In The Middle – A Reflection

This poem titled In The Middle was authored by Akiane kramarik at age 10 in her book titled My Dream Is Bigger Than I – Memories of Tomorrow – Part Four Page 164 “You will need your own copy of this book to view the full text of this poem.  I limit quotes for the purpose of discussion and to follow copyright guidelines that allows for limited quotes.”

This poem In The Middle consists of four stanzas with two lines in the first stanza three lines in the second and third stanza and two lines in the last stanza…The photograph that I choose for this reflection is a selfie I took during the recording of a song I recorded during a big storm where I live…Notice the large flash of lightening in the background which I call natural affects…I love how that worked so well not only for this photograph but for my song that I call Vengeance…Where I sing about leaving vengeance to the God of life rather than taking vengeance upon ourselves….The way evil works is this…The evil behind wrongdoing wants to corrupt those of us who were harmed by evil to become corrupted as follows…We are often tempted through an angry response to do evil for evil which we must not do as authentic Christians…That being said we have the right the civil right the civic duty to firmly and resolutely stand our ground when faced with grave danger…The right to self defense remains the same…We all have the God given right through force if needed to defend our house and homes our fortress so to speak no matter how small our little homesteads may be…As a thank you for reading this reflection I include my song titled Vengeance for your viewing pleasure at the end of this reflection…I always say I am no diva not the best singer on planet earth so if my stuff does not interest you simply x out of it and move on…Fair enough and simple too…As a work of art I have a right to my expressions just as others have their rights to expression…There are much crazier songs out there than my songs…I will now quote from Akiane’s amazing poem In The Middle…”Each haystack is a shield” skipping the second stanza and quoting the third stanza…”Battles between day and night flood the strength bursting with a perfect view”…I will leave out the last stanza…This like all of Akiane’s poetry is brilliant…Now you can appreciate perhaps why I choose that epic photo of me singing my vengeance song because it was night when I recorded that song and the flash of lightening during that big storm is a perfect contradiction between day and night so to speak…It makes my work more artistic…I will tell you another short story if you don’t mind hold onto your seats and relax time for another short story…

Respect must be earned – Respect is no longer an automatic right or demand!!!!!!!!!!!!

