Vanity – Checkmate – A Reflection

These little reflections Vanity and Checkmate were authored by Akiane kramarik between the ages of 7-11 in her book titled My Dream Is Bigger Than I – Memories of Tomorrow – Part Six Page 242 – “You will need your own copy of this book to view the full text of this poem.  I limit quotes for the purpose of discussion and to follow copyright guidelines that allows for limited quotes.”

The featured image I choose for this reflection is yours truly doing a dab though not a very good dab during our epic road trip when my son was at the age when dabbing was fun and cool…I will now quote from Akiane’s short reflections…In Vanity Akiane writes…”selfish curiosity awakens the immorality of eternal dissolution”…I left out the opening part of that short reflection…In Checkmate Akiane writes…”altar accusations checkmate their own future”…I left out the opening portion of this little reflection as well…Curiosity about forbidden knowledge that produces forbidden fruit from trees of lies and deceit and death and destruction is not a good or a fine thing…Sadly many are curious and as such learn how to know to become evil and do terribly wrong things…Many evil parents send their children to evil counselors who do more damage than good to their holy innocent children…Wicked parents teach their children how to become wicked…By false accusations from profane altars many do indeed checkmate their own futures as Akiane writes…For in the art of war which is like a game of chess there are no winners and those who make bad choices bring eternal judgement upon themselves and remove themselves from the book of life and add themselves to the book of the dead…It was said that Napoleon Bonaparte of France molested his 14 year old relative whom it was believed by many he impregnated and then married her off to hide his molestation crimes…Napoleon Bonaparte of France was pure evil…Now my son is at an age where dabbing something he once thought was fun and cool in his younger years is now no longer fun and cool and mum is old and not cool…Every parent raising children gets that…Impostors who pose as fathers who go by the title of father who never raise children of their own though many of these beastly fathers father children and rape men women and children in the name of God are nothing but impostors and have no business being on pedestals preaching about a damn thing…Thank goodness many are waking up and no longer listening to evil counselors and impostors like that…I listened to an evil counselor my son’s father who raped me was a roman catholic priest who went by father…An evil counselor who preyed upon my emotions and feelings a true wolf in sheep’s clothing who boasted to his buddies that he got me pregnant…An evil counselor who was supposed to be my spiritual director guiding me on faith and morals…Fuck that bastard that piece of shit scumbag evil counselor…I say fool me once shame on you fool me twice shame on me fool me thrice things will not go well and I will not be very nice…A black man no less who hates white women like me…I get to say this because I was raped by a black man…I am not racist at all but many black men hate white women and view white women as nothing but white trash…I will share what I all a Case in point short story here about yet another casanova who thought he could pull the wool over my Irish eyes…

