Transgression – The Distress – A Reflection

These little reflections Transgression and The Distress were authored by Akiane kramarik between the ages of 7-11 in her book titled My Dream Is Bigger Than I – Memories of Tomorrow – Part Six Page 253 – “You will need your own copy of this book to view the full text of this poem.  I limit quotes for the purpose of discussion and to follow copyright guidelines that allows for limited quotes.”

The featured image I choose for this reflection is yours truly posing at the end of my silent artistic interpretative dance movements…By interpretative I mean I am not thinking about anything in particular when I dance…I am simply getting a good work out but the viewers can try to guess what music I am listening to with my ear buds…This kind of activity is very simple in concept and not unique to me and can be tons of fun to do at home with family and friends…It keeps them guessing as to what music you are listening to so as to move in such a way…Music moves me I love music also you can add any kind of background music you want to silent interpretative dance movements…In Transgression Akiane writes…”Transgression reveals whose truth is next” I left out a small portion of that reflection…In The Distress Akiane writes…”I distressed the cold-blooded heart by putting it on a mirror”…Wow! Cry me a river…Akiane is amazing and known to our fallen world as a Binary Genius…In Transgression Akiane describes the concept of “whose truth is next”…For many of us myself included our idea of truth can be founded on idealistic falsehoods that were instilled in us from the day of our birth…I share on you tube my perspective on what being a woman is like in this century…The social pressures women often face in our lost fucked up western world…I mean it is crazy…A woman is expected to marry within a certain window of years or time frame…A woman is expected to get an education be a hunter and gatherer and provider in addition to birthing babies…My God the feminist movement has damaged women beyond repair whereby if a woman is young and in high school or college and gets pregnant great pressure is felt to abort that baby so as to fulfill the expectations others place on that woman and her sacred body…No care or concern is given her unborn child since in the western world the civil rights of children particularly unborn children have been stripped away under banal laws…Then if a woman marries on time within that window dictated by the crazy western world…That woman is often placed on a pedestal she has no business being on and is encouraged to speak highly of herself and the fact that she married well to others and to look on other women who are not married as less than her…Then if a woman never marries in this shit storm western world well she never gets any damn respect…If a woman marries later in life in the western world that marriage is tolerated but frowned upon…The men in this shit storm western world are often terrified of western women because western women are typically more independent and strong willed with minds of their own…The reason men are terrified of western women is because they do not want the war machine woman who could fleece him dry rob him blind and elect to abort one or all of his unborn children on a whim…Western women can be terrible to deal with…Therefore, I respect and appreciate this very rational not irrational mind you very rational fear men have of western women…To marry a western woman is to risk being targeted yourself for abuse in various forms…I have an uncle who was beaten by his wife who was a western woman who married my uncle for the wrong reasons…That wife left my uncle for another woman leaving my uncle to raise their children…My uncle was devastated by this but was able to find a delightful rather crazy new partner whom he never formally wed but they are wed by common law marriage due to being inseparable for years…They seem very happy but she is extremely controlling very insecure and a nightmare to deal with on a good day…My uncle’s ex-wife passed away a few years ago…She died alone and was found dead in her home…My uncle replaced his ex-wife with another awful woman no different than his ex-wife except she is not gay but is otherwise a nightmare to deal with…That woman controls every aspect of my now elderly uncle’s life so much so that when you call the phone numbers she provides for contact her voice is in both voice mails…My uncle lost his identity he lost himself years ago and is being controlled by another controlling awful woman…Something my uncle allows and gave permission resulting in his own self torture in that he is very lost…I met his new partner many times over the years…She is ugly as hell inside and outside…A huge supporter of abortion on demand and she loves to attack other women verbally both young and old with vicious vile gossip and backbiting…She also takes sick pleasure in seeing other women fail something I witnessed her doing…I met up with her and my uncle during my time in Ireland…So that my son could meet some of his crazy relatives…During our short visit she was horrible as usual…Nothing new or surprising there…One day that nasty bitch suffered a nasty fall a freak fall while waiting for a bus…Now I do not wish evil on horrible people however I do believe in karma and karma can be a bitch at times…She had a nasty fall and while I did not wish that on her and I was genuinely glad to know she got better and received very good medical care after her fall…I thought to myself you vicious lying sack of shit so hell bent on staying on a pedestal going so far as to lie about her son who has done very well in life but made some serious mistakes too like many do…This sick fuck takes sick pleasure in seeing others fail…I never liked that woman and I never will like that plastic fake rich bitch…That woman boasts about her wealth and never helps a soul unless that soul serves to feed her very fragile narcissistic ego…Suffice it to say she looked like hell after her fall and I cringed…I take no pleasure in seeing others fall or suffer unlike many sickos who do take sick pleasure in such things…I cringed because that wicked witch brings this stuff upon herself…She does not eat right and is now elderly and as such due to bad choices she brought that fall upon herself…Her blood pressure was not right when she fell which made matters worse…Far be it for one like me to tell her she is punishing herself…I say leave her to her own devices she is getting her just deserts what she deserves…I do not have to do a