In The Beginning – Without Any Influence – A Reflection

These little reflections In The Beginning and Without Any Influence were authored by Akiane Kramarik between the ages of 7-11 in her book titled My Dream Is Bigger Than I – Memories of Tomorrow – Part Six Page 293 — “You will need your own copy of this book to view the full text of this poem.  I limit quotes for the purpose of discussion and to follow copyright guidelines that allows for limited quotes.”

The featured image I choose for this reflection is your very silly blogger and you tuber sun bathing where I see fit to share my frail humanity with the world…I say and I quote “This towel head has bunions and hammer toes”…Not fun let me tell you and getting older is no walk in the park now that I am going through menopause I feel like a train wreck…I share my frail humanity with the world the good the bad the indifferent and the ugly…My feet are ugly due to my bunions and hammer toes which cause me a lot of pain…I may eventually need to have surgery done on my feet…Here is a free tip that I would like to share with my readers…I went to the foot doctor who specializes in feet…God Bless this foot doctor he is around smelly shoes during his working days as well as smelly feet…My kind and caring foot doctor suggested I try the following non invasive remedies for my sore feet first…He did x-ray both of my feet and he confirmed that I do indeed have early signs of arthritis in my feet…The early remedies he gave me are as follows…To ice both feet and to use the following cream called Diclofenac Gel which is the generic version of Voltaren Gel which can be purchased over the counter now at most pharmacies…He also suggested I try a swig of Tonic water with Quinine in the evening with dinner to help alleviate my muscle cramps that I am experiencing in my legs…Now I decided to look up Quinine use to see could there by any side effects and because I have a very sensitive stomach…I will ask my primary care doctor what she thinks first before I try the Tonic water with Quinine…I am however using the Diclofenac Gel and it seems to help reduce the pain…My foot doctor said that my feet have an inflammation problem which makes since as my whole body has a major inflammation problem from fybromyalgia pain and twitching that I experience…I share remedies that I get here on my blog with the hope that what I share will help others…I always do say to please check with your personal doctor before trying any remedy…I do the same myself…A good cream for tinea on your face or above your eyelid area is Clotrimazole USP 1%…However if you have psoriasis on your face then Clotrimazole 1% will not work…Alclometasone 0.5% cream works best for facial psoriasis…At least in my case this cream works well and for psoriasis on my leg…Always check with your medical doctor first as I do…An excellent cream for psoriasis on your elbows is Bryhall Halobetasol Propionate Lotion 1%…I learned this from going to the dermatologist…My medical doctor who is kind and patient misdiagnosed my skin condition and thought that I had tinea on my face but I did not I had psoriasis on my face…An excellent shampoo for scalp psoriasis is Clobex shampoo or Clobetasol Propionate 5% shampoo its the same thing…These treatments are not always covered by our insurance and can cost more than one hundred dollars a bottle as is the case with my Clobex Shampoo…I am able to get this shampoo at a public Federally Funded Healthcare Clinic at their Pharmacy for $12.00 which is a huge savings…A handy application or website to use when paying for prescriptions not covered by your drug plan is Goodrx…I include a link here for easy reference to this amazing website that saves many tons of dollars on expensive prescriptions. — https://www.goodrx.com/clobex?c=homepage-lander-sem-6&gclid=CjwKCAjwz6_8BRBkEiwA3p02VZRS6XoZJMPL-x_7MCAjxsANFoCHQg49ue83sp1YduZ27meOMFiCgBoCCDQQAvD_BwE — An excellent savings tool for reducing prescription drug costs…I like to share things I have learned on my own healthcare journey with the hope that what I share helps others…In — In The Beginning Akiane writes “uncreated beginnings are always a created illusion in the beginning there was love — love is stronger and older than even memory or wisdom”. — I left out a portion of this reflection as part of building the mystery that is Akiane Kramarik and to encourage my readers