Inside Out – A Reflection

This poem titled Inside Out was authored by Akiane kramarik at age 11 in her book titled My Dream Is Bigger Than I – Memories of Tomorrow – Part Four Page 195 “You will need your own copy of this book to view the full text of this poem.  I limit quotes for the purpose of discussion and to follow copyright guidelines that allows for limited quotes.”

This poem Inside Out consists of three stanzas with three lines in the first stanza, six lines in the middle stanza and three lines in the last stanza…The featured image I choose for this reflection is a collage of photos of people whom I have met in person over the years…I will go into more generalized detail as to the purpose of this collage after I quote from Akiane’s poem Inside Out…For many today may look holy wholesome and pure and good on the outside yet inside they are rotten hence the concept of rotten from the inside…I will now quote from Akiane’s poem leaving out the first stanza…”with the last tangled nerve the ultimate spheres—the eyes like melted honeycombs reach a dead end and the womb is left homeless my last moment is the memory of you when finally my eyes turn inside out and i catch infinity”…Notice that the i is written in lower case…Akiane does this a lot in her poetry and the i to me the reader of these poems and author of this review in the form of a series of reflections means the least among us the unborn child…The wombs of many women today render their own unborn children homeless because the unborn child is not made welcome in hostile wombs and wombs turned into concentration camp abortion tombs…How the hell did mankind get to this brink of total and final destruction via the systemic and categorical annihilation of many nations???…A study is necessary of the centuries of systemic abuse that went on around the world for centuries…I will discuss the systemic abuse that went on in Ireland where I grew up…A book I urge my readers to read is authored by Bruce Arnold and titled The Irish Gulag How The State Betrayed its Innocent Children ‘…the most important book to be published in Ireland in the past ten years’ Irish Independent…This book contains in it an analysis of the Ryan Report…Published in 2009 Bruce Arnold dedicates this book as follows and I quote…”The Irish Gulag is dedicated to the memory of Tommy O’Reilly and the many thousands of men and women, now dead, who suffered in the Irish industrial school system during the lifetime of the state.” Bruce Arnold…To begin to grasp the depravities of our fallen world a study must be done on Institutional Child Care and Child Abuse in Ireland and around the world…To understand the writings of Mr. Bruce Arnold one must have a healthy understanding of Napoleon Bonaparte of France and his diabolical art of war…The steps that Napoleon Bonaparte of France took to destroy the world laid the foundation for hostile takeovers’ of land and families around the world via profane whisky laws and other such military laws hell bent on destroying indigenous tribes and family life around the world…Not just Ireland…Further to this one must then grasp that Napoleon Bonaparte of France did a diabolical dance with Rome with his wicked concordat of 1801…A subject you can study yourselves…On July 15th in Paris France and remained in effect until 1905…That is slightly more than one hundred years…Unbeknownst to many Napoleon Bonaparte of France was able to cherry pick top clergy not only in France but in Rome and around the world….July 15th 1901 marked the day the devil in the mystical sense entered the Roman Catholic Church which was already false and rotten and turned that cult into a diabolical hellhole…During those one hundred years…Buildings were built of brick and mortar done in secret and in diabolical silence…So that around 1857 the industrial schools act was passed in Ireland and in other parts of the world a profane law legalizing the imprisonment or internment of holy innocent children on an industrial scale…Cited as necessary for poor indigenous tribes this was done in America and Canada to the Native Americans and to the Irish children as well as children all over Europe…No country village island or archipelago escaped the tentacles of the diabolical dance done by Napoleon Bonaparte of France who represented the state and the church which was the Roman Catholic Church in Rome…Innocents flocked to and filled all seven churches around the world and sadly were accessed for abuse by vile horrible false God and false Christ and False Mary Statue idolaters found in all seven churches not just the Roman Catholic Church…Organized religion was destroyed from the Inside out setting many innocent families including my own beloved family to fail in life due to being accessed by vile pedophile priests and such for abuse…satanic music describes ways these wicked demoniac satanists gathered round the tables of religious families from the churches these demon filled beastly men and women infiltrated and destroyed their families from within by raping the women by raping the men and by murder most foul another act of war in the war on all flesh by raping holy innocent boys and girls in the name of God and religion of all things…That is the “other flesh” described as being devoured by the wicked in sacred scriptures…Napoleon Bonaparte of France was the devil’s own and I would say the son of the devil himself…The one sent by the devil to destroy all organized religions from the inside out starting with Rome….That is exactly what the destroyer who is the devil accomplished through Napoleon Bonaparte of France who had demons conjured into him from the day of his birth so as to become an evil genius like so many demon filled creeps are…Napoleon Bonaparte of France was an evil genius…The