I just spoke to a lovely young lady who is studying psychology first as her four year degree and then pursuing her law degree…Her goals are to affect some change in ways people with mental illness are treated…I am so glad to hear she is doing this because we need more and more young people to take the reigns and step up to the plate to fight for the civil rights not only of people with special needs including mental illness but also for the unborn child who has no civil rights whatsoever now…This delightful lovely young lady told me that her instructors in college informed all of the students that one in three or one in four depending on the group is a sociopath with psychopathic tendencies confirming what I write about…Of course I studied this stuff for two years in Ireland and Europe…She also told me that psychology students are being taught about the pathology of unhealthy horrible narcissism so rampant in our societies around the world…I was so delighted to hear that this young woman is pursuing this course of study because if I had to do it all over again I would study every aspect of psychology including psychological warfare and obtain my law degree and get licensed in every state of the Union if possible as well as my international Jurisprudence License if such a thing exists under international law…I am not a lawyer so I do not know how all of that works…I told that delightful young lady that one of my favorite movies is the movie Elle that features a tall graceful blond gal whom many around her believes is a bimbo but who is in fact extremely bright and a lawyer…I told this tall blonde that she reminds me of that character in the movie Elle and that I could see her loveliness beguiling many a courtroom and as a result she will win many cases for the downtrodden…She listened intently and I gave her the name of Christine Louise De Canonville to look up because Christine has her education done and dusted and is a licensed professional who spoke at one of the first conferences of it’s kind in the world in Dublin Ireland on pathological narcissism…I was able to attend that eye opening jaw dropping conference and I hope to see more and more conferences like these around the world…I am certain that bright lovely young lady will make a big difference…God love her she is young lovely and very bright so she has the energy to get this done…It is too late to change these profane laws that are in place but all the same it is never too late to do good and affect change no matter how small…That is why I encourage young students to never give up and to be the best that they can be…Successful people are successful because they are able to focus on the good in the world and on the positive…That no matter how horrible or awful things happen around them or to them…Successful people get up and go and have successful days no matter what…A successful day for me looks like this…I get up I care for my recovering puppy I give him his antibiotic I clean house…I take my shower…I cook for my son…I spend time with my son to make sure he is in a good place including well fed and showering on a regular basis…This is cute I got him to go out recently for a hair cut…He was way over due for a nice hair cut and I am not good at doing hair…I know my son very well and if I tell him in advance that I am taking him for a hair cut his automatic response is always no…So I got him to come and he was wonderful about it…He loves his new hair cut which I allowed him to decide how he wanted his hair cut all I asked is that for cleanliness that he get a hair cut…My son got a hair cut that he loves and is very happy with his new hair cut…With our children especially as they are growing up being a parent means we must insist on certain standards of care even if our pre-teen’s seem to not want such care we must insist…That is why I keep his bedroom clean and his bed linens clean because it remains my sacred duty to care for my growing son even when it is not always easy to care for him as he is slowly becoming more independent…My son is a pre-teen he makes good choices and I am grateful I have a good son…Grateful and blessed…I also got my hair cut very short due to the heat where I live and for cleanliness…It is easier to manage though not as pretty I suppose as long hair…I am happy with my shorter hair which for me is much more practical and comfortable and much easier to manage for cleanliness…My child does not always agree with me his mother but he shows me great respect and obeys me his mother which I am grateful to be able to tell you…I am blessed with a wonderful young man my son…Though we disagree on everything these days including God…My son has zero interest in my blog and my you tube…He encourages me his mother to pursue my work but he has zero interest in it…I also encourage my son to do well with his love which is gaming and music…We encourage each other we do not yell at each other and we do not take our anger out on each other…So today my son showed me great respect when with his permission I prayed for him and over him…My son has decided that at this point in his young life’s journey that he does not believe in the God thing that he is atheist…I pray for my child every day of my life that he will come to terms with the truth that there is a God of life on his own time when he is ready…Meanwhile my task is to show by my example holy love to my child…By my example of being calm not yelling and listening to what matters to my son that my son will come to know that there is a God of life…So even though my son does not believe a God even exists I asked my son to show me the respect I deserve as his mother whose sacred duty it is to raise him so help me God with some kind of faith in the God of life to allow me to pray over him…My awesome son agreed to this…So with his head slightly bowed and hands clasped standing opposite me his mother doing the same…My tall son who is now taller than me agreed to pray…I asked my son to repeat this prayer after me and this is how we prayed…I said… “Oh God of life my son does not believe in you at this time…My son is on his own special life’s journey…I accept and love my son just as he is and where