The Formula – Anger – A Reflection

These little reflections The Formula and Anger were authored by Akiane kramarik between the ages of 7-11 in her book titled My Dream Is Bigger Than I – Memories of Tomorrow – Part Six Page 266 — “You will need your own copy of this book to view the full text of this poem.  I limit quotes for the purpose of discussion and to follow copyright guidelines that allows for limited quotes.”

The featured image I choose for this reflection is yours truly for my latest silent interpretative dance session which lasts the length of one song…Earlier this afternoon I had what I call a Celine Dion moment…Where I listened to one of my very favorite Celine Dion Songs which I will share with my readers on this blog entry…I am listening to it silently…I will also share my latest interpretative dance and exercise clip at the end of this reflection…I do my best now to be considerate of my bottom dwellers after all I myself be a bottom dweller too…So I use silent controlled movements and much less stomping…The pandemic is a stressful time for all of us so when we can be kind and considerate of our neighbors that is the thing to do…I want all the students here to get their educations to give them a fighting chance for bright futures…I will now quote from Akiane’s amazing reflections…In The Formula Akiane writes…”Being see-through dismisses the minds” Leaving out a portion of that reflection as part of building the mystery that is Akiane and to encourage my readers to purchase your own copy of this amazing book of prose online…Also, to follow copyright guidelines that allows for limited quotes for purposes of this review which is in the form of a series of reflections…In Anger Akiane writes…”Punching holes in walls will not stop our anger”…I left out a portion of this reflection also…Akiane writes about how transparency can be very helpful in our dealings with others because when we are transparent trust can be built…When we are not being transparent trust is destroyed…Trust is difficult to earn these days and very easily destroyed…Clarity is attractive and our ability to be clear attracts like minded folks…Folks who value transparency and clarity in communications…Ones who refuse to be transparent and clear often run for the hills when demands are placed upon them to be more transparent and clear…Akiane is right too when she speaks about Anger and how “Punching holes in walls will not stop our anger”…Well said Akiane — I could not have said it better myself…Anger can become demonic rage by means of feeding our feelings of anger…Punching walls does not stop anger rather it feeds the anger…Anger often escalates into demonic rage by feeding negative feelings that often dictates strong emotion filled responses…Resentments are ways that negative angry feelings are fed so as to result in many an implosion via self destructive sabotaging behavior patterns or explosions such as punching holes in walls and or harming others…It is important to learn how to manage anger so as to control our emotions…For when we become elevated and are in an emotional state our feelings are running riot and in that moment of emotional intensity we are often no longer in control of ourselves…Adding drugs and alcohol to an already unstable human being is a recipe for disaster…Ways to let go of anger are many and scientific studies show that the power of prayer profoundly simple can help to elevate the human being above the beta depressed state to a theta state…I share a link here that describes what major depression often looks like…I once had major depression for many years particularly during my years as a postpartum new mother…I had major postpartum depression…I understand well the effects of major depression that can be so debilitating it is like walking around with a grey rainy cloud over your head and there never seems to be a way out…The Winnie the Pooh character Eeyore is a good animation fictional character that does a good job of showcasing what a constant state of depression looks like…The author of Winnie the Pooh A. A Milne does an excellent job of character development via animation…That author is brilliant for all eternity though he passed away in 1956 may he rest in peace…Depression can be a form of anger turned inwards whereby the person is clinically depressed and insists on remaining in this state of affairs due to life not turning out the way the depressed person would have liked…There was a time when I was so damn depressed it was all I could do to shower that day and to scarf food down…I went for a year eating bologna sandwiches…Bologna and cheese sandwiches were very easy to make and since due to my own major depression food tasted like cardboard to me as I had lost the taste for food…I forced myself to eat boring bologna and cheese sandwiches for over a year…This was during a very difficult period in my life as a new postpartum mother…I also suffered from severe anxiety during my postpartum depression which lasted more than five years for me…My depression was very severe due to my history of abuse as an Irish child I was not equipped or prepared for motherhood…By the grace of God and with lots of professional help which included years of counseling…Which incorporated STEPPS Therapy because the professionals assessed that I had borderline personality disorder due to my abuse history…After years of intense therapy and medication along the way to help to stabilize my moods which were mostly depressive in nature…I got better and was considered by the professionals to have gotten better from my borderline personality disorder behavior patterns…Many can heal and get better from BPD also known as borderline personality disorder if they are willing to do what the professionals tell them to do…I was textbook…I did everything the professionals told me to do…To get better and stay better…This is what my therapists and doctors told me to do…I was told number one do not date because I was not well enough to deal with the drama of dating…So I did not date or consider