When We Lift The Shell – A Reflection

This poem titled When We Lift The Shell was authored by Akiane kramarik at age 9 in her book titled My Dream Is Bigger Than I – Memories of Tomorrow – Part Three Page 82.  “You will need your own copy of this book to view the full text of this poem.  I limit quotes for the purpose of discussion and to follow copyright guidelines that allows for limited quotes.”

This poem When We Lift The Shell consists of four stanzas with two lines in the first stanza and six lines in the next two stanzas and two lines in the last stanza.  The photograph I choose for this reflection is of me standing next to my own father when I was a very young teenager.  This is a photo I love because it reminds me of my father and the gift of music that I inherited from my father… When we lift the shell is a beautiful poem.  The first line opens with these words “Claws have been sharpened”  So at first glance for me the reader I get the sense that “sharpened claws” sounds predatory in the sense that sharpened claws can be associated with attacks and such in the animal kingdom and in our human kingdom.  Such as wolves in sheep’s clothing who attack others and such.  The second stanza goes on to say “But when we lift the shell in the divine nest love waits for us”.  I limit my quote to this to encourage my readers to by from Akiane online her wonderful book so that you can follow along more easily.  I also limit my quotes to follow copyright guidelines that allows for limited quotes for purposes of discussion.  Akiane says so much more in the second stanza but to read that you must purchase your own copy of this amazing book of prose.  Sorry, I do not make the rules I simply follow the rules to the best of my abilities.  Once you purchase Akiane’s book of prose you will be glad you did.  Just as I am very glad I purchased this wonderful masterpiece by Akiane Kramarik.  Akiane says so much in each sentence each word in her poetry that each word is a world in and of itself.  My understanding of this poem and I always limit my reflections to my own reflections in the form of art.  To me the reader this poem talks about how many people today often have rough exteriors.  In other words never judge a book by it’s cover.  That man or woman with many tattoo’s or piercings could be a better friend and a safer person at the end of the day than vicious wolves in sheep’s clothing those who dress nice look the part are very clean cut yet do terrible things in the dark.  I say this because today many people judge others for being different such as if a young teenager dyes their hair a color you think is crazy then that teenager is unjustly judged simply for being young and fun loving.  My perspective is as follows:  I have dealt with wonderful teenaged girls and boys who are very helpful respectful and trustworthy.  I was once helped by a small group of teenaged young men who helped me to lift something that I could not lift and move on my own.  Many people today face being judged for being or acting differently than others.  This has created hatred and anger among many people.  There is so much anger in people today and hatred it is terrifying.  I always do think the best of others and the only way I would think otherwise is if I am proven wrong.  So when I see someone who looks different or acts different I always give everyone no matter who they are a fair chance.  Those involved in gangs and gang activities are a different story.  That being said we should never judge gangs or gang members as such as we have no idea the lives they had that forced these youths into gang activities.  These gang members deserve to be given the chance to make better choices and to forge better lives for themselves and their futures.  To be fair too many of us do not know the half of the abused and the falsely accused.  Too many children today grew up in abusive homes and have had horrible lives.  So that by the time these children get older they are what I call lost youths.  Does this mean we give up on our youths.  Not at all we must always give our youths opportunities and chances to better themselves and to pursue bright futures.  Sad to say the futures of too many young people was stolen taken from them in their early childhoods.  This has produced a crop of very angry youths.  Anger is not bad in and of itself and anger is not a crime and many today have a right to be very angry over injustice and unjust laws that do nothing but enable and aid and abet crimes against the humanity of children from their youth on up.  Anger is not a crime and the dialogue concerning anger in general needs to change.  Instead of telling people you do not have the right to anger and you should not be angry.  Instead change the dialogue to say you have the right to be angry I would be angry too and offer these people young and old constructive ways to deal with their anger.  Rather than demanding they suit up show up and shut up as is often the case.  Many of us to be fair are totally lost today.  Not just our youths caught up in gang violence etc.  Many in professional positions are just as lost as those caught up in violence.  To be fair many today are totally lost.  