The Irony – Too Anxious – A Reflection

These little reflections The Irony and Too Anxious were authored by Akiane kramarik between the ages of 7-11 in her book titled My Dream Is Bigger Than I – Memories of Tomorrow – Part Six Page 229 – “You will need your own copy of this book to view the full text of this poem.  I limit quotes for the purpose of discussion and to follow copyright guidelines that allows for limited quotes.”

The featured image I choose for this reflection is an angry response from another you tuber who saw fit to tell me to stfu which is an acronym for shut the fuck up…I am making an example of this response because I can be obnoxious too…Why not?…There are far too many toxic negative people who are demoniac in nature for their spirits were changed long ago. Awful people love to be miserable and to sabotage and destroy others along the way leaving an inferno of flames of angry victims…That is what wolves in sheep’s clothing are like…Horrible vicious nasty people both male and female…The females can be worse than the males…In dealing with nasty horrible people who do not respond to nice the thing to do is get nasty get in their face and be obnoxious…Nice does not work with thugs and others like them so then get nasty…It is when you can get nastier than hell itself then and only then can you put the fear of God in many nasty lost sheep many of whom should be shot…Particularly the vile pedophile child rapists the ones who rape boys and girls should be shot on the spot for they show no mercy to the children they rape so no mercy should ever be shown to the cruel and merciless who are governed by the cruel and merciless powers found in asmodeus and astaroth to name a few of these cruel and merciless powers…I will now quote from Akiane’s poem…In The Irony Akiane writes “we sweat in buildings we have never built”…I left out the first line of this short reflection as a part of building the mystery and to follow copyright guidelines that allows for limited quotes for purposes of this review in the form of a series of reflections…In Too Anxious Akiane writes “Too anxious we get discouraged”. I left out the middle line this time to encourage my readers to purchase your copies of Akiane’s excellent book of prose…Many of us myself included experience anxiety it is very normal to be anxious…How we handle anxiety is the key…As a new mother I used to have severe anxiety…I share this with my readers because I am not afraid to share my frail humanity with my readers…I am after all only human frail not much at all…One of the coping skills I learned concerning my anxiety attacks which were so severe at times I felt physically ill…I often felt like I was having a heart attack with my heart beating out of my chest like heart palpitations…I also felt like I could not breathe so I would experience huffing where I literally was huffing for my breath…A few tools I learned was when I felt like I could not breathe right I would breath into a paper bag not a plastic bag because you can smother yourself using a plastic bag…Always a paper bag…Breathing into paper bags helped to calm me down and yes I visited the local clinic where I lived very often…The women on that staff and men too were wonderfully kind to me and patient with me…These amazing women would always tell me that I could come any time I needed to for reassurance that I was ok…They did not mind doing EKG’s and checking my vitals for my symptoms of anxiety were so severe that physically I showed concerning symptoms such as shortness of breath and difficulty breathing…So the saintly health care workers who helped me understood this so they were excellent and very thorough in caring for me their little single mammy…Sioux Falls South Dakota will always hold a special place in my heart because I healed from years of hell on earth in Sioux Falls South Dakota….It was in Sioux Falls with the help of excellent professionals very kind and understanding and medical doctors who had lots of empathy these folks were and remain empaths like myself…These professionals really care about their work this was evidenced by the excellent quality of care I received in Sioux Falls, SD…I did have to cut horrible women and men out of my life from the filthy vile roman catholic child and adult false God false Christ and False Mary vicious sex cult. These horrible people were wolves in sheep’s clothing horrible men and women who were expert at virtue posing and virtue signaling but were dark and wicked inside and outside…I am grateful I left the vile system of a down that is the filthy disgusting child molesting raping roman catholic sex cult…That being said and having gotten that off my chest and it feels good to shout from the rooftops my small victory in that I got the hell out of the fucking shit storm that is the roman catholic church and by so doing avoid like the plague vicious horrible men and women who are nothing but wolves in sheep’s clothing false in everything they do…For there is no truth in horrible people who accept and adore the devil himself and who by their vile actions and lack of actions and diabolical silence accept child abuse child rape child murder and the rape of men and women in their