Masquerade – A Reflection

This poem titled Masquerade was authored by Akiane kramarik at age 10 in her book titled My Dream Is Bigger Than I – Memories of Tomorrow – Part Four Page 137 “You will need your own copy of this book to view the full text of this poem.  I limit quotes for the purpose of discussion and to follow copyright guidelines that allows for limited quotes.”

This poem titled Masquerade consists of three stanzas with six lines each…The photograph I choose for this reflection reflects my own crazy sense of humor…So many horrible people who are miserable wretches take sick pleasure in placing curses on those they love to hate…There is a saying that goes like this…”Misery loves company.” Sorry I don’t know who coined that term but I quote it as this saying has been said for a long time now…There is also an old Irish saying that goes like this..”Tis a long road that doesn’t have a turn”…Sorry don’t know who coined that one either…Johnny Cash said that “Sooner or later God’ll cut you down”…I am a huge fan of Johnny Cash…Notice my crazy T-shirt that I purchased at spencer’s store at the local mall…My crazy T-Shirt says “Not now satan – fuck off” I love it because it gives me a chance to take the piss out of the ould devil and cuss him for a change…Notice too I do a crazy middle finger cuss sign at the ould devil…The reason I choose this photo for this reflection is because this poem talks about the masquerading done by false Christ and false Mary and false Idol idolaters…This poem describes how “confessions settle down the feet of excuses.” Quoted from the second stanza…This time I am not quoting from the first stanza…I limit quotes for purposes of this review in the form of reflections and to encourage my readers to purchase your own copy of this awesome book of poems…The last stanza is very profound at the age of ten Akiane wrote and I quote…”echo incarnations of fake impressions start posing for the heart and eruptions of self-volcano like an illusion masquerade as the true light”….Many today live in a fantasy world a dream world of their own making…I know this all too well because I am a recovering compulsive gambler…I used to live in a dream world of what if’s and that was why I gambled to excess…After thirty days of treatment for my serious gambling addiction and years of twelve step recovery meetings…I learned how to cope and how to live life on life’s terms…A compulsive gambler I will always be and it is humbling to accept that fact…Placing me in front of a slot machine with bells and whistles which I call the one armed bandit not my original quote but from the recovery rooms I heard that term used a lot…That would be like giving a drug addict their favorite drugs…From our youth on up modern society sets many up to fail and many are conditioned to develop addictive personalities…My first addiction as a child was to sugar…I had a terrible sweet tooth I still have a terrible sweet tooth…I loved junk food too such as tayto crisps and chocolate and sweets…I was also addicted to temper tantrums because from a very young age the only way I got any kind of attention was via negative behavior so I threw a lot of temper tantrums…I was a child and my temper tantrums were because I was abused and neglected spiritually and emotionally…I was very well fed but I was spiritually abused and neglected as well as emotionally abused and neglected…This heinous abuse combined with sexual abuse from my own brothers set me up to fail in life and set me up to seek escape mechanisms to escape from my own psychological pain…I was forced to go to confession to confess to some adult male that I did not know that I was a bad child a bad girl at the tender age of seven because according to my twisted mother it was my fault that I let my older brothers molest me…That is twisted and one priest whose name I will never forget told me the abuse was not my fault…But he did nothing to stop the abuse and never reported the abuse…This was in the late 1970’s in 1979 I was seven years old going to forced confessions…Roman Catholicism bullshit was shoved down my throat whether I liked it or not…I had no choice I was spiritually abused by an organized religion that abused my family and my tribe systemically and categorically for centuries…My poor mother had no idea what the hell she was doing…Neither did she have an inkling or clue as to the devastating effects this kind of abuse was having on me…I limit this reflection to my own personal experiences of hell on earth as a child forced into the vile sex cult practices of the sick demented perverted twisted demonic wicked pure evil roman catholic church…I will go to my grave shouting from the rooftops that I hate with a passion the filthy roman catholic church and it’s narcissistic dumb ass followers who are too full of themselves to understand the concept of a God of life never mind teaching others about faith and morals…These twisted creeps idolize stupid statues and stone altars raised on steps and stupid preachers who masquerade as holy who pose as being men of God when in reality they are demonic wicked wolves in sheep’s clothing controlled by wicked trauma based control and many of these men were sodomized as boys or as young men in seminary or after seminary….One cannot make this shit up…All you have to do is see all the scandals making the news of child rape done in the name of God and the toxic shame poured by these beastly ugly men into the children they abuse…The womanizing priests are the worst as well these scumbags spread disease lies and deceit and masquerade as holy but are too stupid to know they are called to marriage and instead insist they are called to a celibate life they themselves cannot live up too…As a result these false Christ preachers are perverted and often addicted to pornography and masturbation…God knows the large number of creepy pedophile priests and other creeps like them likely played with themselves before saying their stupid masses and handing out the species they call holy