dating…I was told eat regularly so I ate regularly…I was told get regular sleep as sleep is very important to health…So I took melatonin and anxiety medication to help me with sleep…For years I took Clonazepam which is a benzodiazepine as needed and by the grace of God I never got addicted because with medications like Clonazepam this can become habit forming…I took the medications prescribed by my caring doctors…I was told to volunteer so I volunteered…I was told to go to twelve step meetings for my very serious gambling addiction…So I attended twelve step meetings…I was told to go to as many twelve step meetings as possible so I branched out and also attended AA which is Alcoholics Anonymous where I received a warm welcome…It was in the rooms of Gamblers Anonymous and Alcoholics Anonymous that I found God that I learned about the God of life the loving God who is our creator who loves mankind and wants mankind to live life more abundantly…During my years as a roman catholic the only God I was taught about was a punishing angry vindictive abusive God…It was in the rooms of these twelve step programs that I discovered for the first time in my life who God truly is…I was told to get a part time job so I worked part time…I did everything I was told to do by the professionals to get well again…I was told that even on nights that I do not sleep well through to get up the same time every day as that will keep me in balance and on a good routine and I will have a better nights sleep the next night…A wonderful doctor told me that and to this day I follow this rule…Though I am guilty of sleeping in now and again…Throughout my years of intense therapy combined with medication and twelve step meetings…A healing process had begun in me so that by the time my son was nine years old…I was doing much better…My doctor who prescribed me my medications told me that he knew that one day I would not need to be on medications…He saw such a remarkable improvement in my condition that he saw fit to state this as his professional opinion in my case…I have letters that my wonderful doctor wrote for me to carry on my person that I had reached all of my goals that I was always compliant and that I was now compensating very well…That was necessary due to the vile verbal abuse and attacks that I was receiving from horrible members of the roman catholic church that I was once a part of…Horrible women and men made unnecessary calls to my kind doctor placing my well meaning and caring and empathetic doctor in a very awkward position…My doctor gave me the whole file as evidence these calls were made and the names of the swamp scum who placed those phone calls…One whose first name was Rita a bitch on wheels worse than my own bat shit crazy Irish mammy who would never think to do such a thing to her own daughter…Rita was demanding that I be put on more medication…Medications I did not need to be on which was abusive and my doctor was appalled by that…A man named Joe was told by Rita to call my doctor also to complain about my behavior at his filthy cult like church…For my behavior was considered odd because due to my own healing process I enjoyed singing from time to time and I had to get permission from narcissists like Joe and others to sing in their stupid church…Joe was removed from his position shortly after I reported those incidents to the church I attended at the time…I make no claims as to statements of facts that Joe was removed because of what he did to me…Suffice it to say that Joe is a narcissistic asshole hated by many and Joe has no idea the number of enemies he truly has…The same is true of that bitch Rita who saw fit to sell her very large ostentatious home built by greed and move to another state…During those years when this shit went down…I moved to Ireland with my son for a few years…That move proved to be a very good move…As I was preparing to return to Ireland harassing phone calls were made demanding that well checks be done on me…Well checks that were not needed or called for…The police department who did the well checks were always very kind and they were simply doing their jobs…A kind officer saw fit to call some of the ones who were calling in these well checks and the ones like Joe who was harassing my doctor to cease and desist this activity or they would get in serious trouble for harassing me…As a police officer said to me prior to my return to Ireland that I have the right to live where I choose and he told me that my nasty sister whom I had also informed that I was moving to Ireland had communicated with my nasty cousins in Ireland and was guilty of also requesting an unnecessary well check…The officer advised me to avoid interacting with my cousin during my time in Ireland…I followed that advice and avoided my nasty cousin and his wife like the plague…A narcissistic roman catholic priest saw fit to place threatening phone calls my way prior to my move to Ireland…While that dip shit priest told me I had a case against the roman catholic cult…He did not lift one fat ugly finger to help me…All he did was harass the piss out of me including making a vile effort to build a false case that I was being “hostile” towards him…He was and remains an ugly fat fuck a fat slob who is useless and good for nothing…That man tried to kiss me on more than one occasion and is like so many dickheads in the roman catholic church a swamp scum slime ball…During my time in Ireland that capital jerk contacted the local Gardai in Ireland to complain that I was “saying bad things about former pope john paul the second”…That phone call prompted a visit from the local Garda who found the whole experience interesting to say the least…When I told the Garda that I was impregnated by a roman catholic priest that the man who called them is very mixed up in the head…That I could show the Garda texts sent to me by that dip shit priest telling me things such as that he would be more fully available in the future…The Garda saw fit to offer to protect me from that nasty narcissistic prelate…I was in