…Be empowered and learn how to become your own universe no matter how small that is your Golden Nugget…

…………Namaste…………

My latest song is mystical giving thanks for acts of kindness and hospitality that can help to heal the broken mystical wounds of fallen humanity…