With the Wind – A Reflection

With the Wind is a poem authored by Ilia Kramarik found on page 87 of Ilia’s epic book of art and prose titled The Future Never Gives Up…The featured image I choose for this reflection is your silly blogger sitting down by a weeping willow in France…My son took this photo for me…Many of the photos I share were taken by my son between the ages of nine and eleven which is impressive…My son is good at taking smart phone photographs…When you enlarge the blog post featured image it looks pixelated on purpose to have a wind effect…In with the Wind Ilia writes…”river waves flow” and “butterflies fly” and “falling petals flutter” all “with the wind” and the only thing that sees us bloom is the moon…I paraphrased the last stanza which is “and the moon sees us bloom”…What a beautiful visual poem…Ilia at such a young age was and remains a very visual author…Wind changes and can be very calm and almost non existent to a mighty gale force or a force to contend with…The same with fire and rain and ice…All changeable elements…Do we relax and go with the wind like the butterflies who know how to ride the wind when they fly and like the rivers that know how to flow in the best direction to work with the wind and the falling petals that know to flutter with the wind…Humans tend to fight things and so while we know how to harness the wind via wind energy from wind mills and such…We must also know how to work with the wind…This applies to life too…My son recently started telling me there is something about signs of the zodiac that is very accurate in predicting compatibility…I told my son while that may very well be true as zodiac signs is a pseudo science that we must not allow ourselves to be confined to labels and zodiac signs…We are more complex than that and also in many respects much simpler than that too…Zodiac signs can be complex…There are folks who study the planets and their alignment known as astrology and then assign credit to astrology for times when communication seems better at work and or at home…I do not subscribe to such things…None of us are perfect so naturally our partners are also not perfect…When we limit our partners to labels such as signs of the zodiac we do our partners and ourselves a great disservice…According to signs of the zodiac my mother and father were not a great match…Rather than focus on the limitations that signs of the zodiac place on us…How about simply trusting God to work in us and through us to learn how to be in partnership with the ones we love rather than limiting ourselves to cult like signs of the zodiac…For example my father may he rest in peace was a Libra and my mother is a Gemini…A compatibility test places my parents at 75%…My parents marriage lasted the test of time and my parents had eight children I am their number five…My parents agreed and saw eye to eye on many levels including their shared love of and desire for however many children God sent them…Through child bearing and child rearing both my parents increased in virtue and holy love which is sacrificial in nature as both parents grew in love by giving to their eight children a warm home lots of excellent home cooked meals and a stable environment for growing up…My parents provided us a stable brick and mortar home but my parents were unable to provide emotional stability which set me up to fail due to verbal abuse and verbal attacks from my own mother done both in person to my face and behind my back which destroyed me both inside and outside… It took me years to heal from the gaslighting years of hell on earth living with a mother like that…All the same I will always love my now elderly mother…I called my soon to be 87 year old elderly mother to tell her how much she is loved by me and that I prefer to celebrate my mother in life rather than in death and that since last year and every year going forward my mother will receive on her birthday a modest gift from me her number five as well as best wishes for a bright future and many more birthdays…I tell my mother that I hope she lives to be a ripe old age just to piss off the haters…The haters are the negative wicked ones who take sick pleasure out of destroying families like my family…Just to piss off the haters tis my hope that my feisty Irish mammy who be a wee bit crazy like meself lives to a ripe old age…My mother knows I love her dearly and I know that my mother loves me…My mother is not able to show empathy or tell me that she loves me or ask how I am doing or how her grandson whom she has yet to meet is doing…All the same my mother and I love each other in our own unique way and though we are not close I will always love my mother…That is my victory my witness my testimony to the world of true authentic Christianity not found in brick and mortar churches rather found in our own hearts when we love those who hurt us when we forgive others for hurting us and when we show by our actions that we still truly care…I will be forty nine next birthday which is two months after my mammy’s birthday when mum will turn eighty seven…I hope to live to be a ripe old age like me mammy…Why do we forgive? We forgive because by forgiving we receive peace and avoid bitterness and resentments…Bitterness and resentments serve to harden our hearts and set us up to fail and to become angry people or angry folks…Anger can become chronic such as being chronic with anger or chronically angry…Chronic anger is not good for us as anger serves to add to our stress levels and stresses us out more…Chronic anger or angst can cause a myriad of mental physical and emotional problems and is in fact a social dis-ease as angst causes unease among others who must deal with an angry person…I was very angry myself over many things