Many today are seeking truth and in that process of seeking truth often become what they hate the most.  This is the terrible reality.  It is ok to hate injustice and to hate crimes done to humanity that is a fine thing.  We must not allow hatred to enter our hearts so as to harden our hearts so that human beings sharpen their claws to attack anyone in their tracks.  Many today are filled with anger and hatred and they verbally abuse and destroy anyone in their tracks.  This has to change.  The only way this can change is to change the dialogue about anger.  Many have the right to be angry so instead of demanding that many not become angry.  To instead give that angry man woman and child a voice an outlet a listening ear.  Too many are categorically and systemically ignored which is feeding this anger and hatred that we see in society today.  I treat everyone with the same respect.  I do not assume every priest in the Roman Catholic Church is a wolf in sheep’s clothing.  I state this because the Roman Catholic Church is facing a lot of heat these days for crimes done by horrible wolves in sheep’s clothing among their ranks and hierarchy.  Too many in the Roman Catholic Church have sharp claws they have sharpened their claws and are ready to fight and attack anyone who opposes them or challenges them.  Many catholics not all of them mind you but many catholics are expert at twisting words said by those who oppose them and of falsely accusing their opposition of things they are not guilty of.  There are not enough shelves to fit all the books that should be written about the depravity of many Catholics particularly Roman Catholics.  That being said it is not right just or fair to assume that just because someone identifies as Catholic that they are bad wolves in sheep’s clothing.  I do not do this.  I have Catholic friends to this day and they are decent people good people who do their best to be good and to do good.  It is not right just or fair to lump all Catholics into the same category.  Now to be angry about the pederasty prelates and their crimes done to children in the name of God that is ok.  That is ok it is right and just to be angry about these terrible crimes and many Catholics to be fair are also very angry about these crimes.  What I have experienced with many Catholics is too many of them have their claws sharpened in the mystical sense and are ready to verbally claw at and attack anyone who opposes their pederasty crimes.  Too many Catholics support and love their wolves in sheep’s clothing.  Many Catholics state and I quote “it is not just our church that has pederasty crimes”  I agree this is true but does that make these crimes ok?  Hell no.  Too many Catholics and not just Catholics to be fair this is across the board in many churches and organizes.  Too many protect and praise the wolf in their midst.  Such as if there is a bishop who is a corrupt pedophile as was the case where I grew up.  Catholics support and speak well of their pederasty wolf and viciously attack with sharpened claws anyone who opposes their wolf.  This is how awful bishops have been enabled and aided and abetted in being able to remain on their pedestals and to cover up and protect and relocate their vile pedophile clergy.  That is not right or just and it is not fair.  So while one may say that “all is fair in love and war”  sorry I do not know the author of this quote but I quote this as someone else wrote that.  Too many today not just Catholics mind you do not play fair and too many today watch and wait for others to make honest mistakes so that they can in what I call a very Napoleonic fashion watch and wait for that person to make an honest mistake so as to criminalize that person.  I used the word Napoleon because Napoleon Bonaparte of France was excellent in the art of war.  That man was a superb war monger and this is not a compliment.  Napoleon Bonaparte was what I call an evil genius.  Napoleon is quoted as saying “do not let your enemy know when they are making a mistake” .  This is why I mention Napoleon Bonaparte because that evil genius was excellent in his craft of war particularly with his war of words.  Napoleon Bonaparte of France wrote his own laws and the depth and scope of his influences on everything from the Papacy in his days to politics and the military in his day were vast.  It is not possible for me to expound on this evil genius in my limited refection.  So I limit what I say here to simply my expression as a work of art a mere opinion not a statement of fact.  When one studies the life of Napoleon Bonaparte of France it is clear for all to see that this man was indeed an evil genius.  I am not a fan of Napoleon Bonaparte of France because Napoleon Bonaparte of France corrupted the universe with his war mongering which included unjust military laws that allowed his armies to take property land and territories that were not theirs to take.  Then when victims of Napoleons’ war crimes spoke out they were made fun of in unjust court rooms set up more like a theatrical play on law and justice thus systemically denying access to justice for his victims of his war crimes.  