communion with filthy hands that likely have dried semen on them…I shit you not…That church is pure evil filthy and full every kind of sin and vice and vile deeds one can think of…Many who fill not only the filthy roman catholic church but all seven churches around the world are obsessed and or possessed by demons namely wormwood, asmodeus and apollyon and baphomet from the four corners of the earth conjured by these vile priests who conjure demons into themselves on a regular basis and are too stupid to figure it out…Semen stained hands often hand out the species they call holy communion when in reality their stupid followers commune with the devil himself who has taken a notion to sit on the chair of peter himself….The scriptures prophesy the coming of the Anti Christ summoned for centuries now by false Christ false Mary idolaters who are too stupid to realize they dance and commune with the devil himself and invite the devil to sit on the chair of Peter…I got the hell out of the filthy vile roman catholic sex cult which is nothing but a child sex cult from the ninth circle of hell…Death threats have zero affect on me because I know to whom I return when I die…I also know that after I die I will return with a vengeance for my soul was already purchased at a price and my soul is eternal and never dies…Therefore, when I die from this life I shall return with a vengeance…I will return like Valkyrie and the armies of heaven whom many today like to forget exists after all the name of the God of life has been blotted out of the memories of fallen man all the way through the fourth generation…The God of life allowed this and now that the fourth generation has passed…Heaven will act at the appointed time and the serpent who is the devil will be crushed at the heal of a woman whose heal is mentioned in sacred scriptures…For the enmity between this woman and the devil is now great very great…This woman’s name is Mary she is not the false Mary so many are deceived into idolizing for Mary took no part with the devil and his vile works…The wicked child rapist pedophiles and womanizers and sodomites know not the true or real Mary…Few today really know the true Mary the true Mother of the son of the Most High God of life…Many are not prepared for her heal…Her heal will strike at the appointed time and she will crush once and for all the devil and his works….I know a lot about demonology and I can name the demon that affects many today…IF someone is a compulsive lier they are obsessed and likely possessed by the demon wormwood….If someone is known for betraying others and back biting others behind their backs…They are obsessed and likely possessed by the demon Judas Iscariot and his wormwood legions…If someone is a child predator a vile pedophile they are already lost to the devil himself and possessed by baphomet and asmodeus and wormwood and apollyon….For to rape a holy innocent child is not only indecent it is an act of war…Particularly when boys are raped these rapes destroy boys from the inside out…Those who destroy the souls of holy innocent boys and girls will burn in hell for all eternity for they are not one bit sorry for what they did…Pedophiles are often not capable of repentance their reward for their diabolical vile deeds is no repentance and hellfire on the day of contention for by their vile acts their souls died and their spirits were changed and they became the devil’s own…If someone is narcissistic and has many affairs and is not genuinely sorry for a thing they are already lost to the devil full of diabolical pride and their reward for their sins is this…Narcissists are left to their own devices and are not capable of knowing or recognizing where they went wrong in life…That is the wrath of the Most High God of life at work in these ungodly unholy vicious wretched creatures whose spirits were changed and souls were destroyed by the devil himself whom they were deceived into idolizing…Now in cases like the case of my own mother…My mother was never intentionally wicked…God love her my poor mother does not take sick pleasure in seeing others fail…My mother is not well and has not been well for years now…Yet in my eyes my poor mother despite serious problems is a living saint…I trust that my beloved now elderly mother could attain heaven by virtue of birthing all eight of her children…By virtue of taking care of all eight of us when we were too little to care for ourselves…By virtue of ensuring all eight of us were always very well fed and though not the best dressed we were always clothed and we had a warm home…Both my parents practiced heroic virtues and holy love hidden from the demonic wicked lost culture of death were the heroic virtues of my beloved parents…Before the throne of the Most High God of life are the tears of my parents from their youth as testimony against the wicked…Before the throne of the Most High God of life are my childhood tears as testimony against the wicked…Before the throne of the Most High God of life are the numerous virtues of my beloved now elderly mother whose hands were calloused from years of hard work…Years of washing cloth diapers…years of cooking and cleaning and ensuring all eight of her charges were well cared for…Years of tears shed in bitter disappointments yet despite these disappointments my mother never lost her faith and to this day that woman prays for her children and her family…Despite a horrific childhood in the druidic wicked lost Irish school system in the 1930’s the 1940’s and 1950’s my mother is heroic virtuous and strong…My mother has a decent chance of attaining heaven by dint of her heroic virtues and heroic patience with all eight of us myself included…The wicked who destroyed families around the world via vile systemic abuse will never see the face of the God of life…I tear up as I write this…For no justice was done on earth for the abused for the children destroyed around the world in the name of God of all things…Justice will come…Justice will fall from the mighty arm of the