Natural Talent – A Reflection

In my Natural Talent reflection I would like to share one of my natural talents with the world which is my ability to write songs and play my lyrics to unique tunes and then sing my song with my tune as background music…The featured image I choose for this reflection is a photo of yours truly with a large sun hat…We do not have to be the best all the time and lets face it there is always going to be someone better at everything no matter how hard we try to be the best…I come along and say do your best be your best but tis a fine thing not to be the best…Our lost western world promotes competition via a competitive mindset hence people compete all the time for many things…People compete for attention in their own homes and people compete against each other and women often compete for the same man and men do the same men compete for the same woman…This competition mindset is not good because it causes us to forget that all we need to do is be our best and do our best and be our best version of our unique selves and who cares what others think!!!…After all when you develop your own natural talents what others think is immaterial and if others are not building you up then ignore them and pursue your own unique natural talents…One of the things I am doing using my natural talent is mourning my lost youth…I believe it is very important for all adults whose youth was stolen from them via abuse and stress and abandonment in their youth to be able to mourn their lost youth…I mourn my lost inner child because I am an adult with a lost inner child that needs continuous healing…As I continue to learn and grow as I parent myself in a healthy and loving way I model for my son the importance of healthy parenting by not only my parenting of him but also by parenting myself…As I set healthy boundaries and healthy goals for myself I model for my son what being healthy looks like…I recently decided to let my gray hears remain gray without coloring my hair…I tell you I feel very free and relaxed since I am not trying to impress anyone with my looks…As I continue to blossom and grow into my older years…I am enjoying my middle age years where I have some extra fat and gray hairs…It is important I share this with the world because in my youth I was bulimic…I was very skinny due to throwing up my food all the time…I was sick from years of abuse and the verbal put downs was the worst…The abuse I got destroyed me on the inside and I experienced a spiritual death…I died inside and developed an eating disorder that back in the early and mid 1980’s in Ireland no one knew about eating disorders like bulimia…I was bulimic for years as a young Irish child…Now that I am middle aged I have some weight and gray hairs yet miraculously I am very content and I have learned how to enjoy my little life with what I have been given…If I can heal from years of hell on earth you can heal too…It is my hope that adults who are survivors of abuse and children and young people who also survived abuse can learn to heal their inner child by working on developing their own natural talents…As a thank you for your follows likes and shares enjoy some of my natural talents…I know I am not the best and unlike many who are narcissists I have not forgotten the rest…Enjoy my goofy and ridiculously silly middle age playlist here which includes my silly counting calories song…

…………Namaste…………

How I compose a song that I will play my unique tune to is as follows…First I sing my song and I will write out the lyrics which helps a lot…I do not always write lyrics as I can often sing without writing lyrics the lyrics often come to me naturally…Then I play the lyrics to the song in my head using my favorite instrument from Turkey…I do not know how to read music I play by ear…A talent given to me by my parents…My mother is a lovely singer and my father played the accordion and taught me how to play the tin whistle…I am a self taught musician with no formal music training whatsoever save my time in choir where I discovered that I have an alto voice range…The inspiration for my latest song titled Bulimic Youth was inspired by a song by Alanis Morissette titled That I Would Be Good…I decided to sing the words I know I’m Still Good to my own tune inspired by Alanis Morissette’s amazing song…

You can listen to Alanis Morissette’s epic song here:

The original version of my song titled Bulimic Youth can be heard here:

It took me four days to finish the final composition of this song which was work…I had to practice my new tune many times until I got my tune just right…Enjoy my background new tune titled Bulimic Youth…

I then record myself singing my new song with my new tune as background music…The reason I am looking down is so that I can read my lyrics that have yet to me memorized…I do not enjoy memorizing lyrics…I enjoy composing new tunes and songs without memorizing lyrics…I call it spontaneous compositions…

Enjoy my finished piece here:

I then create a playlist with the theme of my latest song…Which in this case is me mourning my lost youth…My latest playlist is titled Bulimic Youth…

My Lost Playlist is a mystical playlist mourning my lost inner child…

My poser playlist addresses ways many pose today and shed crocodile tears only when caught but they are not truly sorry but are instead vile posers who often switch their position to manipulate the ones that posers love to hate…

My powers playlist is a mystical playlist of songs addressing hostile powers…Words have power and sadly many abuse their powers of speech to bad mouth and harm others…The first song in my powers playlist is titled Powers that sings about abuses of powers especially the powers of speech…

As a highly sensitive intuitive person I like to sing that Everything Matters..

Listen to the song that inspired my Everything Matters song here: — Nothing Else Matters by Metallica…