The genius behind Napoleon Bonaparte of France would take years of study and similar to a four year degree in college for the average person to be able to wrap their minds around the depravity of the evil genius Napoleon Bonaparte of France.  Too many today not just Catholics have sharpened their claws mystically speaking and are on the attack should anyone oppose pederasty crimes done by their churches and organizations.  So what happens then when the shell is lifted.  Beneath that rough exterior found in many Catholics today and not just Catholics every walk of life.  Beneath that rough exterior there is a divine promise a promise of hope that if minds and hearts change then peace can be restored.  The God of life offers all of mankind not just Catholics mind you all of us the opportunity to look past the rough exteriors of others who are now on the defense with sharpened claws to challenge these abusive types to look to themselves and to ask themselves the tough questions they themselves need to ask.  What Akiane says in the third stanza and ends with in the last two lines of her poem is so true.  I quote Akiane here:  “The darkness prepares our eyes for light The narrow road is a path to see the way — Peace is the password for the sight.  Only the divine instinct can pull us towards paradise”  To appreciate all of Akiane’s poem titled When We Lift The Shell you need to purchase your own copy of her book.  It is so true that “peace is the password for the sight.”  Beneath the rough exterior of abusive types people who are wolves in sheep’s clothing not necessarily rotten or criminals just broken people who need to heal.  To get past the sharpened claws one must look within and allow the tears to flow to foster healing and growth.  Beneath the rough exteriors of criminals and abusive types beneath this shell of exterior hardness is an interior of hope and it is up to each individual human being to harness the hope they have that lies within each person.  At the end of the day only you the individual can change for the better no one else can help with this.  Beneath the shell lies many “hearts of formica” hardened hearts too hardened by years of abuse and years of perpetuating abuse on others.  These hardened hearts are why claws are sharpened and why we have hatred hostility and war because too many hearts today are lost to hardness and too many claws are sharpened to allow the grace of the God of life to enter in so as to soften these hardened hearts.  This makes it impossible then for heaven and the God of life to help those lost to pederasty crimes and other criminality and criminal behavior.  To understand criminal minds it is wise to study the term Narcissism particularly diabolical narcissism the dark triad of NPD also known as narcissistic personality disorder.  Only then can one make sense of crimes done by minds and hearts lost to years of abuse and years of perpetuating cycles of abuse too lost to this to allow grace to enter in beneath their exterior hard shells.  Many with soft exterior appearances have hearts that are more hard than many whose exterior appearances are intimidating.  I say this to make a point.  Too many Roman Catholic Priests and prelates and preachers from other churches too were placed on pedestals and given unfettered access to children around the world.  These men looked nice dressed the part and on their exteriors appeared good and holy when in reality they did ungodly unholy crimes to holy innocent children in the name of God.  Then lets say you encounter a biker man or woman and yes they look rough and heck they might be part of Hell’s angels for all we know.  Yes many bikers not all of them but many can look rough on their exteriors yet many in the biker community rescue dogs from lives of abuse such as the pitbul dogs and other abused animals many bikers have very good hearts and do a lot of good including rescuing human beings from lives of hell in human trafficking.  So if you picture a rough looking man with tattoos and piercings standing next to a pederasty Roman Catholic Prelate be it bishop or priest or nun for that matter.  Picture a rough looking biker gal standing next to a pederasty abusive nun as there are many nuns out there who harmed children in the name of God.  Who then has the greatest chance of heaven?  To be fair not one of us has a clue.  We have no idea who will attain heaven because judgement belongs to the God of life alone.  It is not up to any of us to judge a human being eternally.  We do have earthly judges like Judge Judy I like her show to judge criminals on earth.  Eternally speaking not one of us on earth has a clue who will attain heaven or not.  I dare say many of us will be very surprised who we see in heaven.  That rough looking biker woman or man may have fought tooth and nail to overcome many obstacles to do some real good in the world such as rescues of animals and humans.  As such while men and women may appear rough and tough on the outside many have good hearts and do good. Meanwhile my point is this too many nuns and priests and bishops appear good and holy and harmless yet those who do terrible things to children in the dark are the scum of the earth.  The lowest of the low because these creeps demand loyalty from families who give them unfettered access to their children for abuse.  