tapestry of mankind shifted once organized religion was destroyed from the inside out…Latin is a filthy language though many today do not realize this…Latin was used by druids and those involved in conjuring the devil himself for centuries and Latin is a language known to be spoken by the devil himself according to those who either performed exorcisms which are often a very bad theatrical show…The devil has taken the piss out of organized religions all seven churches through his son Napoleon Bonaparte of France and only village idiots full of diabolical pride in clown suits such as clerical garb think that extensive training in exorcism rituals from a church destroyed from within more than one hundred years ago can withstand the devil…Come again not one of us myself included are a match for the devil who is an evil genius…Exorcist Roman Catholic Priests are noted for humbly admitting great defeat in their sincere heartfelt efforts to drive the devil out of his possessed and obsessed victims…Sadly many well meaning highly trained Exorcist Roman Catholic Priests become obsessed and possessed by the devil and his unholy ungodly legions in the traumatic processes of trying to exorcise the devil out of the possessed and obsessed…The reason this phenomenon happens is because sadly many Roman Catholic Priests are already full of diabolical pride and God forbid these men in cloth covered up crimes done by their peers to other men women and children…For if that be true then the devil owns that exorcist priest and if that exorcist priest did indecent acts himself such as masturbation in private or gluttony or sloth or any kind of sin and vice then forget it…That priest is man meat to the prince of darkness who takes the piss out of Exorcist Priests God help them on a regular basis…Now the diabolical joke is on mankind…For many today worship false God’s false Mary statues and many today speak out against diviners though Joseph who wore the coat of many colors was a diviner in Egypt…Diviners are opposed by many involved in occult practices which goes on now in all seven churches around the world…Roman Catholics are the worst…I would know because I was indoctrinated into this vicious child sex cult against my will without the faculties of my reason from the day of my birth through many years of Roman Catholic Hierarchy hell on earth…The Roman Catholic Church tells mankind not to speak to loved ones who passed over as that is considered banal…Which coming from such a banal depraved cult is a joke a laughable oddity in and of itself…Diviners do not talk to the dead all Diviners do is interpret dreams and visions and read energy from those around them…Diviners often receive visions of future events and visions of the lives of those around them which serves as Divine assistance to keep Diviners safe from the wicked…My God in La Salette Mary the mother of the true Jesus Christ warned mankind about how dangerous Napoleon Bonaparte of France was and that asmodeus and his ilk would fill the Roman Catholic Church and all seven churches…My God Mary the mother of the true Jesus Christ…In 1846 warned mankind that no man was left on earth to offer a worthy oblation to The Most High God…Mary mentioned in sacred scriptures was prophesied through the scriptures as appearing to mankind as “a woman clothed in the sun” etc. Is the woman mentioned in the book of revelation also known as the apocalypse…Mary is also mentioned in the new Testament as the woman who comes from the South the holy one from Mount Paran…The spelling of Mount Paran varies but the message is the same found in both the New Testament and in the old Testament such as Habacuc or spelled Habakkuk…Mary warned mankind that My God the church in Rome would be “canonizing thier own saints”…That this church would become profane and would profane the word of the God of life…By encouraging their lost sheep to pray to the dead as follows…Under the guise of sainthood and canonizations that rendered mortals on earth immortal in the eyes of unjust ungodly unholy judges who dared to take the place of the eternal just judge God himself…Many not just roman catholics pray to many deities and saints mortals who went before us…In their mass confusion caused by their profane whitewashed black masses that conjures demons into themselves these lost sheep have no truth in them…These lost sheep deny the existence of the God of life and will murder in their thoughts words and deeds those who oppose them…By praying to saints for intercession these lost sheep pray to the dead and do not let the dead rest in peace as the sacred scriptures demand mankind do…These lost sheep do not let Mary rest and pray profane prayers to profane altars and false Mary statues which is praying to the dead and communicating with the dead for intercession…Lost sheep like that cannot be reasoned with and many are criminally insane full of vile gossip murmuring and complaints…The spirits of lost sheep like that were changed from their cradles to their graves…A famous Roman Catholic Saint is Padre Pio….My God Our Lady of La Salette warned the world against this kind of depravity…Our Lady of La Salette said that these false pious priests would receive satanic powers and as such would be able to bi-locate…Padre Pio appeared holy and good yet his powers were not Christian his powers were ungodly and unholy…Nowhere in sacred scriptures do you read for example of Joseph who was a diviner in the land of Egypt bi-locating…A study of the tapestry of Padre Pio’s life unveils a man who appeared to have good will yet this man abused himself…He committed banal self mutilation acts of violence against his own sacred body…Padre Pio it is said of him whipped himself among other banal acts of false piety under the banner