Not One Of Us – A Reflection

This poem titled Not One Of Us was authored by Akiane kramarik at age 9 in her book titled My Dream Is Bigger Than I – Memories of Tomorrow – Part Three Page 116 “You will need your own copy of this book to view the full text of this poem.  I limit quotes for the purpose of discussion and to follow copyright guidelines that allows for limited quotes.”

This poem titled Not One Of Us consists of four stanzas with seven lines in the first three stanzas and six lines in the fourth stanza…The photograph I choose for this reflection was taken at the Oceanário de Lisboa in Lisbon Portugal…For me the drops of water from the backdrop of the waterfall represents the tears of the just – the just whom as the scriptures say “The Lord Causeth The Rain To Fall On The Just”….In this poem the letter Y in the word you is Capitalized and exaggerated so the word you looks like this Y o u. This poem talks about diabolical pride narcissistic pride where there is too much of You in each person who these days are too full of themselves to make room for the word Us…I will quote from this poem now…This poem describes what the seed of the devil looks like summed up to one diabolical narcissistic word Y o u. “Not one of us has ever invented such a ruined history as Y o u Not one of us has ever desired for the resurrection to be just a treasured lie as Y o u”. This is from the third stanza…This poem is talking about the devil and the works of the devil hidden in lies and deceit…”The lies have a life sentence–The truth has never ever told the truth of the lies Because there is no truth in lies Because there is no truth in Y o u” This is from the last stanza…My God the lies told to women to push abortion on demand would turn the stomachs of the most hardened men on the field of battle…I spoke to a woman yesterday who is Roman Catholic she told me that as a young woman she used contraception…She proceeded to tell me that her first marriage failed that her first husband had problems so they divorced…She told me that she has a daughter from that failed marriage…Children are always a gift no matter how they come no child is a mistake and I am glad she has a lovely daughter…I am sad her marriage failed…This woman proceeded to tell me that she had a one night stand and out of that one night stand she discovered that she was pregnant…At that time she was single newly divorced and this was in the 1980’s in the USA…She told me that her friends were having abortions all the time and that some of her girlfriends had four or five abortions…So at around one month or so of pregnancy this Roman Catholic woman at the age of 24 went by herself and paid two hundred dollars to terminate her pregnancy via abortion on demand…This woman proceeded to tell me that the father of her child was from Germany visiting the USA on military duty and that she had no way of contacting him to inform him that he had become a father…Because this was a one night stand she had no contact details for that man…Consequently a man from Germany fathered a child that was murdered via legal homicide abortion and he will never know in this life that this happened…This woman proceeded to tell me that after her abortion she entered a twelve step program of recovery from alcohol addiction and that it was in this recovery program that this Roman Catholic Woman found God…This woman then told me that she met another man at a time in her life when she was more stable and they got married and had two more children together and they are still married to this day…This woman then told me that the doctors who took care of her during the birth of her last child that she needed to have her uterus removed because her uterus was hanging also known as a hanging uterus which can happen to women…After some time this woman realized that the doctors had done a complete and total hysterectomy that she was lied to and as a result she suffers from chronic pain every day of her life and has a bag attached to her stomach to help her with her basic bodily functions…As I was listening to her story…I realized that this woman was traumatized like so many women are traumatized…That the abortion was traumatic for her because she did not fully understand what she was doing and she was very young then…She was only 24 years old…I myself was fresh out of college at the age of 24 and was very naive then….I told this woman that when I was young in my 20’s I was also very naive and innocent…that I myself went to planned parenthood to request the contraception pill. Yes I was going to go on the pill. I tell you this and I told this woman this because I am no different than anybody else and I am sure as hell not perfect…While I was waiting for my appointment I noticed an angry glare from the woman behind the counter the receptionist…She looked very angry and glared at me with vile hatred…Demonic hatred and I felt the presence of pure evil at that planned parenthood in Albany, New York…While waiting in the waiting room I noticed a journal and so I opened up this journal and realized that women who came to planned parenthood for abortions would write sad goodbye notes to their unborn babies…This really struck me it hit home for me…So while I was sitting in that waiting room it seemed to me that time had stopped no one came to me to complete my appointment…So I wrote in that journal a pro life message encouraging these pregnant women to keep their babies…Now I was not pregnant but I was looking