The argument that not all nuns priests or bishops harm children is getting old and is very silly really.  The same is true of other religions and organizations as well.  The argument that demands of new members to not look at the bad and to just look at the good is silly it makes no sense.  As too many children then are exposed to pedophile wolves in sheep’s clothing hell bent on destroying these children inside and out.  Trust is destroyed today and for good reason.  To be fair Many Roman Catholics are very angry with the wolves in sheep’s clothing in their midst.  We must give Roman Catholics the same respect and consideration we give everyone and always assume the best of them.  I would say this too. That we must treat every person today with distant respect and caution not just Catholics every walk of life. To be fair too many people in positions of trust demand our trust and loyalty and I say no more.  Trust must be earned and to earn trust actions must be done to earn that trust.  It is right and just to hate crimes done to children in the name of God and it is right and just to hate the creeps who do these crimes whose crimes are covered up and protected by corrupt practices that abuses money and power to corrupt the laws of the land in a very Napoleonic fashion so as to categorically and systemically enable and aid and abet pederasty criminal activities to continue unfettered and access to justice remains to this day a distant promise a joke a lie to the victims of pederasty crimes.  The whole thing is a joke.  Families today have been reduced to nothing but opinions and too many wolves in sheep’s clothing are given unfettered access to children that should never have ever been allowed in the first place.  While I do not assume that every prelate wearing a Roman Collar is filthy or vile.  Trust is destroyed because the chances that their bro’s are either raping children or women or in other unions that are indecent too long to mention here including engaging in sexual misconduct with other men and women.  This is why I treat Catholics with distant respect the same as I treat every human being no matter what side of the street or tracks they come from.  Too many in the Roman Catholic Church demanded my respect and loyalty for years and for years this church dictated to me and my family how to act and to behave.  I am no longer Catholic for reasons of my own and I have a right to this.  Just as I have the right to express what I say here in the form of a reflection a work of art nothing but mere opinions just as families and human beings and animals too have been reduced to mere nothings just opinions.  I dedicate today’s reflection for all adults and children suffering presently in abusive situations.  This write up is for you and my hope is that as more awareness is raised as to the extent of the problem of systemic abuse that more and more victims of abuse will take courage and get out of their situations.  I hope too that more survivors will speak up as well.  Stockholm syndrome is why many victims of abuse do not leave or get out.  Many become prisoners of their own minds from years of verbal abuse and other forms of abuse.  When you study the meaning of the words Stockholm Syndrome then many survivors and victims of abuse will begin to understand how it was and how it is possible to become a prisoner in your own mind.  By the grace of the God of my understanding I am no longer a prisoner of my own mind because I too suffered from Stockholm Syndrome from years of childhood abuse growing up as I did in a Roman Catholic Irish home.  Part of my small victory is this.  I got the hell out of the Roman Catholic Church which for me was nothing but a hellhole and a cesspool of filth filled with pederasty wolves in sheep’s clothing and womanizers and carnal horrible men parading around as holy and good meanwhile given unfettered access to my family to destroy us all from within.  No justice was done for my family like so many other families like mine.  Too many creeps in positions of authority abuse their powers of speech to victims like myself and use threatening speech such as you “allege” this happened or you “claim” that happened.  And adult survivors of systemic abuse are often left filled with rage and toxic shame that is not theirs to own.  I have purged myself of toxic shame I did this by the grace of the God of my own understanding.  I did this for myself and my own child whom I love very much.  My child was conceived in rape.  This was not statutory rape neither was this forcible rape.  This was a form of rape known as coerced sex.  I was coerced into sex with a Roman Catholic Priest ten years older than myself who abused his position of trust to coerce me into sex with him.  That creep got me pregnant and the toxic shame that I experienced following this sexual misconduct was horrible.  I have been abused horribly by the Roman Catholic Church since the day I was born.  I have years of experience dealing with horrible Catholics who gaslighted me beyond repair and bad mouthed me so as to destroy my character and name for so long now I lost count of these verbal attacks.  I was told that my child was “the seed of the devil”.  