penance…The Jansenist satanic ritual self mutilation and self abuse was sad to say alive and well in the sad sorry life of false pious Padre Pio…My God in many Irish homes including my own home growing up you would find pictures of Padre Pio…To this day many homes are filled with profane idols of many forms not limited to pictures of Padre Pio…I was once quite impressed by the life of Padre Pio I too thought he was holy and good and a saint…My God the terrible reality is this…Not one of us on earth has seen what the God of life has prepared in heaven for those who love him and serve him…My God not one of us on earth can count the drops of water in the oceans or the hairs on our own heads…Yet mankind dares to profane the word of God by keeping the dead alive via vile images on pedestal frames and praying for the dead’s intercession which is talking to the dead…I have no idea who is in heaven or who is in hell because I am not the Just Eternal Judge of mankind…Only the God of life knows such things…I do not judge a soul or condemn a soul for to do so is banal to do so is to profane the word of the God of life who is the just eternal judge…Padre Pio and his ilk were warned against in La Salette…Sadly mankind totally missed the messages of La Salette which included the terrible reality that the Sabbath the Sundays were already profaned and destroyed…Once a thorough study is done on the depraved industrial schools then one can then begin to grasp the crop of narcissists that were produced around the world particularly in organized religions all seven churches…My God many muslim women are exceedingly proud excessive in their glares at other women whom these lost sheep view as beneath them because other women do not act like or dress like the proud muslim women…I have seen this first hand myself…Muslim women must earn respect from women like me and respect from women like me is not easily earned and is also far too easily lost…My God horrible women in all seven churches love to hate other women and are vicious and full of spite…I will describe the tapestry of my featured image for you now…My featured image shows a young woman standing tall wearing a veil the mark of the religious order she recently joined as a Roman Catholic Nun…I met that young woman many times and while I observed her desire to be good seemed to be a fine thing…That young woman was exceedingly proud and often glared with spiteful hatred at both my son and I when he was smaller…In fact her own diabolical mother is filled with pride and abused both me and my son with hate speech crimes done in spite behind my back…This family was so rotten to both me and my son that when I did take my child to church a number of years ago…That large family would fill the pew behind us and literally glare at both myself and my son…I felt the heat of their glares mystically so great was their vile hatred of both me and my son…My God there was no forgiveness in this family only vile judgement hatred and terrorist behaviors hell bent on scaring the bejesus out of both me and my child…The young woman in that blue veil is the daughter of the mother the one who called both myself and my son and I quote her mother now “the seed of the devil”…My God I was told this prior to moving away from that area…The man who told me this saw fit to apologize to me though he did nothing wrong and owed me nothing and certainly not an apology for verbal crimes he never committed…That is how evil works though the lips of horrible women in what I call lips of war….The woman you see in the pictures above the young postulant nun is my own now elderly aunt…My elderly aunt has been a roman catholic nun for years now…Notice that she is wearing her veil next to my cousin on the day of my cousin’s wedding…As the years passed more pride filled my auntie who stopped wearing her veil at the orders of her superiors…Notice that my Auntie is from what I am told an excellent fiddle or violin player…I never heard her play the violin so I have no idea how good she is…The other wedding photo is one of many profane false Christ weddings so rampant today…Another adopted cousin of mine got married in Italy at a very expensive pompous ceremony attended by the rich snobs in my lineage…Though not all in attendance were rich snobs most of them were…I was not invited because I was not rich enough or snobby enough or good enough in the eyes of my proud cousin to even consider inviting little me small me number five of eight children…I can hear my proud cousin crowing these words at me…”But you could not afford to fly to Rome to attend my snobby wedding affair”…Tis true I was poor when she got wed so I could not afford to fly to her snobby shin dig…I will ask my readers now an intuitive question…Which wedding do you think lasted the test of time…The snobby savoir affair in Rome? Or the lovely dressed in white next to my proud auntie the nun???…One of these marriages ended very shortly after the wedding…Can you guess which one ended?…Take your time study my collage…Is the suspense killing you yet???