Ireland then and that priest was in America…The Garda in Ireland found the whole complaint rather odd…The Garda gave me permission to call that dip shit to let him know that the Garda the two of them were sitting at my kitchen table and to be rest assured that he would not be bothered by me again…The Garda left and I did get some counseling during my time in Ireland…I discovered that I had a compulsion to email that prelate so I asked that jerk to block my emails…Not too much to ask…I asked him to simply block my ability to email him…That would aid me to recover from my own compulsion to email him…That prick refused to block my ability to email him and to this day I can email him if I so choose…I have a mind to email him this latest blog entry just cause I can and to show that asshole that this blog is my bridge to healing…That no thanks to the likes of him…I am healing and getting better and stronger every day…Our journeys of healing are unique experiences and my own personal journey of healing is unique to me…Despite the road I traveled on being very rough I have come out the other side alright and well rounded…Priests like that prelate are swamp scum predators they do not care about women like me in fact these assholes love to hate women like me…I am glad that I got the hell out of the swamp scum roman catholic child and adult sex cult…Their current pope complains all the time about gossip in his cult…That is because his sex cult is full of lost spirits including the lost spirits of complaints found in vile gossips…The fallen angels fill the roman catholic sex cult and is continuously filling the ciborium with their malice found in many a vile chalice from their lusts full of the blood of the holy innocents raped and destroyed by their vile pedophile male clergy and female nuns…The devils have had a field day for over a century now with all seven churches not just the vile roman catholic church whose lot is more like salem’s lot full of shock shock horror of crimes done to the humanity of men women and children in the name of God of all things…I do not need to be hostile towards dip shit swamp scum roman catholic cunts…I do not need to do a damn thing…I get to watch in shock shock horror without pleasure ways these village idiots destroy themselves from within…I take no pleasure in their destruction…Though many a roman catholic bitch and roman catholic asshole do take sick pleasure in the destruction of others…These male and female narcissists stop at nothing to destroy those who oppose them for roman catholics are full of hate fed by ideals they themselves fail to live up to…This explains why many roman catholic women are swamp scum whores who use contraception and promote the use of contraception in their grown adult swamp scum children…No wonder then those who hate Christians fill the roman catholic church to destroy it from within so they can point the finger and laugh in demonic glee at the epic fail that is the vile filthy roman catholic swamp scum cult…Their nuns are the worst full of demonic pride fed by lusts all their own lusts fed by demonic hatred of women and motherhood men and fatherhood and children…Lusts fed by diabolical narcissistic pride whereby these nuns and consecrated virgins boast incessantly about how great they are meanwhile war pigs fill their ciboriums with the blood of their lusts…The blood of the boys and young men who are raped by other men and women in this vile vicious sex cult…The blood of the young girls whose virginity is destroyed by vile men and women…The blood of women like me who are raped via coerced sex and verbal abuse who scream out loud through the pains of child birth…A child birth that many roman catholics tried to destroy by pressuring me to have an abortion…I let the loud cries of the pains of childbirth that I experienced as a new mother as a Christian woman of the God of life be my loud cry my clarion call for justice to fall in honor of holy innocence that was destroyed from within the vile roman catholic cult…Let the birth of my son be the dawn of a new day for mankind…The dawn of the day when justice will fall…I dedicate this post to all who survived the Irish Gulag Industrial Schools and to all abuse survivors past present and future…As a thank you for reading this reflection…Enjoy my latest Celine Dion moment whereby I listen to my fav Celine Dion Song and perform my silent interpretative dance…I include that song by Celine Dion titled A New Day…Just like Celine was inspired to sing how a boy gave her strength I dedicate this post song and my latest performance to my boy…My son for whom I would take a bullet and think nothing of it…A boy who saved me his mother from a life of hell on earth…To my beloved twelve year old son I your devoted feisty Irish Mammy says thank you from the bottom of my heart for being the angel who saved me from darkness. “Where there was weakness I found my strength all in the eyes of a boy”…Celine Dion — I will share with my readers four powerful sentences inspired by the Book of Daniel that will inspire you and aid you through the power of prayer to rise above this shit storm life to a Theta state…I also include The Book of Daniel that I am now singing on You Tube to help others and myself to reach the Theta state…For we never walk alone we stand on the promises found in the word of God the book of Daniel…This is a work in progress for me…I have recorded chapter one so far and will continue to add to it until I complete the Book of Daniel…For the record I forgive those who hurt me I will never forget for all eternity the life’s lessons I was meant to learn…So as to set clear boundaries to avoid more future harm hurt and pain so as to forge a bright future for both my bright boy and myself…I will tread on those who dare to demand I not tread on them particularly those who ever dare to darken my door…I will tread on the haters with my mystical heal for my heal stands on the word of God…I state this and I do not stutter as a Mystical work of art nothing more and nothing less…

