Jealousy – Fame – A Reflection

These little reflections Jealousy and Fame were authored by Akiane kramarik between the ages of 7-11 in her book titled My Dream Is Bigger Than I – Memories of Tomorrow – Part Six Page 244 – “You will need your own copy of this book to view the full text of this poem.  I limit quotes for the purpose of discussion and to follow copyright guidelines that allows for limited quotes.”

The featured image I choose for this reflection is of an awesome view of the sun spectacular in appearance from one of our awesome road trips…The cloud cover and the sunlight with rays is phenomenal to me an amateur smart phone photographer and smart phone artist…I will now quote from Akiane’s reflections…In Jealousy Akiane writes…”no remorse” – I left out a portion of that small reflection…In Fame Akiane writes…”like fur sheds too”….I left out a portion of that wee reflection too to build the mystery that is Akiane Kramarik…To encourage my readers to purchase your very own copy of Akiane’s amazing book of prose and to follow copyright guidelines that allows for limited quotes for purposes of this review which is in the form of a series of reflections…If you have ever experienced jealousy from a person who ever admits being jealous of you…Then you will understand the hatred behind vile jealousy…A woman I once knew named Maeve told me to my face that she was jealous of me…I was floored because I never viewed myself as much…Maeve’s jealously knew no remorse…Maeve is not capable of remorse…Maeve bad mouthed me for years behind my back to anyone who would listen about how horrible I am…What an awful person I am…That jealous bitch attacked my character and my name in a very cowardly and cruel and merciless fashion…If Maeve ever crosses my path ever again I will rip her to shreds…I will tear her apart and rip her a new one…I will reduce that bitch to a shriveled whelp full of tears that I will enforce…I am not a woman to be crossed you cross me you fuck me over I get my revenge…It may take me ten years but I always get my revenge…When it comes to revenge…Revenge is always best served stone cold when my target least expects it then I strike…I drop bombs in a very strategic well thought out manner…By bombs I do not mean actual bombs…I mean verbal bombs I mean revenge of the nerds which I am excellent at…That jealous bitch Maeve will rue the day she choose to envy me…That bitch will rue the day she incited in me outrage over her own jealous rage unfurled on me via hate speech and bad mouthing me attacking me behind my back a true coward…The jealousy in Maeve towards me could be classified as pathological envy which is dangerous and very serious…Maeve is not her birth name her birth mother a lovely woman for whom I have great eternal respect for recently passed away and may she rest in peace…God love her and God help her – Her own narcissistic daughter changed her birth name to Maeve…I never changed my birth name…I kept the name my own birth mother saw fit to name me as my own small way of honoring my strong feisty birth Irish Mammy…Women like Maeve are for the birds ridiculously proud and too stupid to recognize their own faults since ones like that are far too busy using their lips of wars destroying others around them including sabotaging their own existing relationships along the way…At the end of this reflection I share a song with the world about what vile vicious gossip does to people which I title Maeve and her lips of wars…My mystical way of bitch slapping that bitch I met years ago and who better stay the fuck out of my way and out of my path for should she ever cross my path again…I will crush that bitch…I am unto the jealous their adder in the grass their valkyrie worse than hell itself…Their reward for their cruel and merciless attacks on my character my name and my family behind our backs will be eternal for these ones will never forget for all eternity this woman whom they dared cross…I can be very cross and I take no crap in very valkyrie like manner…I also include a song I sing not my own titled Darradarljoo – The Battle Song of the Valkyries – A mystical poem that I put into song surrounding the ancient Battle of Clontarf in Ireland in 1014…I never had a desire to be famous…Fame has no appeal to me…I do the work I do for the sheer joy of it…My reward comes from helping others and for the cathartic experiences I get to have via my blog and you tube that is good enough for me…For all my followers and all who like my stuff and share my stuff…I cannot thank you enough…I feel the love and return the same…Those who are prone to jealousy including jealous rage etc. are miserable wretched creatures who are miserable whelps not capable of remorse for these ones are controlled by demons from hell itself…Demons that control and feed their jealous rages and lips of wars…I also include my song titled Tungsten Pb Scars addressing the problem of Jealous rages that are demonic in nature and often kill their targets in many forms such as gunshot crimes and machine gun style verbal abuse…I will now share something with my readers about skills I learned from my own years of experience in the business world…Take a moment and pause and switch your cerebral gears please…I will now describe for you in detail how you can clean up your own credit yourself….

…………For the everyday consumer here is how you can clean up your own credit………….