into contraception to prevent pregnancy…It was then that the God of life spoke to me and told me that if I went on contraception that I would die from disease from sex addiction…That I would not be particular about my partners and that I would end up dead…I say this because the communication I received came to me rapidly in the form of thoughts not voices or words rapid fluid thoughts…This terrified me and I really did not like planned parenthood so I left that terrible place and never ever returned…I never did go on the contraception pill…I have a history with men that included condom use that is part of my past…I say this to state that after being abused for years from age five on up as an Irish Roman Catholic I was messed up in the head and I had no sense of value or self worth…I never thought much of myself and I was conditioned through years of abuse to hate myself…After I was raped by a Roman Catholic Priest and discovered that I was pregnant from that rape…I became a mother for the first time in my life…I became a mother…My child will be twelve years old soon…The verbal abuse I got from the Roman Catholic Church would make your head spin and turn your stomach. A Roman Catholic Priest told me that my child should never have existed should never be born and tried to pressure me by guilt into having an abortion…I told that creep to go to hell…I had to move from New York to the Midwest to start my life over…My God my own family harassed me and verbally abused me…My own mother to this day has no interest in me or my child…My mother made no effort whatsoever to meet her own grandchild…My own toxic abusive fucked up family tried to fill me with toxic shame…One of my own brothers called me in South Dakota when he was drunk to verbally abuse me…My crazy sister in law would call me when she was drunk and complain about her husband who is my youngest brother and my family…My God I had nothing no one no support and all I ever got was verbal abuse and harassing useless stupid phone calls from toxic people…To be Roman Catholic is to be fucked up so fucked up that you have no values no moral compass and no common sense that is what it means to be Roman Catholic…Roman Catholics are fucked up twisted sick bastards…I would know because I was one for years and God knows I was not well for many years due to years of hell on earth years of abuse thanks to the filthy fucked up sex cult that is the Roman Catholic Pedophile Church…Roman Catholics are more concerned about keeping up appearances than anything else and they are narcissistic cunts…Too full of themselves to give a shit about anyone or anything else…There is too much of the word Y o u in fucked up narcissistic Roman Catholics…I got better after I got the hell out of the Roman Catholic Church…I discovered that a known pedophile Roman Catholic Priest a scumbag creep accessed my family for abuse and used me as a pawn to access boys and possibly my own brothers for abuse…That creep died three years ago…I am sure he is rotting in hell…Heaven is not for these creeps who rape children…Roman Catholics are unsafe dirty rotten scoundrels who serve the devil himself and they themselves are devils both large and small devils…Roman Catholics love to gossip and put each other down at every turn and they attack each other and sabotage both themselves and others…These are horrible people…Also Roman Catholics hate their own children and other people’s children and love to abuse children at every turn…Roman Catholics find false faults with those they hate and when confronted with the crimes of their church they defend their crimes and say that “I” never did this or that…Or Roman Catholics will say “that’s not my problem” or “that has nothing to do with me”…I cannot wrap my mind around the warped mentality of crazy Roman Catholics…One woman told me she is angry that her image is tarnished from the child abuse cases around the world….She is more angry about how difficult it is for her rather than being angry about the crimes done by her vicious horrible church…That is very concerning…Roman Catholics have no conscience and are a bunch of liers and thieves rapists and child killers who do not care about the welfare and safety of their own children never mind other people’s children…The Roman Catholic Church is nothing but a den of thieves a den of vile diabolical narcissists…There is no truth in a Roman Catholic only lies from hell itself…Roman Catholics think that all they have to say to victims of their sex cult are the words “sorry” as if that makes the crimes of their cult go away or ok….Sorry is not good enough sorry is not acceptable because for millions of children around the world sorry never came and no justice was served…I am certain the Roman Catholic Church will burn in hell for all eternity…I am certain too that the only keys held by that vicious child sex cult are the keys to hell the ninth circle of hell itself…The Roman Catholic Women I have spoken too are lost sheep too lost to themselves to understand they are lost to their own devices…Horrible people cannot be helped or saved for by their diabolical pride they condemn themselves to hellfire for all eternity…Nobody wins in the war of all flesh and this New Generation has too much of Y o u which leaves no room for children which makes couples about us rather than Y o u….As a thank you for reading this reflection enjoy my playlist of my own original songs titled my fiat….For all of the abused this post is for you…