https://qbi.uq.edu.au/mattingleygroup – The University of Queensland Australia — Theta and Beta Oscillations studies…

Repeat these four simple sentences inspired by the Book of Daniel standing on God’s promises found in the Book of Daniel…

  1. “Hear oh God of Life my prayers”
  2. “Look in favor on my pain”
  3. “Hear and act don’t delay”
  4. “For I bear Your Holy Name – A Name Like No Other”

A word about my original post which my followers receive an email each time I post…Avoid becoming what I call click bait to websites that often look very good and sound excellent but end up selling you a narrative a story so as to cage you into purchasing stuff you really do not need…I ask you to study two links found at the end of this wee warning… Now if you wish to try their products by all means go for it…I am not endorsing this because I myself fell for it…I ended up paying more than thirty dollars money I cannot afford to spend…And what got me was the up selling process used by links like that…Notice that the narrative is very good about ways God helps us through sacred scriptures which I do agree with…I do not agree with creating package deals so as to ensnare folks into purchasing products we really do not need…Heck all we have to do is open our open our own bibles…My bible is Douay-Rheims whatever version you prefer. Simply open your bible to the book of Daniel and pray to your heart’s content it is truly that simple…While the website sounds great and the narrative is very moving…It is of the occult with many rituals they suggest that you do including gambling such as playing the lottery which for recovering compulsive gamblers like myself that is never a good or sound idea…The God of life sent the true Jesus Christ to spread the good news of the word of God so that we can all live more abundantly…Well abundant living means watching how we spend…I lost no time requesting my refund a refund which I will get within a few days thank goodness…

https://7dayprayermiracle.com/go/?hop=safeemail – This link contains the very long narrative a narrative that is too long ending with a sales pitch showing the screen you see in the link below that then proceeds to up sell more products…I warn against becoming click bait to spiritual packages like this which are often costly…In my experience I accidentally subscribed as well to a subscription package that would have cost me more than thirty dollars a month…Money I cannot afford to spend…

https://7dayprayermiracle.com/checkout/27.html – Payment page for this lady’s products which you are more than welcome to try…However, I do not think this is a good idea for many reasons…