First I will start by sharing some useful websites that will help you to clean up your credit…The average consumer is entitled to one free copy of your own credit report from all three bureaus…Experian…Equifax…Transunion…I learned there are other agencies that also report credit but I forget those agencies…These three agencies are the most well known and most referenced both in banking and personal business…To obtain your free credit report simply request your free credit report from the annual report website I share on this blog…You can also call all three bureaus I have found phoning the bureaus rather difficult…However it is possible to get through to them but you often have to go through hoops when calling from the phone…I myself received my free annual credit report from all three bureaus some time ago this year…Now I need to clean up my credit because after getting into some debt from small lenders…My credit score took a shit dump and went from a FICO – which means Fair Isaac Corporation score of over 700 to under 400…The model used to report credit on consumers is supposed to be a fair model an algorithm of values assigned to consumers to determine creditworthiness…Now in my story I do not have any collateral in the form of a car that can be sold or refinanced or a home with a mortgage that has built equity…Therefore though I did have a very high FICO score over 700 I could not obtain a debt consolidation loan which would allow me to obtain payoffs for my modest loans and then pay on my consolidation loan for a number of years in the form of regular on time monthly payments…Consequently, or as a result my only choice is to allow the following shit storm to happen…Creditors report to all three credit bureaus that I owe debts and that I failed to pay on time…This then causes my FICO score to lose points because each negative report to all three bureaus is assigned a value which can either build or destroy your credit…In my case due to being unable to obtain a debt consolidation loan due to not having any collateral…I am obliged to deal with this shit storm…Which includes not only the destruction of my credit of my FICO score but also annoying phone calls from my creditors…I was getting two calls a day from the same creditor plus other calls from obnoxiously rude creditors who refused to listen to reason…I proceeded to research my options and there are some debt consolidation services out there that offer to negotiate with nasty creditors on your behalf but by the time you or I would be done paying them off you end up paying more in the end…Meaning these services charge a lot of money to do a job you can do yourself…Now in my story I do qualify for a chapter seven bankruptcy…I could file a chapter seven bankruptcy and get my debts written off…In order to do this the average cost for a bankruptcy lawyer is between $1,500.00 which is not bad that is reasonable to $2,750.00 depending on the state you live in…A useful website I would like to share is a service called UPSOLVE where you can file your own Chapter Seven Bankruptcy by simply being thorough and having all of your details ready including any previous bankruptcies filed…Now with upsolve.org if you answer a question incorrectly this site will kick you out and you will have to start the process over by emailing them…This happened to me when I tried using upsolve.org…I took my financial affairs to prayer and I truly want to pay back my loans…It is the right thing to do and I would feel better paying back my loans…Now I simply cannot afford to pay off all of my loans all at once…So as one who is in what I call a mountain of debt…I bite this elephant of debt one bite at a time…So I presently make monthly payments on one of my larger bank loans which will be paid in full within six months…This is my way of saying thank you to that nice bank for lending to me…Sorry it will take me a while but I will repay my obligations…I also paid in full a very small loan…I am taking a two pronged approach to my debts…I am on a monthly payment plan for one of my larger bank loans…Once that payment plan is completed I will start another payment plan with my other larger loan and so on until my larger loans are paid in full…I will continue to pay off my smaller loans as follows…I list my smaller loans in the order of smallest most manageable balance first then one by one I pay them off…This way I am attacking my debt for lack of a better term in a two pronged approach…Now as consumers we can obtain cease and desist orders from the corporations who own these lending companies…Many smaller lending companies are owned by larger lending companies…So simply enter the lending company that you owe money to into the google search engine as follows…Lending company name corporate headquarters…Sometimes you will get their corporate headquarters or their customer service line which is more national than local in scope of outreach…As such lending companies are governed by both state corporate laws and consumer laws and national corporate laws and consumer laws…Here is how you do as I did and obtain your own cease and desist orders without an expensive attorney…No offense to the brilliant lawyers out there who outsmart me in their sleep…I had to do this because I am poor and cannot afford a very expensive brilliant lawyer much smarter than I…I was getting nowhere with the local debtors offices who refused to listen to reason and kept calling me which pissed me off…So I reached out to their corporate offices…Here are some ways to get contact details…Go on Linkedin and list your lending company and their employee name and that will pull a list of other such companies and their corporate staff as well…Also do as I did call the same lending company in a different state many of these lending companies are national in scope and have local offices in different states…Always be polite and apologetic too for bothering them…The ladies and gents who answer your phone call will appreciate that…It was through my own extensive process of phone calls that I obtained apologies from higher upper level management on the corporate level who insisted on honoring my right not to receive annoying phone calls from the local offices…The collection activities were so awful that one lender sent an employee out in this pandemic for an unnecessary stop to my home to place an unnecessary ridiculous note on my door demanding I call them…What is so ridiculous about that is I had just called them…I obtained a cease and desist order in writing from one of these lending companies…What the cease and desist order is or means is simply to cease and desist unnecessary harassing collection phone calls and stops to my home…One lending company made their employee return and remove the offending excessive note because she understood well that these activities are not cost effective…That gas money time and energy and resources are being wasted and only serve to piss off ones like me…That employee had to return to my home and pick up her ridiculous note that I never touched and she had to follow specific instructions…Which included ringing my door bell to let me know this was done…I informed her upper level manager this was done…I was able to get all of these lending companies to cease and desist all collection phone calls and unnecessary stops to my home…The fact remains however that I am in debt and I am obliged to repay my debts…Never ever leave outstanding debts unattended either pay off your debts over time or declare bankruptcy…One or the other…For failure to tend to your debts can result in the inability to find a decent job…Many employers look at your credit worthiness…For renting property or a car or for buying a home you need to have strong credit…Also, if a creditor ever decides to take you to court you can show a judge in a court of law the steps you are taking to get out of debt…That is what I am doing…I recently purchased another copy of my credit report from all three bureaus…I sat down today and contacted my creditors…To inform them I am in the process of cleaning up my financial mess…One creditor on the local level got obnoxious refused to listen to me and tried to talk over me by stating her intention to breach my cease and desist order to not call me…She refused to hear me…Though I read her my legal rights as a consumer that one was dumb as rocks and did not seem to get what I was telling her…So I called corporate customer service who reassured me they would not only honor that cease and desist order for return phone calls that they will enforce this order at the local office by pounding it into the thick heads of their stupid employees that I am not to be called for any reason…As a consumer I have the right to advocate for myself…So while these creditors cannot call me I can call them as part of my own process of cleaning up my credit…I must remind these creditors that it is fine for me to call because I am indebted to them…But that my phone calls must not trigger another barrage of unwanted collection calls that by my calling my creditors I do not provide or give implied consent to call me back…Now many in America do not like to be told what to do or how to do it…So when I called one of these creditors on the local level the woman who answered the phone hung up on me and refused to help me…So I put the white Irish heat on that one as follows…I called corporate and had them witness by phone what the local girl was doing to me…That did not go well for her and she will be scolded severely scolded for hanging up on a consumer and for refusing to help me and when she did finally help me she tried to boss me and bully me into accepting incoming phone calls which I had to have enforced with the help of corporate to pound it into her head that no she may not call me but yes I most certainly may call her to take care of my loan my financial obligation…That is how you bitch slap these pussies and put them in their place…I am woman hear me roar I am a total Leo a female Lion I am the boss and what I say goes…It is about time consumers like me get some damn respect…I am told that word is spreading in the banking industry on a small level that my fraud detection report is being heard loud and clear and many have already thanked me for saying something and yes for blowing a gasket…Someone had to do it so it might as well be yours truly…I hope you find this helpful…I might add that when negotiating payoff amount with creditors make sure the negotiated amount comes with an agreement on the part of the creditor to update on all three credit reporting bureaus that your loan is now paid in full…If you fail to insist on that many creditors will accept smaller payoff amounts but not update your credit report that they were paid in full…