to purchase your own copy of Akiane’s amazing book of prose…In Without Any Influence Akiane writes. “Sometimes the obscurity of infinity seems like borders without any influence”…I left out a portion of this reflection as well…There is great depth of eternal wisdom in Akiane’s work…What speaks to me in these reflections is this: There is only one eternal creator of this mighty frame the God of life any other uncreated beginning is an illusion..Magic and Magick goes on all the time in our world of mad math with many algorithms that calculate predictable outcomes particularly every time we press social media buttons…Marriages that embrace birth control and same sex unions and the sickening practice of older men and older women [so called cougar women] marrying children are examples of uncreated beginnings that are nothing but a dark illusion from hell itself…Many adults today behave and act like children both male and female alike…Many adults have many unrealistic expectations of their partners…Many like myself choose not to date for the simple reason that we do not want to take care of another adult child…From a woman’s perspective many men are like children with unrealistic expectations and demands that puts great pressure on their women to be all things…Such as be providers bear the children or not bear the children in cases where many men demand their woman use birth control as was the case with one of my own sister’s whose husband demanded she take contraception pills. My sister took contraception pills to please her demanding husband for years…This same sister told me that I will never marry because no man on earth wants a fertile woman to have many children any more and that if I am not willing to compromise my own fertility then I will never marry…I agreed with my sister’s comment that I will never marry because I refuse to compromise my woman hood my feminine fertility to snag a stupid ungrateful lout of a man who hates having children…I remained true to my word and to myself as a fertile woman and I never married…Many men think nothing of making many demands of their women so much so many women end up doing all the cooking and cleaning and housework as well as working at least one full time job plus doing the lawn and repairs…I have seen this dynamic a lot where the man thinks he is a God or a King unto himself and his woman is treated like his slave…I met a lovely man in Ireland who puts many men to shame…He has a beautiful hard working wife and four lovely children and when that man is not working his full time job which is his own business he spends every free minute with his wife who loves him very much and their four children including helping his school aged children with their homework…What a man both him and his wife are blessed to have found each other…As a dynamic couple they built a wonderful life together…He also mows the lawn and fixes the roof and takes care of things like bird feeders to make their home a real home…I used to tease him and say I wished there was another man like him on earth for I would surely have gone for one like him if he were single…Because I respect myself and others I no longer keep in touch with this amazing man for fear of having an emotional affair which would only cause hurt and potential discord in his marriage and would understandably upset his amazing wife…I do my best to understand the woman’s perspective as a woman myself the last thing I ever would ever want is to cause discord in a marriage…Marriage is sacred and to be respected and revered…The word of God convicts men and women who tear asunder holy marriages via vile emotional and physical affairs…I do my best to live my life according to the book of life found in the word of the God of life…All couples must be respected whether married or not no man or woman should ever interfere in others relationships…I know I am not much and I know to stay the hell away from couples so as to avoid even the slightest perception that I would ever interfere in their relationships…As a thank you for reading this reflection enjoy my latest therapeutic self help fun in the sun you tube clips…I was working on another song but there are times when my songs are too long…So I will write it down first then sing it here on this blog…Creativity is a process and this is part of my own creative process…This is my latest song titled Hey Sista