…Ok I will tell you…The wedding in Rome was over before it started because my cousin married a man who was already married to another woman with whom he had begotten children…That marriage was not formally annulled and so a marriage in the roman catholic cult was not permitted…So she married her lover anyway in Rome at some banal profane protestant ceremony no different than many other profane weddings…They had a daughter together which is a gift as children are always a gift no matter how they come…He wanted a divorce and the story goes that my proud crazy narcissistic cousin is refusing to sign divorce papers thus holding legal hostage a man who does not want to be her man…A man who feels trapped in a marriage that should never have took place in the first place…My bat shit crazy proud adopted cousin thinks she owns that man and holds him legal hostage in a profane marriage that was doomed to fail from day one…I told anyone who would listen that marriage was doomed to fail from day one and would not last long…I was right though I must say it does not always feel good to be right…It is sad to be sure…My cousin had an affair with a philandering married man who did the same to my cousin as he did to the other women he philandered with…Putting a ring on the finger of an affair does not change the facts that this was a profane affair and the wedding was a joke a stupid expensive joke…I am glad I was too poor to be considered for such a profane savoir affair…The lovely dressed in white next to my proud auntie the nun is as far as I know still married with children…Now my auntie the nun used to be kind to me growing up…As a young girl in my 20’s I visited my auntie the nun who told me then that she preferred to cater to me because unlike my other poor beloved auntie through marriage to my uncle in Brooklyn, NY who was not stable I was not “an embarrassment to the family”…My God back then I had completed college and was working at a good job…In my youth I had no understanding of the depraved mind of my exceedingly proud auntie…I do recall feeling disgusted over how proud this one the nun was…I visited her convent as a guest in my 20’s from America and was given the mother superiors room which to me felt like a great privilege a great honor…The mother superior was away on business as she was one of the heads of the Irish school systems for years…My proud auntie was a school teacher for years…The mother superior’s room was very basic and felt more like a prison cell than a bedroom…During my stay I traveled Ireland with my auntie and visited the relatives and extended family…I also visited the village of Knock which was important to me at the time…My proud auntie told me that on the day of my birth both herself and my grand aunt violet a sister of my grandma on my father’s side of the family were in Knock…That they received a message from heaven that my name meant Justice and that I was the long awaited one…That this one meaning me was special for mystical reasons deeply rooted and connected to the silent apparition years before in Knock Ireland…My auntie told me that both herself and my grand auntie received interior knowledge about my name before my mother announced my name…I am named after my grandma on Mom’s side of the family…Years passed and life happened and on my own personal journey of eternity…I made many mistakes and went on a bad road for a time…For a number of years I was a party girl I went to bars by myself and drank and had sex with different men…One day I decided to go on the contraception pill but when I entered PP to get my pill…The woman at the counter glared at me with demonic hatred and was not willing to help me so she angrily yelled at me to sit in the waiting room…While sitting in the waiting room heaven spoke to me in my interior…I was reminded of interior knowledge I had received about my life as a teenager…I was reminded that what was said to me then was unfolding…I was indeed weak with men…However, I was not to under any circumstances take contraception for my weakness with men would increase exponentially and I would be dead within the next five years from a sexually transmitted disease…As I was receiving this interior knowledge about the tapestry of my own life gone wrong for a time…I was reading a journal filled with entries of women saying goodbye to their own unborn children whom they were aborting that day…It hit me hard how truly wicked and evil places like PP are…I proceeded to write my own heartfelt pro life message encouraging mothers to choose life not death for their own children…I got up stood up tall and walked out of the wicked machination of death PP never to return…I did however go back to that wicked perfidious building as a pro life activist…Tis true I was weak with men and this weakness resulted in my being targeted for rape by a vile roman catholic priest a predatory man who saw my weakness and took advantage of the situation…That horrible man was ten years older than me and was supposed to be my spiritual director…What that jerk did was awful…He got me pregnant through rape then boasted that he did this to his friends…He also told me that he hates me my people and all Christians…That he was a victim himself of satanic ritual abuse as a boy and he bears a mark on his body a brand from this abuse…He told me that satanic ritual abuse of boys and girls is done all the time by sick men and women in the Roman Catholic child sex cult…That he was pursued all the time even as a grown man for sex by homosexual perverted priests…Whose perversions included inviting him to their dens of iniquity to watch gay pornography…He told me that it was all he could do to keep himself safe from being raped by other priests in this cult…He also told me that no priest or nun is truly celibate that they are forced to lie to cheat to kill and to destroy…He was terrified but proceeded to tell me that no nun escapes sexual abuse unless she is willing to fight to the death which includes killing her predators…The same is true of the priests…I was told that black mailing each other in that vicious roman catholic sex cult is common place and that priests and nuns are too terrified to leave…He told me that the reason few escape the roman catholic cult particularly once ensnared and enslaved in religious life…Is due to trauma based control involving the use of terror and terrorist activities which includes boasting about the mass graves from crimes against humanity done in the name of God by