horrible ranks…Apparently banality in every low shit storm form is ok with the likes of these lost sheep who love to boast incessantly about how wonderful they are…I would rather drop dead than accept another thing from that horrible roman catholic sex cult…I would rather ride the bus for fifty cents than ever accept a ride from a vile narcissistic war pig found in organized religions not just the fucking roman catholic shit storm…I got the fuck out and in the process my self respect my dignity has been restored and most importantly my sanity as been restored…These days I no longer have severe anxiety attacks like I used to have…Thanks in large part to all of the counseling and therapy I received over the years…I have learned how to cope that is the gift I want to share with the world via my little blog…To show the world that it is ok to cry it is ok to feel it is ok to be an empath to have emotions…It is ok to be human and frail and small…it is ok to be fragile not much at all…It is ok to yell from time to time as long as you are yelling in what I call therapeutic yelling tis ok…Go yell at the nearest tree or pillow or object that can handle your feisty anger…Then deal with your family your loved ones in a gentle and kind and patient manner so that no matter what the ones that you love the most your own beloved family understands you that though you get emotional or angry from time to time that your love for your family is sincere and heartfelt and audacious…That you are audacious enough to do what it takes to love like a lion or lioness in a fearless bold way that does not involve being verbally abusive or nasty to our loved ones…In the war on all flesh there are enough horrible awful people out there who thrive on being nasty to others…Let us all start at home by showing our own families our own loved ones holy love which is patient and kind…The professionals in Sioux Falls SD showed me by their expert patience and kindness holy love…I will always love Sioux Falls, SD with an eternal flame an eternal love…That despite having to deal with awful people there and having to cut many a narcissist out of my life in Sioux Falls, SD…I hold that small city close to my heart with an especial love for the kindness of my many awesome wonderfully kind neighbors who though they thought I was weird being feisty and Irish and all…My neighbors were the best and I will always love my Sioux Falls, SD neighbors and professionals and law enforcement who also showed me great respect and kindness when I experienced well checks that were not necessary or needed…I received great care and kindness and support in Sioux Falls, SD and it is for this reason that I am eternally grateful to Sioux Falls, SD a very special place in my heart for it is there that I healed from my complex post traumatic stress disorder…My mystical prayer for the people of Sioux Falls, SD who are decent folks is that the God of life who is my God will watch over with especial care the people of Sioux Falls, SD and the world not limited to just Sioux Falls…Sioux Falls will always have a very special place in my heart that’s all…A song I want to share with my readers is a song titled Neighbourhood by Space. In this Neighbourhood song by Space this talented group showcases ways many neighborhoods today have gone horribly wrong from what I call the human social experiment gone diabolically horribly wrong…I will tell you an experience I had recently with some of my rather odd or strange neighbors…First and foremost I give all of my neighbors their space and the respect they so richly deserve…I also share with my readers that in my frail humanity flaws and all that I experience tempting thoughts in my humanity…So one day some time ago a neighbor of mine got some McDonald’s delivered…I was mighty tempted to grab that delivery because there it was that dreamy McDonald’s delivery sitting outside my neighbor’s door calling my name…Ha ha….Not really it was not calling my name…I share this because I am only human too…However, I truly care about my neighbors and ways I show my neighbors the respect they so richly deserve is this…I will ring their doorbell and knock on their door and wait for an answer…I did this for a neighbor who had gotten a large grocery delivery…My neighbors are usually always very pleased I do this for them and very pleasant too…I simply tell my neighbors hey you have a delivery and I am just letting you know…One of my neighbors does not answer when I ring or knock and that is ok…They do however respond by picking up their delivery quietly when I am not looking or when I am inside…I get the impression this neighbor has been harmed by others whom they could not trust in the past…So they are being very careful and cautious and as such they choose not to answer their door…That is fine with me…When I see this same neighbor out and about they are always cordial and polite…So I will be sure to tell my neighbor it was meself that rang and knocked to bring to their attention their dreamy McDonald’s delivery had arrived…In dealing with our local neighbors relations are always tense and not easy for a time…Ways to earn our neighbors respect at least is to show our neighbors by our actions that