I was told that I and I quote “should never have more children.”  The terrible things done to me by members of the Roman Catholic Church would make your head spin so twisted was the way I was treated.  Twisted like the twisted altars of the Roman Catholic Church with their steps to their altars and large buildings built with filthy Roman Money.  Instead of caring for the poor expensive shrines are built with billions of various currencies around the world.  I can express this in the form of an opinion not as a statement of fact simply an opinion.  After all the years of abuse I endured was reduced to an opinion just as my family was reduced to an opinion.  We are all entitled to our opinions and so I am free as a work of art in this reflection to express my opinions.  The hate speech I got from Roman Catholics would make your head spin this speech and attacks on my character and name were vast.  I suppose its easier to pick on a small single mother than to look to themselves and question their own diabolical pride and histories and to question how the hell they are so tolerant of their own wolves in their midst particularly their own pederasty nasty prelates whom so many Catholics love to trust and adore and keep on pedestals and continue to this day to demand loyalty from families like mine.  I am glad I got the hell out of the Roman Catholic Church.  I do not hate all Catholics though many Catholics love to falsely claim that I hate the Catholic Church.  That is garbage I do not hate their stupid buildings built with money that would be better used to help the poor.  I hate their diabolical pride their narcissistic tendencies their criminal minds and their bold attacks on my family.  I hate their pederasty crimes and I hate that my family was categorically and systemically destroyed from within by known pedophiles in the Roman Catholic Church.  It is a known fact now that this church is full of creeps full of perverts and yet this church demands to this day that we “not look at the bad stuff” and to “ignore the bad things” so as to stay focused on “lists” of saints their church promotes meanwhile ignoring the real cloud of witnesses.   The children destroyed in the dark in the name of a false god found in mass graves in Ireland.  Mass graves I myself personally set foot on found on private properties no less.  Mass graves like the mother baby home in Tuam Ireland where 800 dead babies were discovered who were not given the dignity of Christian burial.  Too many saints exists in heaven that it is not possible for the stupid Roman Catholic Church to list them all and to ask that you write to their “wonderful” prelates for such lists of for example “25” new saints etc.  I say this to make a point and to express my right to be disgusted with this church for their crimes are vast.  To understand what I say here all you have to do is look up the charity one in four in Ireland and from their website you can access reports like the Ryan report and other such reports on systemic abuse that went on in Ireland in the name of God for more than a Century.  My small victory is this.  That church the Roman Catholic Church no longer tells me how to live my life.  I do not have to confess to  wolves in sheep’s clothing my faults or “sins” because the crimes and “sins” done by many of these wolves in sheep’s clothing are far worse than anything I ever did.  Further to this many Catholics demand very boldly demand brazenly actually that we ignore the faults of their priests their wolves so as to focus on the God their church presents as being the “one true God”.     Well I do not go to their masses or celebrate in their ceremonies and according to Catholics that means that I am “going to hell”.  Too many Catholics brazenly judge and condemn others to hell a judgement and condemnation they have no authority to give or do as judgement and condemnation belongs to the God of life alone.  No human being has the authority to judge.  It is the true Jesus Christ who shall return as the just judge to judge fallen mankind.  Too many today forget this.  To all Catholics I declare this Oh Snap the gig is up the show is over and your masses are a diabolical bad show.  I can say this as a work of art and as my opinion as I make no claim as to statement of fact neither to I claim to speak with authority.  Something Catholics in particular are not used to works of art expressing themselves in reflections like mine.  Too many Catholics have their claws sharpened so as to systemically and categorically destroy any who opposes them.  I am used to this from my years of experience in dealing with nasty Catholics.  The only authority I speak form is the authority given me from my own personal experiences of vile abuse by the horrible people in the Roman Catholic Church which operates in a cult like manner and is filled with child sex cult creeps who do pederasty crimes to children.  These creeps are then protected by their followers who defend their wolves in sheep’s clothing by keeping these wolves on pedestals they have no business being on.  Meanwhile children are devoured and destroyed by pederasty prelates and nothing is done about this.  To add insult to injury the victims are told that the Roman Catholic Church investigates their own crimes.  