Without Me – A Reflection

This poem titled Without Me was authored by Akiane kramarik at age 11 in her book titled My Dream Is Bigger Than I – Memories of Tomorrow – Part Four Page 209 “You will need your own copy of this book to view the full text of this poem.  I limit quotes for the purpose of discussion and to follow copyright guidelines that allows for limited quotes.”

This poem Without Me consists of five stanzas with four lines each…The featured image I choose is of me wearing bright colored clothing…I will now quote from Akiane’s poem..Leaving out a good portion of this poem I quote one particular stanza…”So many futures that tangle up the pasts, but won’t even comb through the present”…To me the reader of Akiane’s prose and author of this review in the form of these reflections this poem speaks about futures destroyed for the children who were meant to be born and raised so as to comb through the tapestry of life of mankind on earth are not here…The unborn not allowed to be born could not then comb through the tapestry of life on earth…The world has been robbed of bright futures and without many me’s many children the earth which is the vineyard of the seed of mankind has been ravished and destroyed by the hidden deadly silent war on the womb… I will share a little more about myself the author of this blog…Bright colors cheer me up so I hit up some local 4th of July clothing sales and bought me some nice new items that did not break the bank…All of us experience sorrows and joys and yes many experience depression…I would know because for years I suffered from severe depression…There was a time when my depression was so severe that I lost the taste for food…Food no matter how savory or sweet tasted like cardboard to me…This was during a very trying time in my life when I was a new single mother struggling with postpartum depression…My depression lasted for over a year and I needed lots of help to get well again…I availed of every kind of help available including lots of professional help…What saw me through that excruciatingly painful time was this…I made a silent agreement with myself not known to another soul who had no idea of the severity of my depression…I decided that I would eat very boring bologna sandwiches every day during my severe depression…So for a year I ate mostly bologna sandwiches every day because these sandwiches were very simple and very easy to make…So with no taste for food in my mouth no feeling whatsoever as I had died inside from years of hell on earth culminating in a new state of single motherhood my taste for food had died just as my spirit and emotions also died…I made myself shower every other day as back then I lived in a climate that was very cold in the winters and only very hot in summers…Where I live now I shower at least once a day and sometimes twice a day due to the intense humid heat which is very hot indeed…Over time my condition gradually got better and improved but to get better took dedicated hard work on my part…Outside professional help was helpful but it was up to me to do the work to get well again…When my son was seven years old I prayed from my heart for the grace to lose some serious weight as I was very heavy for a number of years…I was a size sixteen I was huge and I was afraid of dying from health related problems linked to obesity…I was obese…I was obese depressed and out of shape…So horribly out of shape that I could not chase after my active boy when he played without getting out of breath…My condition was serious…So inspired by the concept of from the couch to a marathon…I started to exercise by going for regular walks…While living in South Dakota which is where I got well again…I suffered from seasonal affective disorder or SAD which for me was winter time depression or winter blues…What got me out of my SAD condition was exercising in winter…I started by going to the local mall just to get out and go for my walks…Once I was used to regular walks…I then started going to the gym and also gentle jogging outside…Over time I got used to regular exercising…I also faced my fear of the bitter cold and started to go for walks in winter as long as it was zero degrees Fahrenheit or above with no wind child or wind chill that was not dangerous to my lungs…In extreme cold temperatures our lungs can freeze…I tried to join a local pro life running group called life runners but found their team members to be very narcissistic and exceedingly proud and obnoxiously rude to me…I received no respect no consideration of my own busy schedule which at that time was very full…As a single parent I could not meet up with their group at the ridiculously early hours they required and while if they had made a minor adjustment to these meet up times I could have dropped my child off at school or daycare and joined them…However, this group was not reasonable with me and made no accommodations for me…In the presence of these mostly roman catholic narcissistic bunch most of whom were married couples…I was made to feel inferior less than them because I was nothing in their eyes but a lowly loathed single mother…I never did become a part of the snotty snobbish narcissistic modern marriage club…No offense intended to the many wonderful and inspiring happy couples out there…A woman named Sara a woman whom I wrote a song about titled Sara B with B meaning Beelzebub in my song…Sara was busy attacking me behind my back a real snake in the grass…A right bitch scum of the earth piece of shirt narcissistic war pig who waged a verbal war on me without my knowledge or knowing for years…The damage Sara B did to my name my reputation etc. was horrible and irreparable and Sara B went so far as to tell anyone who would listen that both my son and I are “the seed of the devil”…I was told this by another narcissistic roman catholic war