he is at on his own spiritual life’s journey…My son agrees to allow me his mother to pray over him and with him that while he does not believe a God exists…That I his mother gets to ask the God of life not to allow evil or any harm to befall my boy…That my boy is holy and innocent and that in light of all the false Christ idolatry witnessed by my family to allow my child room to discover you Oh God of life at the appointed time known to God alone…That meanwhile all of heaven and the armies of heaven under the guidance of Michael the Archangel not allow the demonic realm of fallen angels to influence or harm my holy innocent boy in any way shape or form…Also that just as Michael the archangel did contend with the devil over the dead body of Moses that just as Michael the archangel durst not contend with the devil with railing speech…I too repeat that God Commandeth that I raise my boy in holy love by my own example of holy love to lead my boy to the God of life the God of the true Jesus Christ and that while I cannot always be present for my boy that under no circumstances is the devil and his fallen angels who make up the demonic realm to touch a hair on the head of my holy innocent boy who is for now an atheist…I prayed this too…I said oh God of life my son is respectful of me his mother though we do not agree about you God of life my son shows me great respect…I said my boy helps around the house is very kind to both me his mother and our beloved puppy…That my son knows right from wrong and that he makes good choices…That it is not my son’s fault that he is disillusioned by all the false prophets in the world…My son prayed with me his mother and by so doing showed me great respect a respect I also model for my son by asking his consent first…I then rewarded my respectful boy with McDonald’s food and slushy drinks…I do reward my child on a regular bases for good behavior…I like to catch him doing good then reward him…One day my son was especially kind and respectful and when he did as I asked without complaint I handed him a piece of chocolate to thank him for his sweet kind behavior…I am teaching my son that kind manners and good behavior is rewarded in my home…I have asked my son who cusses on occasion not to cuss in front of me his mother…He has agreed to this out of respect…My son has noticed that I no longer yell at either him or our puppy…I am guilty of yelling in the past…My son has noticed too that I am much calmer these days and also much more respectful of my son and gentle in my dealings with my young man…My son has noticed this remarkable change in me so much so that my son does the same for me…I am modeling for my son by my own behavior how to show one another respect kindness and holy love…Though my son is an atheist these days I prefer my son to be an honest atheist than a false Christ or false Mary idolater lost to the wiles of the devil himself disguised as a guide under the banner of organized religions around the world…My son is kind my son is patient my son is a good listener and my son is very good with our pet our puppy and with animals and little children…My son has always been kind and gentle…I have seen terrible behavior in so called Christian children particularly roman catholic children whose behavior I witnessed and was a nightmare to behold…These children are lost to horrible parenting from narcissistic proud parents too full of themselves to realize that they are lost sheep and their children through no fault of their own are lost sheep…Lost to selfish rude awful behavior with foul speech and gossip and pride the fruits of their own diabolical parents is evident in their children…When I observe children behaving badly I extricate both my son and myself from that encounter and I have nothing further whatsoever to do with that family and their demonic wicked children…A young boy tried to drown my son which was terrifying…I cut ties with that wretched lost roman catholic family…My son’s ability to defend himself which is training I got for my boy from a young age is what saved my son’s life…Otherwise my son would not be alive today thanks to horrible parents who raise beastly demonic wicked children who try to murder other children which is exactly what took place the day that horrible boy tried to drown my son…Both boys were nine years old and the boy who tried to murder my son boasted to his own wicked lost sheep mother that he was sorry that he could not finish the job…I shit you not that is exactly what that boy said to his awful beastly miserable woman his own mother…He said and I quote “better him than me mom and I am sorry I could not finish the job”….That mother was on psychiatric medication because she was going through a nasty divorce and that boy was into slenderman a demonic wicked online portal that teaches children to kill…There are stories that abound of demonic children who kill other children after spending time online with the monster slenderman…My son told me that boy was into witchcraft and other weird stuff which explains the wickedness behind that drowning attempt…And the parents say they are get this drum roll please roman catholic of all things…That boy attended the same roman catholic school as my son at the time this incident occurred…I pulled my son from that lost sheep demonic wicked roman catholic school…Their principal was always rolling her eyes which is concerning she had no conscience or empathy…Signs of demonic possession includes but not limited to rolling eyes and lack of empathy among other signs…It is my opinion nothing more and nothing less and I make no claims as to statement of facts…That being stated that principal showed signs of sociopathic psychopathy as well as demonic possession…Many sociopaths and psychopaths are possessed and controlled by the demons they embraced via contraception use birth control devices used abortions done and other vices and sins too long to list here…Sorry this story is not so short…I hope that by sharing stories with my readers that in some small way I can help others to stay safe and to keep their own children safe from predators found not only in adults but also sad to say in demonic wicked children…