damn thing to that bitch…I do not have to lift a finger…I get to watch the very bad show that she is and cringe…I say cringe because I take no pleasure in seeing lost sheep suffer though suffer they do and their fall is very great…All the same I take no pleasure in the follies of lost sheep…Truth is difficult to discern anymore because what is truth to one person is different than what is truth to others…Therefore, I let the word of God guide me as to what is truth…I do my best to live a purposeful simple life abiding by the law of God as a law abiding citizen and avoiding like the plague ones who support abortion and other such profane laws as well as many miserable couples like my uncle and his bat shit crazy rich bitch partner…In Distress Akiane describes how she “distressed the cold-blooded heart by putting it on the mirror”…Human beings are complex creatures though the reasoning for this complexity is more simple than one would realize…We are created to love and to be loved…Sadly when we get hurt our spirit and emotions change and can harden our hearts if we allow it…The word of God addresses the problem of hardened hearts as follows…”If today you hear God’s voice harden not your hearts”…Sadly many do allow their hearts to be corrupted by vengeance which is fed by resentments…Resentments can become like poison to mankind who often feed themselves poison by drinking from many a poison cup of resentments and other such negative energy…When mankind feeds and nurtures the bad wolf by feeding resentment and anger and jealousy then a demonic rage settles in which then feeds the ungodly unholy desire for vengeance…Holy men and women understand that anger is not bad in and of itself that it is what we do with our anger that matters most…Vengeance will be God’s we must leave vengeance to the God of life for to seek vengeance in this life is to bring more vengeance upon yourself and your lineage from the God of life…Horrible people become demoniac possessed or obsessed demoniac head cases when these ones allow their hearts to harden so as to change their spirit and their souls to the demonic…Mankind is meant to become holy and angelic in nature not unholy and demonic…Two thirds of mankind are demonic and have become like the fallen angels due to hardened hearts and lives lived horribly wrong…When I study my part time job statistically speaking from the number of phone calls I provide to the number of reviews I receive good bad or indifferent…I observed that a third of my callers will take the time to leave a review…That tells me that the other two thirds love themselves too much to bother providing a review…I state this because when I receive a phone call the first thing I do is thank my caller for their phone call…I may forget to say thank you at times but I do my best to always thank my callers…Why? Because I appreciate all of my callers…My father taught me to show appreciation and show appreciation I most certainly do on a regular basis…I then explain to my callers how I work and then I get consent from my callers to proceed or not that is always their choice…During the course of my calls I consistently remind my callers to please rate the phone call good bad or indifferent as I read my reviews and that their reviews will help me to learn and grow in my work…I also state that rating these phone calls and written reviews helps other callers too…I do this to see how many would be motivated to rate these calls good bad or indifferent…The numbers do not lie a third of my callers will take the time to rate the call…This tells me that many hide behind the excuse of being very busy or too busy to rate phone calls…In reality though human beings will make time to complete certain tasks if said tasks matters to them…I am not angry with my callers who choose not to rate the calls…Not at all…It just goes to show that one third of humanity has empathy and care and concern in every walk of life and two thirds of humanity are lost to the devil himself…In my own fallen humanity I do get incensed and very angry about injustice and profanity found in profane laws and policies and procedures…I simply channel my anger in a healthy way…So I go crazy on you tube and do different stuff…I say tis true I am crazy too I am just not a bad kinda crazy…I will not lie cheat kill and destroy and I would take a bullet for my neighbor…Anger in and of itself is not bad it is how we handle our anger that counts…I went to twelve steps for years to overcome my bad gambling addiction…What I learned in my twelve step program of recovery is that resentments can become the number one offender…I learned so much from my twelve step program of recovery both gamblers anonymous and alcoholics anonymous and my guest visits to narcotics anonymous because one of my friends went to both AA and NA…I myself never got addicted to drugs thanks be to God…I recommend twelve steps for everybody because many today have many addictions in many forms such as…Work addiction…Pornography addiction an addiction I myself struggled with for a short time…That addiction terrified me so I got help and over came it…How I overcame my own adult pornography addiction problem was this…I started to share with others in recovery that I struggled with this…I then spoke about my struggle in public at social events that were set up for open discussion about addiction and recovery from addiction…Women can become addicted to pornography too and it is high time someone said it so I will say it because I am a woman who was once addicted to adult pornography…By speaking openly about my addictions a miracle happened in my life…I was now holding myself to account for my addictions and by so doing…I was able to over come because I was no longer hiding behind a wall of secret addictions…In twelve steps there is a saying that goes like this…”We are only as sick as our secrets”…This is very true…Many today have hidden secret addictions such as sex addiction which is awful and if the sex addict does not speak openly about this addiction the consequences are often deadly such as death from sexually transmitted diseases or suicide due to depression from the struggle the war waged from within the addict…A sex addict once targeted me in my twelve stepping days he was a predator who leveraged the fact that he was a sex addict to target women…I ripped him a new one and told him to get the help he needs from the men per twelve step guidelines…I met that creep at one of my gamblers anonymous meetings…That predator was trolling various recovery group meetings to target and