What the hell?  How the hell did that come about? How the hell did this church get such authority?  This authority was handed to this cult by their own people who gave this church money and power to do as they please to destroy families from the inside and outside.  Again this is merely my opinion since clearly by being allowed to investigate their own crimes this criminal empire can then categorically and systemically relocate and cover up their pederasty prelates.  Reducing statements made by their victims to mere “allegations” and “claims”.  Dealing with Catholics is often a nightmare particularly married Catholic Couples many who are idiots too stupid to even grasp the concept that they are endangering their own children and setting their own children up for abuse when they set foot in their churches.  Again I make no claim as to statement of facts save my own personal experiences of abuse from this church.  Too many Catholic couples use birth control in various forms such as natural family planning and other forms of birth control and then these village idiots have their claws sharpened to attack anyone who questions their birth control mentalities.  God forbid catholic couples many of whom are very narcissistic be faced with questioning about why in hell they  think it is ok to keep their wolves on pedestals in silly clerical garb many of whom would rape their children if given a chance.  Put questions like that to Catholic Couples in all their sects and their sharpened claws come out and it gets ugly fast.  No one said it would be pretty my life as a Roman Catholic child sure as hell was not pretty but then many Catholics do not play nice or fair do they.  I say this as my opinion based on my own personal experience with these creeps.  Many Catholics are conditioned to view single mothers like myself as “threats to their husbands” and as wicked fallen women who are “desperate” for men.  The garbage I encountered from Catholics would fill many a book.  I suppose if I end up in hell fire then the whole damned Catholic Church will end up in hell fire.  What the hell did I do to deserve such verbal abuse crimes.  My God if I end up in hell then the whole world will end up in hell.  What the hell did I do to deserve such hate speech.  Simply because I no longer identify as a Catholic this means hell fire yawns before me.  Well then hellfire then yawns before all of us Catholics included.  I wonder who the hell these Catholics think they are at the end of the day to claim they have an authority they never had from the beginning of time to verbally condemn and attack others who are not Catholic or former Catholics claiming we are going to hell.  Well then as a work of art I can say to all Catholics “go to hell” most of you are well on your way to hell by your own bad choices anyway.  Nothing I am doing mind you but by your own bad choices including defending your own wolves and wolves in sheep’s clothing.  I can say this as a work of art and in the form of a reflection.  After all I was told to “go to hell” so many times by Catholic nuns and priests and catholic men and women that I have lost count.  So to be fair I return the favor and tell all Catholics if I am going to hell then so are you.  If I end up in hell fire so will the whole damned reprobates who fill the Roman Catholic Church who destroy families from the inside and outside.  I do not hate Catholics at all it is Catholics who hate my guts and have hated me from the day of my birth.  And now thanks to sexual misconduct by a prelate in the Roman Catholic Cult I am a single mother set up to fail and to be abused more.  I declare this is war a mystical war mind you not a war in the physical sense.  And since a mystical war was declared on my family with mystical contracts for our deaths.  Upon my death heaven will open with fire and brimstone and this mystical war will continue with the help of heaven.  So what do I have to fear from death because I know where I am going when I die unlike many others I know to whom I am returning.  When I am returned to my creator the God of life at the appointed time known to God alone.  Hellfire is no match for the war to come with the help of heaven and the cloud of witnesses destroyed in the name of a false God.   The jealousy of the God of life is far greater than anything hell has got.  Further to this the wrath of the God of life is mightier than the sword.  I declare then let the word of the God of life convict and destroy anyone who dares destroy me or my family verbally or otherwise.  I declare let the word of the God of life convict my enemies.  I declare this mystically speaking after all I am nothing but a bug to be crushed in the eyes of many.  I am free to express this as a work of art to all those with sharpened claws.  Sharpened claws are no match for the word of God.  “Hell hath no fury like a woman scorned  and while I have most certainly been scorned so too has Mary the mother of the true Jesus Christ.”  Mary the mother of the true Jesus Christ whom every generation calls blessed according to the word of God.  This Mary is the one mentioned in genesis she is the woman set to crush the head of the devil who is satan who is lucifer and all his works.  