Self-exaltation – Rules – A Reflection

These little reflections Self-exaltation and Rules were authored by Akiane kramarik between the ages of 7-11 in her book titled My Dream Is Bigger Than I – Memories of Tomorrow – Part Six Page 240 – “You will need your own copy of this book to view the full text of this poem.  I limit quotes for the purpose of discussion and to follow copyright guidelines that allows for limited quotes.”

The featured Image I choose for this reflection is one of my favorite photos of my son…The tree for me symbolizes the tree of life…I will now quote from Akiane’s reflections…In Self-exaltation Akiane writes…”Self exaltation exhausts and reveals”…I purposely left out a part of that short reflection…In Rules Akiane writes…”Ridiculing the stumbling rules of life and pretending to be perfect in our own realized dreams we ridicule love”…I left out the beginning part of that short reflection…Wow! these reflections are amazing…What Akiane is saying in these reflections to me the reader of Akiane’s amazing book of prose and author of this review in the form of this series of reflections is this…In Self-exaltation – when you observe a proud person puffed up with pride boasting incessantly about how wonderful they are and how wonderful their friends are that can be exhausting and ingratiating…I notice for example that social media is notorious for posers folks who like to virtue pose and virtue signal and boast about how wonderful both they themselves are and how awesome those around them on social media who feed their egos are…I notice too that social media often feeds egos so much so that many can become addicted to posing so as to gain likes and shares…A certain amount of praise is a fine thing…Tis a fine thing to praise our children and others for being good and doing good…Where praise crosses the line to boasting and stroking egos is when many narcissists on pedestals demand adulation and support and likes and such much like an addict needs their drug of choice…In Rules Akiane describes those who “pretending to be perfect” “ridicule love”…Those who pretend to be perfect often virtue pose and virtue signal and are a nightmare on earth to deal with…For in this diabolical bad show of false love and false hope authentic holy love is indeed ridiculed and scorned…I would like to share more of my personal story with my readers…My son said to me recently and I quote my twelve year old boy…”Mom your family are so awful to you they never call they do not care about you at all…In fact mom I believe that your family are so horrible that when you die they would dance on your grave.” My son looked at me with sincere love a love a child has for their parent and said…”Don’t worry mom it’s their loss.” I smiled and said to my son “you are right about that except one thing my family are so terrible that they would not bother to take the time to find my grave to stomp on it”…I said I am hated so much that my family hates my guts so much that I feel like these wicked ones who molest me behind my back for years now with their vicious vile gossip would not deem my grave worthy of a good stomping…My son smiled and said “mom you’re right they are too lazy with no motivation like you have to even bother.” We both had a laugh because it is the truth…My God after I did a kind deed for my elderly mother I had flowers delivered I purchased a modest gift card for my elderly mother at the local shop and I wrote my mother a heartfelt modest song…I got nothing in return…Nothing not a thank you nothing no acknowledgement of my good faith efforts to be kind…Now that could incite in me an angry response…I refuse to allow my horrible family to ruin my joy…I decided to be kind to my bat shit crazy nasty mother anyway…Because I know that I am an empath and that is what empath’s do…I know my limits too…My God my mother had such a sense of entitlement too that she became angry that I got her a store gift card instead of get this drum roll please…”depositing that amount into her bank account”…My God it never occurred to my shit head narcissistic bitchy selfish abusive mother to ask if I was doing ok? Or if we needed anything…My God my mother has another family member purchasing gift cards at the same store for her…Well done there…I do not know who that family member is because when the store manager told me I stopped him from telling me more…To his credit he did not mean to let that slip he simply blurted it out that another family member was doing this…I actually asked him who it was then caught myself and said I do not need to know who it is…What matters most is that my elderly mother is being well taken care of…My God I cannot afford to deposit money into my mother’s bank account every month…But my mother would take what she can get from me without as much as a courtesy thank you call or any act of empathy or kindness…My mother has no empathy…My mother never ever bothered to ask me if I was ever ok…I am glad I could be kind to my mother for her eighty sixth birthday…I simply set limits for myself because I know my own limits…My mother will not get another thing from me any time soon because I simply cannot afford it full stop…Not because I hate my mother rather I cannot afford it – Fair enough!…My son is right though my son has witnessed how awful my family has been to me and how nasty they have been to my son by not showing any sincere interest not only in me but my son who is a lovely young man…I do have a wicked sense of humor so naturally I had to remind my loving son that my family would not bother to take the journey or time to give my grave a sound stomping which made my son laugh…My story is very sad in many respects…I do cry often…I have periods where I cry…Crying for me is cathartic and healing for through the tears and pain I am healing…My healing process is an ongoing eternal process…In my part time job I get calls from callers who are doing fantastic whose sharing lifts me up and brightens my day…Then I get calls from callers whose stories though similar to my own shit storm story are much worse and these callers inspire me they really do because I am amazed and in awe that they did so well despite insurmountable odds such as being kicked out of their homes at the age of seventeen something my parents never did to me despite their serious problems…When the going gets tough my part time job sees me through and I am grateful for the challenges and mountains I had to climb which made me the woman I am today…I am not much…I do realize I am not much…Particularly in the eyes of the proud and conceited I am nothing…Fair enough I know that in the eyes of my God who is the God of life I am something and that is good enough for me…I have a short story to share with you my readers about a horrible toll free 501c3 charity hotline that is abusing their callers…I will tell you about this in one of my many short stories as part of my own narrative that is my shit storm life…