access women to feed his sex addiction…That smooth operator went to great lengths to target me including offering to meet up to return a book I had forgotten from my one my gamblers anonymous meetings…I told that creep he had no business interfering with me by intercepting a plan I already had in place to pick up that book at the next gamblers anonymous meeting…I instructed that creep to return that book to the meeting room and to never contact me ever again that I was already reporting his misconduct to the local police and respective investigative authorities…I blocked him from my phone and never heard from him again…I had to establish no contact fast…Sex addicts understand that women with addictions are often though not always an easy target for sex…Regardless of the type of addiction addicts are at war with themselves and as such bring war to their loved ones who must bear the burden of this war on all flesh in the form of many addictions…I no longer look at pornography at all and for me to be able to say that is a miracle…There was a time when I desired or felt the urge or compulsion to look at adult pornography for the sexual stimulation…Something I once did was sex phone call lines where I would call these phone lines for the cheap entertainment factor and talk dirty to both men and women…I often ended up in stitches of laughter because I could not keep a straight face particularly when talking to the women who thought I was gay…That was funny to me but it was not right that I did those things…I did those things because I was empty inside I was sad lonely depressed and felt like I was a wash out a loser with no bright future…So why not talk dirty on sex phone lines after all there was nothing left for me…I never worked in the sex industry or made money from the sex industry…I simply called those dating phone lines that are free for women to call and I learned that the men pay to speak to the women…There is a sex industry found in dating applications and dating websites that function like meat markets…Many go on those sites and troll for opportunities to bait and switch women and men for sex with no love…Many of these sites are enabling lustful banal practices done by those who use those sites to find partners for sex…I do suggest to some of my callers who are trying to find love and partners…To pay for a matchmaking service that will background check and profile potential partners so as to provide good dating experiences and to eliminate the chaff from the wheat…That suggestion goes over like a ton of bricks and is often not well received…Here’s why…Many of my callers feel entitled to a committed partnership yet they tell me in the next breath they are messing with other partners and as such are very sexually active…Consequently, no matchmaking service that is respectable would accept these callers as clients because these ones are often the chaff to be removed from the wheat…Mystically speaking…No man or woman of sound mind wants a partner who is sleeping around with multiple sex partners…That is why many dip shit callers do not want to pay for anything real like a decent match making service provider because these ones are not being real with themselves and others…I know that I myself am not a good catch for many obvious reasons…I am a single mother and regardless of how I became a single mother being a single mother removes me from many dating opportunities…I am a person with special needs I must rest a lot and I do not earn huge income…I am not a large wage earner…Consequently – I lack the social status and pedestal power so many seek in their prospective partners today…Also, I am a middle aged woman slightly overweight with a wee pot belly and fat ass…Therefore I am not an attractive or viable option for men looking for a partner…That is why I do not date and also why I would never pay for a match making service because while I am not chaff in that I do not sleep around…I am not promiscuous…My profile would not match the criteria that men seek or look for in prospective partners…Sadly many men prefer to marry women on birth control and women who have had abortions who look good on paper than women like me whose lives are messy on paper…I never had an abortion but my life is messy on paper…I know at the core of my being who I am and that is what maters most…I am woman I am small not very tall and not much at all – hear me roar…As a thank you for reading this reflection enjoy my latest artistic expression on you tube…I will include my latest songs titled Invective…In one of my Invective songs I express in very theatrical fashion how I feel about the disorder in the courts of jurisprudence that lacks honor these days…I also include my expressive artistic silent dancing concept not unique to me on you tube…Dancing is fun and a great work out and a good way to help to lose weight…I dedicate this post to all the hard working dedicated attorney’s and judges and all who work in courts of law to effect change and to help the down trodden but find their bright intelligent hands are often systemically and categorically tied due to corruption…I also add my comedy piece titled A Corrupt Luv Letter through the eyes of an attorney…You know for all of us myself included when we take a good look at ourselves in the mirror what we see looking back at us can be very sobering…Twelve steps helped me to take a solid look at my own choices badly made…I shed many tears as I trudged my road to happy destiny due to how ugly I was on the inside over the years…When we work on ourselves and take a good solid honest look at ourselves it is then and only then can we receive the motivation and the grace from the God of life in the form of the desire to change for the better…Many horrible people believe only what they want to believe and when obliged by law or forced by the universe to see their own hardened hearts…This process causes distress in ones who refuse to change for the better…In ones who are committed to self improvement in the form of recovery programs and self help this distress still occurs but is more manageable thanks to the humility found in the ones who are seekers the ones who are seeking truth about themselves and others…

…………Namaste…………

…………Invective – Cause there is disorder in the courts n I move to strike…………
…………Silent Expressive Interpretative Dancing…………
…………Invective – The word of God has been systemically and categorically torn asunder via Invective…………
…………Silent Interpretive Artistic Dance Playlist…………
…………A corrupt luv letter – through the eyes of an attorney…………