https://upsolve.org/ – for free non profit Chapter 7 Bankruptcy for those who need to file a chapter seven bankruptcy…There is a modest filing fee cost and cost of bankruptcy courses that are now required for chapter 7 bankruptcies….

https://www.annualcreditreport.com/index.action – to obtain your free annual credit report from all three bureaus…

https://www.equifax.com/personal/ – offers credit services products and the opportunity to purchase your credit report from all three bureaus….

As a thank you for reading this reflection and useful ways to advocate for yourself as a consumer…Enjoy these here songs…Including my latest Fraud Alert Spoof Song…I also include a podcast from a respected female in the field of psychology that describes the pathological envy found in narcissistic men and women in the dark triad of narcissism found in narcissistic abusive types which is what that Maeve whom I encountered years ago is like…Maeve is a pathological narcissist full of pathological envy which means that she is not a safe person due to Maeve’s own twisted pathology. What Maeve did to me was gaslight me behind my back and Maeve also verbally molested me both to my face and behind my back…A horrible beastly woman of the beast who goes to church regularly and is – Oh Snap! – another staunch piece of shit roman catholic…That church and all seven churches is full of narcissistic creeps like Maeve…Heaven help us all particularly the lost sheep found in all seven churches full of banality and banal narcissistic diabolical demonic pride gone horribly wrong…Thank heavens the house of cards or hause of cards is falling falling falling for many a vile wicked wolf…………

…………Namaste…………

…………Maeve and her lips of wars – addressing hate speech crimes done by gaslighting vile narcissitic men and women like Maeve…………
…………This podcast lasts for an hour so allow yourself time in a quiet and relaxed area to listen to this very educational and helpful podcast that describes in some detail the problem of gaslighting syndrome caused by pathological envy found in diabolical narcissists on the spectrum of pathological and malignant narcissism…………

…………Fraud Alert Song – A Spoof Fraud Alert Song…………
…………Party City Costume Performances Playlist…………
…………Tungsten Pb Scars – Addressing Scars that do not have to define…………
…………Darradarljoo – The Battle Song of the Valkyries – The Battle of Clontarf in Ireland in 1014…………..