pig named Doug L who saw fit to apologize to me for Sara B’s malice…No wonder members of Life Runners hated my guts and glared at me and showed me no respect whatsoever all thanks to that bitch Sara Beelzebub….Sara B endangered both my son and I on more than one occasion with her vile war pig lips of war that bitch tried to destroy both me and my child…That gossiping bitch Sara B was better off getting a fucking loaded gun and pointing it at me with her malice…I would respect that more because unlike Sara Beelzebub I know where I am going when I die and to whom I return when I die…The hatred I got from roman catholic war pigs and their lips of war would turn your stomach…A war was waged on my flesh before the day of my conception and birth by roman catholic scumbag pieces of shit war pigs and their lips of wars many wars…I did not let these narcissistic war pigs stop me…I proceeded to pursue my exercise alone on my own…I did better that way and I lost forty pounds in the process…I attended a Life Runners event where they praised one of their cult like members for losing a lot of weight…I realized then that toxic people like the Life Runners and others like them do more harm than good…Many of these folks are very narcissistic and hate simple people like me…At that event I had lost a lot of weight but my accomplishment was systemically and categorically ignored because in the eyes of the proud I am nothing but a war pig low life single mother…In that moment while Life Runners were busy praising others placed on pedestals for losing weight totally ignoring my own dramatic weight loss…I realized that I was being set apart from people like that…That I was in a mystical spiritual sense being removed from toxic horrible people…I ended up leaving that area and moving back to Ireland my homeland for two years where I traveled Europe with my son…I got the fuck out of the shit storm that is the roman catholic child and adult sex cult…I was plucked out of the fallen nations found in all seven churches for times like these so that I could be my own small beacon of light and beacon of hope for a world that is already burning from a mystical fire of iniquities so vast that earth cannot contain their volume…In the process of being plucked out of vile organized religion I found myself and my own Christian faith still very much intact no thanks to vile organized religions…I want to tell the world how I feel about America and the world…When America falls the whole world falls for America was once a beacon of light a beacon of hope for the world…I voted for President Trump…When Mr. Trump became president that man God love him and God help him inherited a nation that was already ambushed and destroyed from within…The same is true when our former president Mr. Obama took the office of president for two whole terms…Since Roe Vs. Wade in 1972 the year of my birth in Ireland…America has been pillaged and ambushed and destroyed from the war on the womb that started with the incendiary profane laws of Roe Vs. Wade in 1972…All of our presidents who came after that inherited a fallen nation…It does not matter what side Republican or Democrat America was already ambushed and destroyed from within…Our jobs were outsourced to other nations whose workers never paid one cent of tax on US Soil to make America Great again…A corporate war ensued in the form of an oligarchy of profane policies backed by profane laws and America was raped robbed pillaged and destroyed from within…What is hard for me to watch is our well meaning President Elect Mr. Donald Trump whom I voted for standing outside a burning church holding a bible containing the word of God forgetting that America through no fault of President Trump has already profaned the word of God with her vile abortions and corporate wars of oligarchy greed and profane policies…This is not our former President Mr. Obama’s fault either…Then I watch our well meaning President Elect Mr. Trump staunchly declare his defense of Mount Rushmore and statues which I am not opposed to as I agree that violence in all its ugly forms is wrong and I also agree that it is not ok to arbitrarily destroy and deface national monuments…My God that was done in Europe’s Germany during the time of Hitler…Monuments were destroyed and had to be recovered years later by “Monuments Men”….I am ok with removing certain monuments due to their offensive nature using the proper procedures and with the blessings of our President Elect Mr. Donald Trump and our former President Elect Mr. Barack Obama…Otherwise the act of defacing and destroying national monuments is an act of war a declaration of war against our great nation…What makes me sad to see is riots are breaking out left and right and I want to ask our President Trump and former President Obama where are the federal forces now? Why are innocent members of our black communities being gunned down during these riots?..Meanwhile the media seeks to demonize both President Trump and former President Obama and to demonize our decent fine black communities by suggesting and demanding that the world believe the lie that our black communities are doing the rioting…That is not fair that is not right and that is not just to our fine wonderful and very colorful American Nation not just our beloved black communities…Look what is happening in Chicago? My God innocent children are being gunned down in the streets and where pray tell are the federal forces? Are they too busy protecting stupid statues and monuments no offense intended by the way to stop these senseless violent outbursts on the streets of Chicago and other parts of our great nation America…Do try to understand that human life has more value and worth than stupid statues and monuments whose histories are white washed bullshit of the lowest order…Profane whisky laws destroyed