God of life…My heroic virtuous mother never thought to limit the births of her own children neither would it ever occur to my mother to consider an abortion…Just as it would never occur to my virtuous mother to call others the seed of the devil…Sure me mammy tells me to go to hell a lot but I just smile and say mum ya don’t have the power to send your own daughter to hell and you can thank the God of life for that…My feisty Irish Mammy has not been well for many years…For a woman who prays every day of her life it makes no sense to tell her own daughter to go to hell unless you understand the narcissism and pathology behind my mother’s behaviors…No my mother is not wicked at all she is simply not well that’s all…Tis the wicked however that abused my mother as a child who will burn in hell for all eternity…By virtue of the prayers said in good faith by my beloved crazy mum I trust that she will attain heaven and that I may also attain heaven though not one of us is sure of heaven…Virtues are noted in the book of life in a mystical way not known to mankind and hidden from the wicked and hidden from the devil himself who has no access to the powers of the one who created him who is the devil…The God of life…As a thank you for reading this reflection…Enjoy my latest crazy silly song titled Mouawh – Guaranteed to blow your mind…Also enjoy my playlist titled Fake Diva and Fake Psychic…I actually got myself hired as a psychic as a learning experience…I work part time now as a psychic…Due to rules and regulations I cannot tell you the name of my employer or my psychic name…What I can tell you is this…I get a lot of calls mostly from women who are very neurotic and desperate for a man…So desperate these women demand that I tell them what they want to hear…These women are often married already and having affairs due to the misery of their marriages…I do get some calls from men too who also have affairs though the men are much less neurotic than the women…I see more neurosis in women than men from the calls I get…I care about my callers and I thought long and hard before I took this job…Callers will either love me or hate me…I went from three stars to four stars to four and a half stars out of five stars…I go up and down from four and a half stars to four stars…Because I tell my callers the truth with love…If they are making bad choices such as having affairs I tell them that and that I see no future with the one with who they are having an affair…I often give callers practical advice and information particularly on narcissism if they are in a narcissistic union…I help a lot of people and the ones who love me really love me…One good woman wrote that she would give me ten stars if she could…I do pick up on a lot of stuff from my callers I can tell if they are married or not and the kind of work they do…I cannot connect with every one who calls because many callers are bored and not sincere with me…I am not afraid to honestly tell my callers whether or not I feel a connection and I do encourage them to hang up if they do not feel connected with me…I do not encourage callers to call back unless they want to…I tell my callers that all of us have intuition we are all spiritual people and everybody has a gut they need to learn how to trust…Hence the term trust your gut…I write in to my employer to ask that my unhappy callers be given full refunds with my blessing…I do my very best like everybody else and that is good enough for me…Callers are often paying for some comforting reassurance and I do affirm many callers for making good sound choices…I refuse to tell callers with itchy ears what they want to hear…I tell them the truth with love and they can take it or leave it…The truth can be as simple as I am not feeling a connection with you on my end I suggest you try someone else…I always thank my callers for choosing me and that I respect them and value their time and money…I do not try to create a dependence on calling me…Rather I do my best to help my callers to recognize their own intuitive abilities and to empower them to trust themselves more…I never offer magical solutions only good old fashioned prayer…I pray for all of my callers and send all of them including my haters good will…My message is this you do not have to be psychic to know right from wrong…Affairs are rotten and plain wrong do not have an affair full stop…Do not waste other people’s time with your money calling demanding sympathy and to hear only what you want to hear with your itchy ears…It is a massive waste of time and money…I end calls with callers who are having affairs very abruptly because these callers are wasters of time and money and love…The only kind of love callers like that want is false love…And false love is a losing game…As a thank you for reading this reflection enjoy my songs titled Mouah and Itchy Ears and False Love is a Losing game…As well as my Fake Diva and Fake Psychic playlist that uses comedy to make fun of so many falsehoods out there…I also have a fake transvestite video that uses comedy to make fun of falsehoods…I am a fake transvestite that means that I am already a woman so I don’t have to change a thing and I already birthed a child of my own…Drum roll please!!! Comedy and Humor evokes laughter which is often the best medicine in both good times and bad times…A word on psychics I have a friend who is a professional psychic she is a sweat heart one of the nicest people I know…She never charged me for her services and she helped me out with an emergency hotel stay when I had an emergency move…She encouraged me to apply for the psychic job I now have…She saw my mystical abilities as a gift that I should share with the world…My psychic friend who is excellent at what she does…Understands my crazy sense of humor when it comes to my fake psychic sessions on you tube…In my playlist titled Mouawh you will find four songs…Itchy Ears and two versions of my song titled False Love Is A Losing Game and my latest song titled Mouawh – Guaranteed to blow your mind…