but over time and by the grace of God via the good fruit of Christianity and prayers done by friends who care about me including my Muslim friends who pray for my well being…I am healing and my anger or angst is disappearing…I am doing so much better these days and as always tis a daily journey a day at a time in my personal journey of eternity…I know this much when my now elderly feisty Irish Mammy returns to God I will have peace in my heart knowing that I made peace with my mum and knowing that my mum and I love each other very much despite the hard things and trials we both face as a mother and a daughter and as Irish women in general…Sure I am feisty too like me mammy…Perhaps tis why it is difficult for us to be close…Love triumphs love wins amidst storms and broken hearts love triumphs above it all…For my family we will never see justice in this life for crimes done against our humanity throughout our lineage and the centuries in Ireland…All the same love triumphs my Christian faith triumphs thanks to my mum’s Christian faith a faith that has been passed down throughout the centuries in my lineage a faith that was not destroyed by the wicked though try as they would try the wicked did try to blot out the name of God from my lineage and failed…Thanks to my mum I remain Christian and I am glad to say I never lost the faith…My mum gave me lots of gifts I love to sing and write and I get my gifts from my mother and my father who also loved to play music and sing and tell stories…I have both my parents to thank for my intellect talents and gifts and my parents thank God daily for their treasures which is their eight children and at least one in heaven due to miscarriage…My mum remains staunch roman catholic I am no longer roman catholic but I remain staunch Christian…Love triumphs and you do not have to be a roman catholic to be a decent human being…Decent people can be found in all walks of life and I know many wonderful Muslims Hispanics Blacks Asians the list is too long to list here…My message is there are decent folks everywhere you go…Decency is not limited to brick and mortar churches neither is decency limited to one particular religious group or faith…I have a friend who studies Zodiac signs and according to his studies he says that my sign and his sign are compatible…So I downloaded an interesting application called Nebula…You can use its services without paying for a monthly plan…Do not sign up for the monthly subscription plan unless of course you can manage it and do not mind…All you have to do is watch a quick advertisement video then you will get your answers…https://www.nebulahoroscope.com/ – This is the website for this interesting astrology application called Nebula…It is through this neat application I learned that my own parents are 75% compatible…According to this application my male friend is right we are 70 percent compatible…Now if we limit ourselves to zodiac signs we label ourselves as incapable of growth and of lasting relationships with partners who are different yet who love us very much…I would say this that this website is worth a gander it is interesting to be sure but as Christians we must not limit ourselves to the occult and signs of the occult which is what nebula is very occult like…I am not opposed to using nebula I am making a point that when we trust God then things have a way of working out…I had literally penned a prayer asking God to make manifest a good man to enter my life a man who is single like me and available within reason and within a month of penning that prayer and placing it behind my favorite picture of Jesus my prayer was answered…I made a new male friend and since this friendship is very new time will tell…Prayers are powerful too and God hears our prayers when we pray from the heart…The words our parents speak over us as children has power too…For example my father told me I was a real go getter and a good provider…I am a go getter and I am a good provider…I am not perfect but I work hard and get things done I am resourceful and enterprising in my own small way…A man said to me that his mother told him never to get a woman pregnant…That stuck with this man so much so that this message became a part of him and now this man does not want children of his own…When I hear messages like that I feel sad inside because while my parents did not promote that we have children as adults my parents never discussed children rather they left it up to us how we wished to procreate or not procreate…My parents never told any of us not to have any children or to limit the births of our own children…When parents speak over us parents speak both a blessing and a curse and parents need to be very careful over the things they say to their children…Children are like sponges and what adults say over children can and often does become a part of that child who then becomes an adult with strong held beliefs and values…The man who said he does not want to have any children would be a wonderful father if he was not afraid to allow himself to let go and let God he would be a wonderful father…Sadly because of words his own mother who meant well a mother whom he loves very much said to him repeatedly as a lad as a boy this man is convinced that he does not want children…That is his choice I suppose he should not get involved with any women then unless the woman is finished with menopause lest he impregnate her and demand that she terminate his seed his own offspring…This man is like many men he is American and is a very good man but his values are off kilter because children are our future without offspring of our own what is there for us? Sure wealth fame and fortune and land for some but when we die we cannot take any of those things with us