we care…I do not expect to earn others trust because for far too many myself included trust was destroyed long ago and as such trust is not easily earned anymore…I am ok with that too…In my own journey of eternity I have learned how to love myself and because I learned this I can then love my neighbors no matter who or what they are or where they came from as I love myself…I give my neighbors tons of space and simply ring or knock to let them know that I am looking out for them by bringing to their attention they have a delivery…That is the least I can do for my neighbors…Many struggle these days so while the thought will come to my mind to grab a dreamy delivery that is not mine…I see that as theft and it is theft but it is theft of the lowest order for it is taking food from my neighbors table something I refuse to do…I would rather starve than take food from my neighbors who struggle like I do and every body struggles these days…Bill O’Reilly likes to say that he is looking out for us…I believe him and I have asked my readers to give Bill O’Reilly a chance…I sincerely do believe that man is decent…Well I am no Bill O’Reilly I am very small not much at all yet I shout from the rooftops to anyone who wants to listen…I care and yes I too am looking out for my neighbors and my neighbors look out for me too in their own unique ways…These days far too many wolves in sheep’s clothing are out to get us so let us all instead prove the wicked wrong…That regardless of religion race color and or creed that we are all capable and well able to look out for our neighbors no matter what…Let us all show the world how great America is at looking out for one another in our neighborhoods so as to show the rest of the world the audacity to hope…The audacity to hope found in America a very audacious and caring nation that despite serious problems is the best nation in the world a nation that I myself love with a fiery passion…There are many decent people around the world too not just in America so let us all in the collective soul of mankind around the world…In dealing with my neighbors who are very reserved and quiet and respectful too…I never touch a thing of theirs so if my neighbor gets a delivery I simply ring their door bell and knock if the time is reasonable to do so…I would never ring the bell or knock at an ungodly hour…I have neighbors from all over the world…From France from India from Africa and other parts of Europe and Asia because where I live now is a very student driven international hub shall we say…Very transient in nature making getting to know my neighbors over time more difficult…I enjoy not knowing anyone…I enjoy the peace of mind of being free of negative haters and hatred which is all I got for years from false friends….I prefer the pain that being lonely brings to the pain of toxic false friends and false lovers…I prefer to be alone to sit with myself and just be…For by just being I am getting to know my God who is the God of life…A scripture that comes to my mind as I write is this…”Be still and know that I am God”…So these days like so many others due to this pandemic I am being very still and in the process I am getting to know my God and myself…By so doing I am coming into my own…I keep a daily gratitude list which helps me to stay positive…All the world is a stage life is a theater in many respects…In the theater called life I have decided in my own mind that I am a masterpiece…Not because I am a narcissist rather because I know who I am at the core of my being a masterpiece a work of art created by the greatest artist known to mankind our own creator who is the God of life…As such I declare that not only am I a masterpiece you my readers and followers and all of mankind are also a masterpiece in your own right…As a thank you for reading this reflection enjoy my fun drinks section on you tube…Where I call some of my fun healthy non alcoholic drinks a master piece drink in the theater called life…Since all the world is a stage and there are many bad shows these days…I decided if I cannot beat them I might as well join them but I must not I durst not take the dark side that’s all…So what if my show is a bad show…Who cares? In the theater of life on the stage of life tis being authentic and real and just being ourselves that matters the most…Sure I do not have to be the best at a thing…All I have to be is me…So here I am being just that authentic and free audacious and me…I would like to share with my followers and readers and viewers another seriously very silly song…If this silly song makes ya chuckle then subscribe to my you tube channel and share far and wide…This new very silly song is about what not to do if you are going to see your very kind empathic therapist today or anytime soon…I am a huge Dr. Seuss fan so on purpose there are times when I do not wear matching sneakers as part of the comedy of my seriously silly theater of life……………Namaste…………

…………A seriously very silly song – about what not to do if you are going to see your kind empathic therapist today or any time soon…………
…………In the theater of life these drinks are a masterpiece…………
…………Sadly this song is Ironically very accurate there goes many neighborhoods…………