The End

I have another short story to share which I am giving a new title to for ease of reference and to avoid the problem of rambling which is easy to do for writers like myself…

Sociopaths and Psychopaths cannot be reasoned with there is much evidence to support this….

The lack of ability to reason with a local business where I live that has violated CDC pandemic guidelines three times in their dealings with me and my family…Is very concerning and downright appalling…This local company was informed by myself not to make unnecessary stops to my home because I was dealing with the matter at hand…That nasty company refused to listen to my outreach and also contacted friends of mine falsely claiming that they had no idea what I was doing pertaining to money that I owe this nasty lending company…I contacted my friends advised them of my need to file a chapter 7 bankruptcy due to genuine financial hardship that has affected so many these days myself included…My friends were kind and understood…I informed this nasty lender that any future contact to my friends who are well aware of the steps I need to take for my family would constitute harassing behavior and that a small class action lawsuit will ensue citing unnecessary harassing phone calls attacking my character through my friends….That did it they apologized and ceased and desisted calling my friends…I asked my friends to please tell me if they receive another phone call…Further to this their employees insist on unnecessary phone calls to myself three times a day and on unnecessary stops to my home…The most recent stop occurred today…I never open my door to these creeps…Through my door I told that woman that she is in breach and in direct violation of CDC guidelines requiring families to shelter in place and to avoid unnecessary stops…That she must remove the card she placed by my door due to the risk of spreading Covid-19 since there is no telling who she was exposed to and what that card itself was exposed to…That contact less communication must be the order of business…She refused to listen to my instructions and left the card anyway…I called their office and requested the number to their corporate main office…I stated that since their local office cannot be reasonable or reasoned with…I am obliged to call corporate…Thank goodness the lady I spoke to was kind and could be reasoned with…The most important thing to note here is that I was calm and I used a polite and calm tone of voice…That was very helpful and I was sincerely apologetic too that bankruptcy is my only option here…I asked this kind smart lady who has been in the lending business for 31 years why on earth her staff sees fit to waste gas time and money and company resources to beat a dead horse…That dead horse being myself…I explained that I am not going anywhere and that I have nothing to hide from…That this harassing behavior must be stopped because it is a waste of their company’s time money and resources…I received the kindest most positive response you could ever ask for from a lending company…That good woman apologized that this was going on…She could tell that I cared enough to highlight for her as a smart business woman why wasting company time gas and money and resources was not helping and only adding to the problem at hand which is I am broke and that I do qualify to file a chapter 7 bankruptcy…That woman gave me her cell phone number and told me that she was calling her local office on the spot to instruct her staff to cease and desist all phone calls and visits to my home…I followed up with her and per my request she instructed her employee to return to my homestead to pick up that damned note that was a direct violation of CDC guidelines constituting unnecessary contact and potentially endangering a small family a mother and her asthmatic son…This good woman told me that she would most certainly do that and if her employee failed to do this that she would fire that employee…I asked this lady to instruct her employee to ring my doorbell and that I would acknowledge that she picked up that note…My instructions were followed to the letter and I contacted this reasonable woman to tell her this was done…This had to be done this had to happen the way it did to teach scumbag lending companies and nasty businesses an eternal lesson they will never forget…Greed has destroyed our world and there is no forgiveness of debt from debtors as asked for in sacred scriptures…Consequently the only way to a fresh start for someone like me is to file a chapter 7 bankruptcy…I hope that what I tell you here helps you my readers to understand how to advocate for yourself for your basic civil rights…We are all living in unusual times to be sure…I promised that kind smart intelligent business woman who has been in the lending business for 31 years…That I will dedicate the next scripture chapter that I sing to her and her family and all her loved ones including all of her employees in her business that all will be blessed and kept safe from harm from this nasty Covid-19 virus…She appreciated that and I thanked her from my heart for her kindness…Kindness is increasing due to this pandemic as well kindness should increase…God knows all of us have enough to contend with these days…I hope this short story helps others…

The End

As a thank you for reading this reflection enjoy my song titled vengeance from which the photograph I choose for this particular reflection was generated.