All the same the prayer is always a welcome idea and notice that I added the God of life to this prayer as well as the fact that the Holy name of of the God of life is a name like No Other…

  1. “Hear oh God of Life my prayers”
  2. “Look in favor on my pain”
  3. “Hear and act don’t delay”
  4. “For I bear Your Holy Name – A Name Like No Other”

Notice that I sing sacred scriptures free of charge for the free enjoyment of any soul who wishes to avail of my free service…

…The Book of Daniel – Standing on the Word of God – we all benefit and enter into a Theta State in the natural through the power of pure and simple prayer…

A word about anger and how anger works to upset our peace…I include a link here that describes this very well…Recently a woman at a dentist’s office called the police because she claimed that she saw a Black man sitting in a car with a gun…In this case her call to the police was false…Putting the police in danger of backlash from our fine Black communities around America who are already understandably on fire and upset by these types of phone calls…I know what it is like to get false well check requests so in that way I can relate in my own little way…However since I am not Black out of respect for our Black communities I will never have a clue as to what it is like to walk in the shoes of our Black communities…It is out of great respect for our Black communities that I state this…In this story which I include a link for the police were appalled and finding no gun on the Black man apologized to him…The black man became very angry over this as it is outrageous and he has every right to his anger…Far be it for me to tell that Black man not to be angry…I agree that the woman who placed that phone call should be charged with a false police report inciting a potential excessive forceful response to a scene that did not need any kind of response…A man who is a husband and a father who was peacefully waiting should never have to experience this regardless of race religion color or creed…It is my hope that this Black man will pursue justice and press charges against that horrible woman for a wrongful police call that endangered the police department as well as that man who is a husband and a father…It is a disgrace…I feel anger and outrage welling up in me just reading this man’s story…Leave our fine Black communities alone and why is the media not mentioning our fine men and women in Blue who are Black who serve in our military our police forces and in every walk of life on America’s streets…Why is there silence there? I dedicate this part of my post to our very fine Black communities I stand with you though I am small and not much at all you are not alone in your outrage…This is an outrage and I am sorry I cannot stop this madness though if I could I sure would…I do hope that horrible woman is called to task for making that ridiculous bogus phone call…Enough is enough already…See link below…Our police have enough to deal with…I also dedicate this post to our fine police departments full of decent hardworking men and women of various races religions colors and creeds…

https://www.yahoo.com/news/ohio-woman-falsely-called-police-154003651.html – A man a husband and a father who happened to be a Black man had to deal with an excessive nasty phone call to the police department that was totally uncalled for…I agree with this Black man that the woman who did this should be charged with excessive calls to the police department for endangering not only this Black man but our police as well…Enough is enough already…

As a thank you for reading this reflection enjoy my latest Celine Dion moment silent interpretative dance and the song that Celine Dion sings so fabulously well with her fab voice that inspired this Celine Dion moment in me. I also include my crazy humor section featuring my most recent crazy jokes and crazy song titled Spectacle and my Flying Monkey song…

…………Namaste…………

…My Celine Dion Moment – Interpretative Dance to the song below by Celine Dion that I listen to in silence…

…………..Thank you Celine Dion for inspiring in me my own Celine Dion moments………….
…………My crazy humor section – produces many belly laughs…………
…………Spectacle – Me Irish Mammy would say I am making a Spectacle of Me Self – Holla…………
…………My Flying Monkey Song…………