Hey Sista

Hey Sista if u only knew the half of it like I do we were both born sick in a world full of lead from lies and deceit like tungsten lead…We did not have a hope in hell and our mother and father did not have a clue…Who knew the things I would have to tell but here goes cause it’s all a very bad ugly show…On the day of our birth we all blessed the earth our loving parents rejoiced then woefully did dedicate us to a vile false God…We were indoctrinated against our little wills in a vile sex cult from the ninth circle of hell…Sadly our parents did not know the damage they did and you and I were holy and innocent…We both grew up in an abusive home and you learned to hate me from this very bad show of bad advice and bad example from our bat shit crazy unstable birth mother…What you do not know is our mother was fed lies like lead in her childhood years from a vile false Christ Church full of sex perverts…Who knew this was a diabolical bad show…Tis not our mammy’s fault she is the way she is and our daddy too who knew???…Our parents had no way of knowing the pedophiles who lurked about and the sex perverts found in priests and nuns…Then you choose to hate me your own sista too and you sabotaged your friendship with me didn’t you…You bad mouth me all around town telling anyone who will hear how crazy I am…You then sabotage your friendship with our other sista too by hitting on her husband who rejected you…You became angry too didn’t you in your own bad show you are a hot mess…Worse than my own hot mess you are and take it from me I am sorry you cannot see…You are on a terrible road a very bad road you are a bad ass’d woman a very bad show…What the hell is wrong with you? I tell you this when we met up in Ireland you treated me like shit…You wondered why I was angry and you were extremely rude…Both of our own children got along much better too than you and I ever could…Tis not our fault we cannot get along we never had a chance we were both born sick…The good news for me is I got well I got the help I need no thanks to you…Take it from me when I tell you this…If you talk to roman catholic priests they are pieces of shit scum of the earth sex perverts who cannot be trusted…Even the ones who do not do bad deeds cover up for their bro’s all of the time…These priests are bad men who have no life so they steal many a wife and destroy marriages they destroy men women and children too and will use what you tell them to sharpen their knife to keep you loyal with their intelligence to their diabolical cult full of many a poison cup…You my dear did drink from the same poison cup which has made you sick much sicker than me…I am no longer catholic or roman anything but you my dear refuse to forgive me…There is no forgiveness in you at all only diabolical pride under which you shall fall…When you fall it will not be pretty your pride will be abased and leveled in your own small city…You have my pity that this will be done for as it is you worship the diabolical one…You worship the diabolical false son the false Jesus Christ from the false goddess that false Mary one…You refuse to listen to me so you shut me out you refuse to hear my voice for you are lost in your own diabolical pride…Take it from me when I tell you this roman catholic priests are full of shit…They are full of spite too and full of pride terrible men who look for anything to ride…Desperate too these sex perverts will screw anything if you allow them to and the ones who do not are no better still for they earn your trust like a grist mill…When you trust the roman catholic cult you throw the pearls of your trust before swine who make you drink from many a poison cup which you willfully swallow which has made you shallow…You are a shell of what you were meant to become and you destroyed your friendships with both of your blood sista’s didn’t you…In your desperation for a man you destroyed the master plan the God of life had for you and there is nothing you can do to remedy this…Relay this oh younger sista I will always love you and wish you well…Sad to say you do not wish me well your tongue has vomited hate speech from the bowels of hell…You hate me so much you bad mouth me every chance you get to anyone who will listen with no sign of regret…For what you have become is a bad ass’d woman with lots wrong with you worse than I ever was…Do as I did get the help you need and if you trust a roman catholic priest never forget for all eternity what was done to me will be avenged by the God of life who is very fed up with sex perverts false Christ false Mary idolaters…When you fall and fall you will for your pride is causing your fall…You will feel devastated just as I often felt for your pride will be abased and you will feel like a whelp…Through this storm you will emerge sturdy and strong and you will be forever changed for the better…For you will learn the following letters…Hell hath no fury like a woman scorned and Mystical Mary has been scorned for centuries now…While Mystical Mary has had enough of your bull shit particularly your vile vicious gossip…Mystical Mary understands well that we were both born sick we had no chance in hell…Tis for this reason that you will be ok for Mystical Mary will make it that way…You will overcome as I have done with the help of heaven this will be done…In your devastation remember this I never hated you my little sis…You hated me for far too long now and so you will fall so that the strong may not wear the crown…When your pride is abased and abased it will be you will be vulnerable and frail in your humanity…Mystical Mary will see you through just as Mystical Mary has seen all of us through…You will feel like an abject failure but do not despair…I your older sis went before you to prepare ye the way…My pride was abased my pride was leveled I shed many a tear and felt like my life was a waste…I felt like my life was a dumb stupid joke then the God of life said I have released you from your own yoke…I have abased you in your pride to keep you by my side to undo the knots done by the wicked false Christ…I have set you free from the snares of the fowl beast so that you can help your own little sis prepare her own way through her own fall to come this little one will over come as you did like the prodigal son…You my prodigal daughter did return to the fold of the twelve tribes of Israel from the book of life…You will lead the way for your prodigal brothers and sisters to show them the way to heaven found in the book of life…Though your siblings hated you for a time and your poor mother too was very hateful to you…Who knew the plans of the God of life were embedded in you before the day of your birth…Your mystical soul oh long awaited one was prepared centuries before for these wicked days…Great exploits will be done for the God of life the father of the one true Jesus Christ…Mystical Mary will have his head the head of the prodigal son of the book of the dead…That wicked devil put on a very bad show and Mystical Mary is about to let him know…My dearest younger sis take away from this diss…I will always love you my prodigal little sis…I will always wish you well and hope you avoid the pains of hell…You remain in my eternal prayers and when many a pride is abased and leveled the God of life will show you why this has to be done…So that you cease and desist adoring the wicked prodigal bad son…

…………Namaste…………

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Warning this song is age restricted for adults only thank you…My latest song a Mystical Address titled Hey Sista…