The dancing casanova – full of lies and deceit and the devil himself

Recently where I live a black man told me he was single and tried to flirt with me…Now I can read energy and I am accurate most times…I knew in my spirit something was not right with this one…So I simply ignored his remarks about being single and said nothing in reply…I had no reply to that…I simply ignored his comments…Now this horrible man proceeded to make dancing motions in my presence as if he wanted to dance with me…Says I to meself tis the devil that is in that one moving his dancing feet to make me believe a lie that he might actually like me…That man who works on the property I rent…Offered to provide a service to my unit outside of business hours…I was interested only if I could let management where I live know this extra work was being done…This is not my unit or apartment or property and I do not do a thing without the permission of the management team who run this fine property…Here is the chain of events that occurred in my limited interactions with that black capital jerk…That jerk gave me his phone number a phone number I never asked for mind you…I sent a text confirming my initial interest in his service for something minor in my unit…I got no reply and when I asked him in person if he got my text he denied receiving my text…I then showed him that I sent him the text to which he only then admitted to receiving my text…That man is a demon filled pompous narcissistic creepy jerk…I knew he was playing head games with me as I am well versed in shit heads…When I politely confronted him showing him the text I sent…I stated the only way he could work on this unit is if the management team is informed…To which I received a very angry reply to which I responded that does it this conversation is over and you sir will not get any outside business from me…I sent a follow up text confirming that it is in the best interest of all parties involved both me the tenant and him the worker not to conduct any business outside of business hours and certainly not without the consent of the fine management team where I rent…I then left it alone but for the safety of my family I had the piece of shit investigated…Turns out at the time he claimed to be single he was living with a lovely black woman and there are young children in that picture…My God that piece of shit thought he could play me for a fool come again I do not suffer fools…I kept the intelligence I got on that scumbag strictly to myself for I do not drop bombs unless I need to…In the art of war on all flesh I play my cards carefully and only strike when necessary…I study my enemies who often are unaware as to how much intelligence I have on these fuckers…I do not play ball I kick ass…I knock the fucking balls off the damn court or field…Some time passed and one day as a gesture of good will I offered some treats to members of staff to show appreciation as their grateful and happy tenant…Though I knew what a jerk that black man was and I would say this hatred of women is very common in men and crosses the racial divide…That man who hates women so happens to be a black shit head that’s all…All the same I choose to be kind and offer this shit head a modest treat…This man has a history of accepting treats that I share with staff from time to time with no preference on my part as to who accepts or not…Tis the gesture of goodwill that matters most…To show by my actions that I appreciate the staff here…So in very Forrest Gump style I offered that horrible man some treats…He became very angry and yelled that he was busy…A totally unnatural angry response to a little offer of candy…I acted stupid and said to that pompous jerk…I’m sorry I forget your name because actually now that I think of it in that moment I truly had forgotten his name…That jerk glared at me with vile hatred a hatred very common these days that transcends race…A horrible hatred for women full stop…That did it…I told that piece of shit that this incident would be documented and that I would be reporting that I offered him candy and how he handled my simple kind offer…Keep in mind this member of staff has a history of accepting small treats…Also it was only after I rejected his unkind unholy ungodly advances in his speech did he become angry with me…I reported that incident along with screenshots of the texts I sent as well as a screen shot of the shareable portion of his social media whereby this jerk recently announced to the world that he is: – Drum Roll please….Is the suspense killing you???…Engaged to be married…My God I feel sorry for his fiance…She is marrying a cad…Far be it for me to tell her though…That woman already has her fiance on a pedestal in the idealization phase of that diabolical dance with a male narcissist…That woman would likely not listen to me or believe me and would likely call me white trash and accuse me of pursuing her dip shit man…That is how the proud and conceited operate…I say leave them to their own devices she will find out the hard way what she is marring is a lying piece of shit who likely tries to bang women stupid enough to fall for his bullshit lies that he is single…I am grateful I was not stupid enough in that moment to fall for another dip shit male full of bullshit lies and deceit…He is being dealt with and he will not under any circumstances ever approach me or my unit ever again…Or he will rue the day he dared to lie to my white Irish face…A word about this man’s fiance…On her social media page she announces that she is married to another man…Yet her most recent posts do not indicate marriage at all…There are many conclusions one could make…Such as the male narcissist I encountered who lies to women and likely to others made this up that he invented his engagement to a mystery woman a woman whose photo he phished online…Or that woman got separated or divorced and is now in reality engaged to this creep…Now I could find out more about this odd situation if I so choose…But I say no I am busy enough as it is…I say leave these ones to their own devices that is their reward for their banality…I daresay it is possible that poor woman who seems by all accounts to be very decent and lovely has no idea the cad she is about to marry…I wish I could save that woman from her own shit storm life…But sadly it is not possible for ones like that would not listen to women like me…Particularly and especially because I am white and Irish and would be viewed as white Irish trash who was get this please — going after her partner her man…That is why I stay the hell out of situations like this to keep my own peace and sanity and to stay safe too for both my own growing son and myself…I am woman hear me roar…………

The End of that jerk concerning me anyway…God help his unfortunate future wife…

As a thank you for listening to this reflection…Enjoy my free self help you tube video sharing ways I have learned how to cope with stress and anger management…I get regular gentle exercise which helps me a lot…So what that I am a fat middle aged single mother?… Who cares?…So what that I do not look fantastic…So what that I do not have a perfect figure…I don’t care I am not trying to impress anyone…It is my hope that my sharing ways I have learned how to cope with stress management and anger management helps others to be not afraid to be just you…You be the best you that you can be…I consider myself a little who and I am being the best little me that I can be…I also added a wee chat about what it is like being a woman in this century…My wee chat got interrupted in that a portion of my wee chat got recorded separately so I created a playlist…Otherwise one would think in my Therapeutic cussing section that is simply the rest of my wee chat that it is an unrelated rant…So you need to listen to these videos in order…The longer wee chat video first then the shorter therapeutic cussing video…I believe in therapeutic cussing because lets face it horrible people often get away with bloody murder and being horrible leaving many victims in their wake…Victims like me who never get to tell these motherfuckers off…So I vent in a safe way on you tube…I do not care if folks view me as rambling or ranting and raving…It is a fucking shit storm out there and victims of abuse are often not given a voice…I am a voice for the voiceless for all victims of abuse who like myself are often systemically and categorically ignored…I also include my song titled Tungsten Pb Scars…I am a bit of a nerd so I had to use the symbol for lead which is Pb instead of the word lead which is very nerdy of me…Yes I am white Irish and nerdy…I also include my song titled Dainty Adder…Enjoy my latest seriously silly Wee Viking Princess Chat that makes fun of those who are not transparent…

…………Namaste…………

…………A Wee Viking Princess Chat – I make fun of those who are not transparent…………
…………A wee chat about what it is like being a woman in this century…………
…………Regular gentle exercise is very good for you and is an excellent mood booster and helpful for stress management and anger management…………
…………Tungsten Pb scars…Inspired by a woman featured on a Netflix show who survived a diabolical attack on her and her children who tragically died by the gun of her ex who shot himself…………
…………Dainty Adder – A Mystical Song addressing the wicked…A very therapeutic and cathartic song for me the singer and writer of this song…………