To those of us who understand this death has no sway over us.  I cannot be bought for a price because the price for my blood which still courses through my veins as I write was already paid by the blood of the true Jesus Christ and the blood of my ancestry destroyed and martyred in the name of a false Christ.  It means nothing to me if my blood is shed.  I do not fear this for I know to whom and where I will go when I die.  For those of us who believe there is a God a creator and a heaven and a hell.  Heaven will return at the appointed time known to God alone to battle the wicked one who is the devil and his legions his apostate hosts from all circles of hell not just the 9th circle of hell from all of hell itself.  “Hell hath no fury like a woman scorned”  I have been scorned and so has Mary the mother of the true Jesus Christ.  Crimes done to children in the dark in the name of a false Christ has scorned Mary who is outraged incensed by these heinous crimes.  The anger of mankind over crimes against the humanity is nothing but a candle compared to the anger of Mary the mother of the true Jesus Christ the holy just anger of heaven will be unfurled at the appointed time known to the God of life.   Many will envy the dead many will wish they were dead and many will despair.  Only those who understand the mystical war we wage will remain strong enough to endure what lies ahead.  To those of us who are authentically Christian death has no say and we cannot be bought by those who do contracts with death.  My contract was made long ago with the God of life written in the book of life.  Nothing even death of my body can ever change this.  For my life was written long before I was born an it is for this that I came to earth.  I came to earth for justice and while justice is not being done in my life time.  Justice will be done with the help of heaven.  When I die at the appointed time known to God alone.  I will return with the cloud of witnesses destroyed my own tribe the tribe of Dan to battle the wicked one who is the devil who is satan who is lucifer and his apostate hosts.  This is simply my opinion not a statement of fact simply a reflection as a work of art.  I do not have to be right.  I claim no authority save the authority of my own life experiences and my own simple Christian faith a gift handed down to me Centuries before spoken to my tribe.  For my God has spoken to the tribes not just my tribe for Centuries now.  Just as my God has spoken to our tribes I now speak and declare a mystical war is already under way.  I speak for my tribe the tribe of Dan and for all the indigenous tribes around the world to whom the God of  life has spoken over the Centuries.  My anger over injustice and crimes done in the name of God to holy innocent children is Centuries in the making.  My anger is centuries old.  Nothing can touch my anger.  Anger is not a crime mind you and the way I handle my anger is unique to me.  I express myself as a work of art through writing and music.  This is my outlet.  To those who laugh at me and do not take what I say seriously fair enough.  Life is silly and I also have a sense of humor.  So laugh away because I declare it is my tribe and the lost twelve tribes of Israel who will have the last laugh.  Though many tears have been shed through centuries of abuse.  Our tribes will have the last laugh and victory so says the God of life in his holy word spoken to the tribes around the world throughout the Centuries.  To all who read my reflections by all means have a laugh you can say to yourselves.  Damn this gal is crazy.  Go ahead have a laugh on me the laugh is on me today.  I have found an outlet for my anger and I have learned how to cope which is the greatest gift I could have ever received.  I also have a wicked sense of humor.  I expect to see more biker men and women in heaven than any religious dudes or women.  I say this to make a point.  Too many today parade around on pedestals as good when they are the lowest of the low and belong in hell which is exactly where they will go if these creeps fail to repent from their hearts of their crimes done to children.  Thank you for reading this and yes have a laugh.  I would not be offended in the least.  Life is too short to be serious all the time.  If what I say turns out to be true then “woe to the man through whom scandals come.  For it must needs be that scandals come.  It is better for a milestone to be tied about the neck of one who harms any of these little ones or scandalizes these little ones and that he be drowned in the depths of the sea than to harm the least of these the holy innocent children.”  I quote this since what I say comes mostly from the word of God sorry if not exact quote.  I let the word of God convict the wicked that is good enough for me.  To the cloud of witnesses who are in heaven this reflection is also for you.  Heaven help us all including the Catholics whom I do not hate despite many false claims that I hate Catholics.  It is many Catholics who hate my guts…This is my voice and this is my truth…As a thank you for reading this reflection enjoy my song written in honor of my own beloved deceased father titled….Are There Wolves Out There…