….501c charities are self governing and police themselves and are not held to account for much….

A 501c charity that offers a hotline for parents to call who need parenting advice was founded by a well meaning roman catholic priest many years ago…A priest who died in Europe from food poisoning…I often wonder was that poor man who was by all accounts decent poisoned in Europe for its a known fact that he stumbled upon the systemic abuse of Irish children in the Irish Industrial school system that was in place during his lifetime and visits to Ireland…It is also known that this particular priest to his credit opposed the kind of abuse he witnessed going on in Ireland of Irish children…Notice I do not name that 501c3 charity or the priest for to do so could open me up to bullshit accusations by many narcissistic war pig scumbags who would falsely accuse me of crap I do not do…That being said…For years I called this national hotline located here in the USA for parenting advice and early on in the process of reaching it my calls went well…I got decent helpful advice…However, when I called this same hotline from Ireland my phone number was typically blocked due to it being an international call…I discovered in a rather accidental manner that this hotline charity was very underhanded…Here is how I discovered that…I would call from a blocked phone line and upon directly questioning this charity who were caught off guard by the fact that I was calling them from Ireland now…Told me that they have the artificial intelligence to unblock blocked calls so as to not only identify the caller but to grab data on every caller such as name and address…In fact this charity boasted about this and the fact that they maintain a record of every call made in the form of a detailed computer file that automatically populates on the computer screens of their counselors…This was never told to me during all the years I called them in America…It was only when I was calling from Ireland did I catch them off guard and they revealed this…Now when you are on hold with this charity soft speech is used as follows…A recorded voice says the following…”Thank you for calling the _____ hotline”- “All calls may be monitored and or recorded for quality assurance” sorry if not exact quote but that is the gist of the message…The message then goes on to say this “Any information provided may be used to seek further assistance”…That is a very gentle and kind message and most callers myself included are often ok with that…The problem I had with this creepy charity is this…The whole time I called them they were automatically unblocking my blocked phone call something our fine police departments can do and detectives can do but not something I would expect a charitable organization helping parents needing parenting advice to do…This charity was not being transparent and used soft speech to make their callers feel comfortable and safe while calling…Well I decided to provide some feedback to this 501c3 charity…I observed for example on their website that they are self governing and tax exempt…The thing to do I was told from their website if you have a complaint or issue with them is to contact the charity and express this…So I did that…I got the name of the woman who runs this hotline…I left my name and phone number details they already had gotten with their artificial intelligence abilities and waited for her to call me back…Meanwhile I checked her out on social media sites and discovered not to my surprise that she is a virtue poser and virtue signaler and likely narcissistic…I further noticed that she hides what she does from some social media sites…Fair enough now armed with details I needed to profile that one…I waited a week to call her back because according to her voicemail placed in my voicemail box she was very busy with meetings the week before…So I waited a week to call her back…I observed that she did not pick up during my first call back so I simply left a short and sweet polite voice mail thanking her for her voicemail and I requested a call back…Then I called her again and this time she picked up…She stated that she did not recall leaving me a voicemail and I replied that is concerning that she is unable to recall whom she leaves voicemails for…I offered to replay the voicemail to refresh her memory…She then stated she remembered leaving me that voicemail…I knew I was dealing with a covert malignant narcissist from the get go…All the same I proceeded to express my dissatisfaction with their data breaches concerning ways they gather data on their callers in a very under handed and sneaky manner…That this destroys trust a trust that was already destroyed by many in the roman catholic church for centuries now that this practice does not help to build trust or confidence in their hotline from their callers…That beastly woman proceeded to reply that it is their “philosophy and beliefs that guides them to do these underhanded things”…She then proceeded to reply “that is just your opinion and you are entitled to your opinion”…I replied that she is trained to be a scripted stupid idiotic diabolical talking piece dancer…That she is dancing around the issue and being banal in her replies…I stated further that the unborn child was also reduced to an opinion in a fifty to sixty page report from the US Supreme court but that still does not make abortion not murder…That horrible woman proceeded to accuse me of being all over the place…I said I have had years of experience dealing with the likes of you from my time in Washington D.C. and other places including Los Angeles California…I replied you cannot manipulate my emotions or attach yourself to my feelings…Her reply to me was this…”You have issues”…I replied you are damn right I have issues with your charity your hotline and your underhanded abusive dealings with callers like me…I certainly do have issues with that…I further stated that if you are insinuating my mental health is not ok that is verbal abuse and you are out of line and out of your scope of authority or expertise…I further told that bitch that I was raped by a scumbag roman catholic priest to which her response was oh so rich…”that’s interesting” was her reply…I replied you are out of your mind you need professional counseling for your lack of empathy and your narcissism…To which her response was “I’m sorry I did not hear what you said correctly…I replied you forgot that you left me a voice mail then you claim you did not hear me correctly…I asked that bitch the following…I said why is it ma’am that your social media does not showcase the work that you do…What ma’am are you hiding form exactly? Callers like me or are figuring out exactly how dirty and underhanded and truly rotten you are?