when we die…Our children are our future…Sadly many forget this when they say with one breath they are Christian but with the same breath they do not want children of their own that is anti Christ anti Christian not of God but the ones saying things like that are not intentionally evil wicked or bad rather they are lost sheep…I consider myself a lost sheep but I know enough to know that my womb is sacred and if I ever get pregnant no man on earth would ever talk me into having an abortion or terminating the sacred life in my womb…I am not much and I am not the sharpest tool in the shed either…But I know that my womb and my eggs are sacred and if I become pregnant or with child twins or not twins those babies will be birthed so help me God…The father can go fly a kite for all I care because there is no way in hell or on this green earth that I could ever destroy the child or children of my womb…American men are the same as modern men in Europe they want the benefits of the company of a woman which often includes hot sex but these men do not want the responsibility of children that comes with having sex with a woman…Women are supposed to be helpers of men and as such we are supposed to be fruitful and multiply…Men whether or American or not who do not want children of their own have no business having sex with women and then demanding that woman have an abortion to destroy his own lineage his own seed…Stop right there…That is sick that is twisted and is tainted love tainted by self love and the desire for the pleasures of sex without the sacrifice of children…No wonder the devil laughs and has a field day with so many lost sheep to play with and work through these days…As for me and my house and my womb we will serve the God of life and any pregnancy of mine will be fulfilled and birthed in very Abramic fashion whether the father likes it or not…Men best think twice before offering women like me false love and demanding we not have any children and should we become pregnant that I the woman terminate like a terminator his own offspring his own fruits his own seed…Come again that will never happen on my watch…What I mean by this is any man who loves me best prepare himself to become a father because I do not use contraception and I will never ever abort my own fruit the fruit of my womb…I realize I am better off single and alone than to risk pregnancy with a man who does not want to become a father…Life is hard for all of us but relationships with men who do not want children of their own are dead there is no life no hope in relationships like that as these men are hostile towards their own offspring their own seed and potential future children…Men like that are sad lost sheep though good and decent in many respects their parents did not raise men like that well and failed our society as a whole because good men refuse their own seed to beget children with the woman they love thanks to unintentional bad parenting by clueless parents who mean well but destroy their own children inside and outside along the way…My God if a man who hates his own seed so much demands a fruitless union with a woman no wonder women are terrified of men like that and afraid to tell them if and when they are pregnant…The woman likely figures as I do that he does not want children so there is no hope no real love only abortion on demand which women like me refuse to do… The man who does not want children of his own mentioned that he may have children out there but that the women who become mothers never told him…My God what a way to live one’s life to not know if you have children out there or not???…I could not live like that for to live like that is to live a lie…I hope men around the globe heal from whatever trauma they suffer and men who hate their own seed who do not want children of their own that these men too will heal from such a tragic self loathing or self hatred…Particularly a self hatred that is then transferred onto their own potential future offspring…I concluded that even with a 70 percent compatibility rating that I am not compatible with a man who is afraid of his own seed afraid to have children of his own…I have no more deep thoughts today except to say I am grateful my elderly mother raised me right she raised me well and I thank my feisty Irish mammy for this and for her permission which she gives me regularly to keep in touch and say hi once in a while….One of my hobbies is the singing of sacred scriptures I share those today on this blog post and thank you for your likes follows and shares and subscriptions…

…………Namaste…………

The book of Daniel is my favorite from the old Testament in Douay-Rheims…

…The Book of Daniel all 14 chapters…

Isaias all 66 chapters…

…Isaias all 66 chapters…

Genesis all 50 chapters…

…Genesis all 50 chapters…

Leviticus is a work in progress I have done 7 chapters so far…

…Leviticus will be added to until complete…So far I am up to chapter 7…

Esther is a work in progress I have done 4 out of 16 chapters…

…I will be adding to Esther which is a WIP – Work in Progress…

Habacuc is another favorite and is only three chapters…

…Habacuc all three chapters…

Jeremias chapters 1-16 out of 52 chapters a WIP – Work In Progress…

…Jeremias Chapters 1-16 out of 52 chapters a work in progress…

The lamentations of Jeremias – All five chapters…

…The Lamentations of Jeremias all five chapters…

Numbers chapters 1-3 out of 36 chapters a work in progress…

…Numbers Chapters 1-3 out of 36 chapters a work in progress…

From the New Testament enjoy the whole book of Matthew…

…Matthew all 28 chapters…
…Mark all 16 chapters…

Luke is a work in progress I have done 18 out of 24 chapters…

…Luke 18 out of 24 chapters…I will be adding to this growing Luke playlist…