the Native Americans whose voices were drowned out by the likes of Mount Rushmore…And President Trump stands up to defend Mount Rushmore while civilians are dying on the streets of Chicago and American babies boys and girls are slaughtered twenty four seven via abortion on demand and morning after pills and contraception…America has been burning for centuries now under vile incendiary laws and profane oligarchy policies…President Trump states that he will stop these riots…I say that is too little too late…We have billions of dead American boys and girls from centuries of systemic abuse and industrial schools perfected these days in the form of contraception morning after pills and abortions…America has been burning for far too long now…I get emails from the Trump campaign demanding money…So I donated five dollars…I keep getting these obnoxious emails asking me angry obnoxious questions such as “Why are you ignoring my father?”…That one came from President Trump’s son…My God these emails are vicious and I feel great pressure to donate more money…Money I do not have…Just to make a point to make sure that my small voice is heard…President Trump why are you ignoring the silent screams of the unborn boys and girls destroyed via abortion on demand? Where are your federal armies and why are they not stopping by force legalized homicidal abortion on demand? Why sir are civilians being gunned down on city streets like Chicago and you stand in front of Mount Rushmore to defend statues while America continues to burn from profane incendiary oligarchy corporate laws and policies?…Bloodletting is big business in America and all you want to do sir is defend stupid statues while human life is continuously systematically and categorically destroyed…Just to make a point I will donate five dollars also to the Democratic party and demand that both parties stop this bullshit of the lowest order and learn to get along to save America from total annihilation and destruction…President Trump I am not ignoring you as the email I got from your son suggests or insinuates…You sir ignore the cries of your own people and you sir refuse to stop with force abortion on demand and all you have left to defend are monuments which I do not disagree with rather I demand sir that you defend the unborn children and American Civilians and make this same demand from the demonic Democratic party whom I nickname Demoncrats…Perhaps President Trump you are in the eyes of the wicked in the eyes of the proud nothing but a pawn in a very bad game of chess…President Trump in my eyes you are a man of God a man of goodwill a man of courage a man of strength a man of humility a man willing to risk his life to stand in front of a burned out Church to make a bold and fearless statement that you sir love the God of life…President Trump it is not your fault neither is it the fault of our former President Obama that America is burning from the inside out…President Trump and former President Obama I pray for you and America and the world every single day of my life…I am small my voice is tiny as in the eyes of the world in the eyes of the proud I too am nothing but a little who…America has been destroyed from the inside out and there is nothing left to ambush so our well meaning beloved President Elect Donald Trump sees fit to defend monuments while civilians fall in their own pools of blood thanks to profane incendiary corporate oligarchy laws and policies…I agree that America’s national monuments must be respected and not destroyed I add that human life has more value and worth than stupid statues and monuments…President Trump I stand with you and I demand sir that you use federal forces to stop these senseless riots and to stop abortion on demand….This is how I feel as a civilian a citizen of this great nation America The Beautiful America The Great…America in my keeping are the tears you shed from centuries of dread from profane laws and policies…Please join me in a a moment of silence for all of the Soldiers lost to America from years of war and include please all the fallen from the war on all flesh who died from profane laws oligarchy powers particularly abortion on demand…For our American Boys and Girls who died from the war on the womb this July 4th post is especially for you…President Trump I never Ignored you I voted for you sir…I hope that one day you will find this post and listen to my latest song sung from my heart titled America inspired by the 1893 July 4th poem America by Katherine Lee Bates…I add to that poem these words America In my Keeping are the tears you shed and the blood of your unborn boys and girls whose blood was shed by mystical words said…………Namaste…………I include for your reference here on my blog a copy of that obnoxious Trump email that promises an entry to win a free trip to Florida in return for more money…Money I do not have and cannot afford to give…Note I replaced my legal name with the word voter…I am a woman who votes thanks in large part to the suffrage women’s movement that fought for a woman’s right to vote…Now let’s fight for the rights of the human child and civil rights that start with the basic right to life the life of the least among us our smallest civilian soldiers our unborn boys and girls…Heaven help us all…Heaven help America and the world…I also add for your listening and viewing pleasure my latest song titled..Audacious!!!…………Namaste…………

…………I am very Audacious I have the Audacity to hope…………

Eric Trump writes via a mass email…

Voter…Why are you ignoring my father? He’s not happy about it…

Voter
Have you stopped checking your email?

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…………America – In my Keeping are your tears and the blood you shed of your own unborn boys and girls..Inspired by the 1893 July 4th poem America by Katherine Lee Bates…………