…To which she replied and I quote “I am sorry you feel that way”…I replied to her as follows…You are scripted and very good at being horrible…I said never tell someone like me “you are sorry you feel that way”…I further stated that “you do not know me you know not how I feel for you refuse to listen to my voice”…She then proceeded to speak in a very shrill tone of voice and talked over me…I then put it back on her…I stated the following to her…”I am sorry you feel that way ma’am that you think you can walk all over callers like me. That you lack empathy and find it interesting when catholic priests rape women like me…Interesting is all you can say.” I further stated that she should get professional help for her narcissism which is a serious problem that I recognize in her…That bitch then demanded my details…To which I replied you have been using artificial intelligence for years to gather my details then you act stupid and ask me for my details…I stated again ma’am I am sorry you feel that way…That you think you can abuse my data and callers like me and then use veiled threatening speech to intimidate me by suggesting that I have issues…I stated you bet I have issues with what you do to callers like me…I am not going anywhere either…To which she replied this conversation is not going well I replied I would agree this conversation has not gone well at all…I further stated by the time I am through with your dirty rotten charity you will rue the day you ever said to me “I am sorry you feel that way”…After ending that call whereby that bitch hung up on me…I proceeded to contact another phone number provided by their charity to politely and in a very apologetic manner request another name of another person other than the one who runs their hotline to express my feedback too…The one who answered this time was another narcissistic war pig bitch…I use strong language because strong language is the only way to get one’s point across at times…The days are gone to be dainty…I am not dainty and I do not suffer fools…That bitch tried to use veiled threats and played the victim role by role reversal and switching her position as follows…That bitch said to me could I have your details and have someone call you back…I replied no that I will hold while she researches a name…To which she replied in very theatrical fashion that she could not put me on hold…That is bullshit since I had called that number from Ireland and was placed on hold…I told that bitch that she is virtue posing and virtue signaling and acting stupid and using good explanations for being banal and underhanded…That her act was not working on me…That bitch then brought the word suicide into the conversation…I shit you not…That bitch did not ask me if I was ok or if I was suicidal which I am not by the way…I am doing well and I am most certainly not suicidal…That bitch brought up the word suicide a very sensitive topic particularly for families who have lost loved ones to suicide…That bitch said to me that I was being horrible that I did not care about preventing suicide from callers who were suicidal whose phone numbers they needed access to to save their lives…I shit you not that is the crap that bitch pulled with me leveraging the word suicide as a weapon to justify underhanded data breaches…I said I am asking your charity to be more transparent with your callers to let your callers know you do this that you unblock blocked phone numbers…Then I said you my dear leverage the word suicide like a weapon to make me feel bad about calling you on your underhanded garbage…So as to incite in me bad feelings to shut me up…I said that will not work on me…Do not for a second suggest that I do not care about the tragedy of suicide a tragedy close to my heart…I put it back on her I socked it to her I sure did…I said are you prepared to accept ways your charity abuses callers like me so as to add to the problem of suicide…Not to mention the false hope given by the roman catholic church that adds to the problem of suicide via vile child abuse and pedophiles not lost on on your charity which is full of scandals making the news these days…I am telling you that bitch shut her mouth…I further stated that if I was mentally unstable that the verbal attacks done by her bringing up suicide in a conversation that had nothing to do with suicide a conversation addressing their own dirty rotten lack of transparency and underhanded dealings with callers like me…That if I were mentally unstable that these veiled threatening verbal attacks could have triggered in me a trauma based response and that I could have been in real danger of becoming suicidal…As such then her charity their hotline is adding to the problem of suicide…I stated thank goodness I am mentally sound but your hotline and charity is clearly not sound…I stated you cannot attach yourself to my feelings my emotions and no ma’am you cannot manipulate my emotions with your words used as leveraged weapons to make me feel badly about myself as a human being for calling you on your crap…My God that bitch replied as if I had taken the wind out of her sail…She said in a shrill voice “we do not have the power”…To which I replied you are correct you do not have power to hurt me but you do leverage words like suicide to destroy your callers something that will be dealt with…That bitch tried to find out which organizations I would be dealing with to investigate this horrible hotline…I replied in very Irish fashion…Unless it is a detective I am speaking to or someone in our very fine police departments for whom I will gladly repeat myself…I do not bite my cabbage twice…I will not waste my valuable time telling you ways you will be dealt with…That bitch proceeded to state go ahead and report to the attorney generals’ office…To which I replied you are not my boss shut your mouth because you do not dictate to me how you are going down…Besides I am well versed on social predators and virtue posers and virtue signalers who use veiled threats all the time…Veiled threats do not work on me I am far too royally pissed off to give a shit what you say to me ma’am…I do not do fear I do not suffer fools and you can kiss my white Irish ass and fuck off because I am one who can look down the barrel of a gun and say make my day motherfucker…When you get to the point where you are royally pissed and care not whether you live or die…It is then that you can set the world on fire and make a fucking difference…Charities like this one are going down it is an ugly showdown and they are going down whether they like it or not…After ending that not so dainty phone call…I proceeded to follow up with the local police department in their precinct to advise them of that conversation…While wrapping up that call I received a very well timed prompt call from a detective from the attorney general’s office in the respective state governing this offending party that vile charity…This detective told me that a follow up will be launched next week…It is my hope that a thorough investigation will be done so as to discover the number of callers affected by this under handed banal charity whose data breaches will be their own undoing…Oh snap! who knew there is such as thing as non-profit enforcement…It is high time these rotten 501c charities got bitch slapped and nailed for their dirty rotten profane policies of abusing their own donors and callers…The tide is turning and many houses of cards are about to fall because the wicked are losing their power on an exponential scale…Thanks be to the God of life and the help of heaven many houses of cards are falling down down down…………Perhaps then tis many narcissistic war pigs who will need professional counseling for these wicked ones may very well become suicidal and unstable as their reward for ever harming boys and girls and callers like me women like me and men like me in the name of God of all things. The toxic shame is being returned to its source to the ones who dared try to fill holy innocent men women and children with toxic shame from false love and false hope and words from lips of wars leveraged as weapons so as to silence via veiled threats their opposition…Come again!!!…Not happening on my watch…………Heaven help us all…………