the evil hierarchy of the roman catholic child and adult sex cult…Most of the nuns and priests are accessed for rape and when the nuns get pregnant the babies are killed murdered as sacrifices in the form of the first born to satan…If the child is male the ritual killing is more brutal due to the devil’s vile hatred of the true Jesus Christ whom the devil tried to murder through King Herod and his henchmen and women…Nuns and priests are so controlled by trauma based control that their spirits are eternally changed and their minds altered so as to forget the traumas they experience and witness…The higher up a priest goes in the hierarchy the more that is expected…Such as cover up of pedophile crimes and many other crimes…The same is true of nuns…The young nun in my featured image my collage is already conditioned to ask people for money via donations and monetary gifts to give her a free ride into narcissistic retreats and such…That young woman whom I met many times over the years is full of luciferian diabolical pride…If God forbid she was ever accessed for rape she is a prime target for satanic ritual abuse done in the name of God…In her diabolical narcissistic pride there is no way in hell she could ever tell her diabolical narcissistic mother who is also a prime target already conditioned to deny such evil exists in her cult…Narcissism diabolical narcissism is why many parents refused to believe their own sons and daughters when these parents were told their own children were being molested and abused by members of the very same church they worshiped in…The mother of the young nun in my collage is herself an abortion survivor…Her own mother tried to abort her…My God there are no ends to the depths of the depravities of mankind…The mother of this nun has a spirit of unforgiveness for what her mother did to her is unforgiveable…What the mother of that false Christ and false Mary idolatrous nun forgets is that she herself was a victim of satanic ritual abuse and is very blessed and lucky she survived a diabolical satanic ritual abortion attempt…The mother of this nun drinks from the poison cup of iniquities and serves the same master who tried to have her aborted though the demon astaroth that worked through her diabolical mother via vile demonic hatred and blood lust…The mother of that nun a target and victim of satanic ritual abuse has set her own daughter up for the same…The cycle of abuse was not broken in her home as evidenced by her support of banality in her own lost sheep proud daughter who thinks the same way proud muslim women think…That by being covered in modest clothing that she and other nuns and women like her are on a pedestal above lowly single mothers like me…I will give you the address of that young nun…Before I do this I ask my readers to remember she is a young girl in the prime of her youth a pawn in a diabolical dance…I ask that should you decide to write to her to be kind in your use of words and to refrain from foul language…I ask that this young woman be reminded that no amount of modest dress and false Christ and false Mary idolatry will save her and others like her on the day of contention…Her address and religious name was made public on a public site…So sharing this here is not a crime or wrong and I do not condone or encourage abusive language or angry letters…I do not encourage sending her money because money in the form of donations feeds her distorted sense of entitlement and sloth among other vices not fitting for young industrious women…The advertisement for donations claims they are low on donations due to the corona virus…The virus of narcissists on pedestals with an elevated sense of entitlement to people’s money has to go…Instead of going on some expensive retreat that costs more than four hundred dollars…I suggest this young woman get herself a job like everybody else has to do…I dare say she is not doing much evangelizing as they claim she is doing coming from a sex cult that destroys souls and peoples lives wholesale…If you wish to write to this spoiled brat spiritual child to set her straight on some key issues many have with her cult…Feel free to do so all I ask is that you keep the language professional kind and not profane…Send her false rubber checks to send her a message that if she wants money then get a job like everybody else has to do…Her name is Sister Missions and you can write to sister missions at 1326 Quincy St. NE Washington, DC 20017…Tell her that her cult owes their crime victims tons of money and that unlike her with her hand out for money…One of these victims who is disabled thanks to vile abuse from her cult actually works part time from home to care for her child that was begotten via rape from one of the priests in her cult…And is not asking for money from others because unlike her this woman has some character and strength that comes from being a single mother…Something the proud like this nun sister missions is not capable of understanding…I will not name the order she is with because her order like so many profane the word of God the true Mystical Mary and the true Jesus Christ…Pray for that young nun she is one of many lost sheep lost to pride and false halos false Christianity…My own elderly auntie changed towards me after I birthed my son…My elderly aunt the Irish nun hates my guts now that I am a lowly single mother…I witnessed this first hand during my most recent two years in Ireland…As a thank you for listening to this reflection enjoy my latest song titled crave addressing the lost western man…I also included my new song titled scar addressing the works of the devil…………Namaste…………

…Crave – addressing lost western men – baa baa bye lost sheep…
…Scar – addressing the works of the devil – the dark lord of our lost world…