At The Hospital – Evolution – A Reflection

These little reflections At The Hospital and Evolution were authored by Akiane Kramarik between the ages of 7-11 in her book titled My Dream Is Bigger Than I – Memories of Tomorrow – Part Six Page 294 — “You will need your own copy of this book to view the full text of this poem.  I limit quotes for the purpose of discussion and to follow copyright guidelines that allows for limited quotes.”

The featured image I choose for this reflection is yours truly sun bathing wearing my very silly totally fake movie star sun glasses…I have lots of fun doing silly and stupid things on you tube for no reason at all just cause I can…That is my seriously silly sense of humor for ya…In At The Hospital Akiane writes…”All cloudless winter my windows stayed closed, and the clock was ticking too slowly.” Leaving out a portion of this reflection I quote the end of this same amazing reflection…”I had nothing left except for time and faith.” — In Evolution Akiane writes…”Someday Something Will Become Someone” — I quoted all of this reflection because if I left out a part of it the context would be lost…I do encourage my readers to purchase your own copy of Akiane’s amazing reflections and I do as a rule typically leave out parts of her reflections as part of building the mystery that is Akiane Kramarik and to encourage my readers to purchase your own copy of her amazing book of prose…There are times in my own life when I often felt like and still do feel like I have nothing left except for time and faith…I say this because I had to cut horrible toxic people out of my life…I had to sever ties with nasty people some of whom hate me so much they would take sick pleasure in my death in fact some want me to literally drop dead…Sadly I grew up in a very abusive toxic home as a child and then as a young adult and young woman I had many a false friend who proved false by their vile actions and behaviors…These experiences devastated me and reduced me to tears many times…I prefer living a quiet obscure life not known to a soul where I live than to become familiar with others only to breed contempt…It seems to me all I ever got was contempt…It is true familiarity breeds contempt and in my story this has happened many times…I have experienced hatred for the crime of being Indigenous for the crime of being Irish for the crime of being female for the crime of being a mother for the crime of being a single mother and other stupid reasons used to hate my guts…The machine gun style verbal abuse and verbal attacks I got for years resulted in physical illness as well as mood lability…My moods were affected and how I healed was amazing…As the years passed I would process my past trauma in my sleep state…I would have a bad dream and wake up in a bad mood and God would speak to me and show me how the abuse I endured affected my moods…The abuse I got was so awful that my body shut down this happened to me over the course of many years…Fibromyalgia is often linked to abuse histories in that many who suffer from fibromyalgia myself included as I have had fibromyalgia for years is from years of verbal abuse and verbal attacks that destroyed me inside and out…My emotions were all over the place…The spiritual and emotional pain and suffering I experienced caused my body to become sick…I twitch for no reason at all…It is my hope that in time and in faith my body will heal and that my mind and spirit will also heal…Healing takes years to happen but I do not loose hope that though I am aging that my spirit and emotions will continue to heal…I am still learning how to manage my emotions and I am making progress…I find though that I do get upset when I correct others for making bad choices in my capacity as a psychic life coach…I will always be feisty that way tis the Irish in me…I know I am not much and in the eyes of many I am grist for the mill a piece of meat to be chewed up and spit out…In my eyes I am someone and in the eyes of my God I am something and I no longer give a damn what this fucked up world thinks of women like me…I do cuss from time to time and I am a huge believer in therapeutic cussing…As long as you are not verbally abusing your loved ones cuss as I do in a safe way without hurting or harming others. As long as cussing is not at the expense of others or hurting others then go for it…It is better to get things off your chest than to hold it in and lose your sanity in the process of allowing pent up anger to sit and brew with no outlet…Anger can be a very destructive emotion..I have learned this the hard way myself…I self soothe and do lots of self care to appease my own anger and in my own incredible journey of healing I have learned how to let go of my anger so as to live my best life now that I am aging…Anger is often destructive because when we have angry outbursts the ones we hurt the most are both ourselves and others…It is my hope that my blog helps others on their journey’s of eternity…Humor is always a welcome anecdote for the crazy times we be living in…As a thank you for reading this reflection and for your likes follows and shares enjoy more of my very silly things on you tube…I joined the following society that of course I made up for my comedy on you tube…It is the TSOSW which is an acronym for the The Society Of Stupid Women…With me in charge we will all be very lost and confused which is my master plan…Mouah!!! — I will share with you some of my amazing very stupid you tube clips now…Enjoy my latest silly song titled It’s Hard When You’re Dumb Inspired by a song by The Chainsmokers called It’s Hard When You’re Young. I also include my latest song titled I’ma Stayin In Texas inspired by the song by The Chainsmokers titled Staying In Paris…

…………Namaste…………

…My seriously silly — If You Believe You Tube Clip where I totally missed Z mighty palm tree….
…My song titled It’s Hard When You’re Dumb inspired by a song by the Chainsmokers titled It’s Hard When You’re Young…
— Thank You The Chainsmokers for inspiring a song in me titled It’s Hard When You’re Dumb — Did you know my own mammy was a Chainsmoker but to her credit she gave up the “fags” an Irish slang term for Cigarettes in her 50’s and never looked back…My mammy is a fine 86 year old strong woman…
…I’ma Stayin In Texas — Cause Texas is Great N Texas is Better N Paris…
…Thank you The Chainsmokers for this song that inspired my latest song titled I’ma Stayin In Texas…
— The Society Of Stupid Women like me — Men can join too — But ask yourselves please why would he??? — Tee Hee Hee —-…The Belly Laughs are on me today free of charge…
….All Hail The Amazing Palm Tree for Silly People Like Me…
…What the hell is that? Listen to learn more about stupid very silly women like me…Hell I’m not even good at worshiping the devil I fucked that up too…Ha Ha…
…Since I suck at worshiping the devil I decided to do a stupid satan diss track series just cause I can N why not??? No one else is doing it so it might as well be me…Ha ha ha…