…………The end of one of many nasty dirty rotten 501c greedy banal charities is not far off…………

As a thank you for reading this reflection and for not stomping on my grave yet…Ha ha…Sorry that is my own wicked sense of humor…For I tell you this upon my dreaded death I will return eternal and burning with eternal flames of fire for Justice! Justice! Justice!…Justicia! That was not done on earth but will fall from Heaven at the appointed time known only to the God of life…A time when all mortal flesh shall be silenced…I express this only as a Mystical work of art in Mystical creative expressive writing nothing more and nothing less…Please join me in a moment of silence for all the fallen soldiers from the art of war on all flesh not limited to soldiers on bloody battlefields but including our unborn boys and girls destroyed in the name of God and destroyed in wombs of darkness…………Then enjoy my version of the song titled Zombie by Dolores O’Riordan from the rock band Cranberries…An amazing woman and singer who tragically passed away during my time In Ireland…And my version of Johnny Cash’s song titled God’s Gonna Cut You Down and my Back to white playlist series about the Mystical man on a white horse. Enjoy my latest song titled Dainty Adder – A Mystical song addressing the wicked. I added my latest song titled Tungsten Pb Scars for all citizen civilian soldiers who have fallen and survived Tungsten Pb in the form of machine gun style verbal abuse – machine gun style verbal attacks as well as actual survivors of bullet shots from partners they trusted and loved and whose children they bore and lost to bullet shots from what I call the shit storm war on all on all flesh…For all the Irish freedom fighters from 1916 before and after and for all eternity….I dedicate this post to you………..Namaste…………

………..Tungsten Pb Scars – does not define us…………
Dainty Adder
…………Zombie by Dolores O’Riordan and the Cranberries – My version addressing psychological warfare from the war of the mind that keeps raging…………
………..God’s Gonna Cut You Down by Johnny Cash – My version addressing the wicked…………
…………My Back to white playlist addressing the wicked through the Mystical man on a white horse…………